my sentiments exactly

I've finished with the recommended reading -- about a week too early. Now looking at online resources. Don't wanna get too overconfident, cause that will bite me on the ass for sure. Just taking things slowly for the meantime. BUT I wasn't able to enjoy my vacation time all that well. Thinking of daytrips I could possibly take....? I so want to get this over with though... Hear, hear for the last hurdle. 😐🍺

*celebratory happy dance* Finally. A favorable result. So friggin ecstatic that I'll be able to move on. Will allow myself until today to celebrate with my girls/pems then back to serious mode. Have to stick to the timeline goal. HAVE. TO. FTW. HAHA 😆

Less than 24 hours for the verdict, Unable to concentrate. Thousand "what ifs" awash me, The question is, Do I really wanna know?

Yes, the omnipresent waiting game. Patience is never really a particular favorite virtue of mine, yet almost always gets tested. Countdown: 145 hours to go 😑 On a related note... Always had a sinking feeling that I should be somewhere else. Probably conditioned into this feeling all my life because I was surrounded by the influence since I was young. Currently working towards this, and for the life of me, 2016 is the year of fruition -- hopefully. Guess it's just adventurous/wanderlust me talking, but I'm at the point of desperation -- exasperation. Every day I spend at the workplace makes me feel like heaving a ton of bricks, a huge burden I am bearing. So no, I am not happy any longer... I am fully aware that I should be the instrument of my own happiness. Job satisfaction is a lie; not that I didn't enjoy the experience. A recent withdrawal into taciturnity may be a result of this. I am face to face with a turning point of my life... All whilst I am within "calendar age"

Apparently, I am currently despising myself for a bunch of stupid answers that I've said earlier. Don't even know how many mistakes I've made..and the useless "what ifs" I could've said are haunting me right now. Scared of how it's gonna turn out. Hopefully enough to muster up a passing grade. Wouldn't even think of matching my previous score -- which is a lot more than I expected. #nailbiting I DO HAVE TO FOCUS ON OTHER THINGS/ASPECTS. To quote myself from earlier after the mayhem, "F*cccckkkk!"