last week, I had inklings of a buck cashman x reader story and wanted to bring in some comic book lore with buck's son lance:
reader is separated/divorced with buck, but you remain close because you share a literal human and let's be honest...buck cashman is a catch you can never let go. little plot lines include heather - underlying freaky threesome vibes, little bit of choking from ep 6, jealousy -> admiration (?)
also, anyone notice how heather kept her hair naturally wavy/curly in s1 but it's straightened once she's working for fisk? noticed this straightaway as someone with naturally wavy hair :) ohhh i love this show and the hair, makeup and costume department!!
here are some other points/plot lines that i've thought of:
reader is hired to be vanessa's protection at the recommendation of buck who is requested by fisk to find someone completely trustworthy to protect his family. of course, buck's gotta bring in his ex-wife who also used to work in shadow ops...
this causes a bit of a conundrum between you. brings up feelings of self-doubt, wanting to be present for lance but also missing the thrill of your work, the risk of former enemies targeting your family.
vanessa and fisk have a son who is richard fisk, of course. he and lance are probably home-schooled together or something, still figuring out how these children could fit in.
this will be set in my marvel universe where everything is connected and anything is possible. so if you've watched agents of s.h.i.e.l.d, spider-verse, read some comics, are a fan of romance, drama, action, angst, please do send in some ideas that you'd think could be yummy to read!!
this is definitely very big-headed of me to think that i could pull this off because writing fiction does not come easy to me at all but i love daredevil, i love buck cashman, i love angst, romance, drama, action, morally complicated characters.
i'm going to have plenty of free time this summer so i hope to get this off the ground and have something to share by the time i go back to work!
reader will not have any physical description except experienced childbirth with lance, has more flexibility than the average person because of bedroom activities the nature of your work. do you know how annoyed i get when i read "runs a hand through your hair" on a non-descriptive reader fic when i have naturally frizzy, curly hair lolololol.
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Pairing: Epilogue Charles Smith x F!Reader/ Former Arthur Morgan x F!Reader
WC: 7K
Summary: Arthur is dead, and the years are long.
Warnings: 18+ sexual content, piv, unsafe sex, oral sex, hand jobs, grief, pregnancy (don't boo me!) canon typical violence, racism and misogyny, death, animal death, sickness, photo credits here, here, here
A/N: This is a continuation of my fic I miss the sun, he knows. If this doesnβt go in a direction you were expecting, that makes two of us! But I have to post, or I'll keep stewing in self-doubt. I hope you enjoy it and consider letting me know what you think.
1899, Wapiti Reservation
"Stay here. Help Charles, help them."
"Stay? You piece of shit."
You wish you could hit him. The arm that you are sure is broken has been strapped to your chest, and you cannot. Arthur's face is exhausted, worn with grief. Eagle Flies lies dead behind the veil of the tent, and the air is thick with the song of mourning. He does not flinch, and Charles turns away, muttering that there is much to do. So it is just you and Arthur, standing on the ruined camp.
"Please. Please, I'll come with you." You are begging, now. Folding your good hand into his worn jacket, you clutch at him. "My arm is fine. I can ride andβ"
"Sweetheart," Arthur says, patience lacing every word. His bloodshot eyes are soft with affection "You're hurt." He peels back the fingers fisted in his lapel and flattens them over his heart. Each breath rattles through his lungs. His heartbeat, once steady and reassuring, is erratic against your palm.
Sighing, he gathers you to him, curling his arm around your good side. He threads his other hand through your hair, cradling your head to his chest. Your cheek moulds to his heart. You let him protect you with his body for the last time.
He's so thin. He needs to eat more.
. . .
1902, Cumberland Forest
The throat under the steel toes of your boot swallows with fear. The muzzle of your gun presses hard into the skin of a liver-spotted forehead. Just an old man. You wait for pity to pierce the crocodile-hide of your heart. It doesn't. Grinding the tip of your boot into the paper-thin skin of his neck, you watch as he splutters. Droplets of spittle coat the toe of your boot and soak his tobacco-stained moustache. This putrid show of weakness sends a wave of revulsion over you. You press the gun into his forehead so far back that it smushes the back of his rotten head into the dirt.
"He's no good to us dead," Charles says mildly.
"Ain't no good to anyone alive." You ease the pressure of the gun back.
"Three hundred dollars seems like a pretty good reason to keep him alive."
William Randall. Killed his young wife, killed his children, too. Then lit off to live like a wild man in the woods. A three-hundred-dollar bounty for a man approaching his seventies. Wanted alive so the good people of Valentine can see the Sheriff enact justice. Light work for you and Charles. Apparently not.
You look back at Charles. He stands, quite at ease. The ends of his long, dark hair lift in the wind and pieces come loose from the cord, pulling it off his face. They drip into the collar of his coat. His face is unreadable. You take your boot off the old man's chest, and he coughs. Chest rattling, he curls in on himself, coughing and writhing. You flinch violently at the sound, and your grip falters on the gun. Before you can gather your wits, Randall yanks the knife from your boot and a starburst of pain explodes on your shoulder. It sends you reeling back. The old bastard is spry. Charles is on him in a moment, dragging his body up and slamming him face down into the dirt.
You groan and drag yourself up.. Charles has his knee planted on the old man's thin back. Blood soaks into your old duster coat. Arthur's old coat. Charles turns his head to look at you, his brow knit.
"I'm fine." You call. "Just my shoulder. He slashed it." You lift yourself from the mud, pressing the heel of your palm, trying to stop the slow spread of the blood over your coat. The mud soaks into your breeches, cold and slimy. Charles grabs Randall by the wisps of grey hair covering his skull and holds his hunting knife to his throat, beads of blood collecting at the razor edge.
"Want me to kill him?" He looks at you, solemn as an owl.
"Nah. Like you said, no good to us dead." You manoeuvre yourself to your feet, and with all the strength in you, kick the old man's jaw sideways.
Charles ties the man up, lest he wake up and try to escape. Fat chance of that happening with a broken jaw and the ankle Charles obligingly shattered. You lean against Guinevere heavily, and she noses at you, anxious. A little blood drips onto her silken red coat. Your initial assessment was correct; it is just your shoulder. But the blood loss makes your vision swim. Charles turns into an amalgamation of colours, blending in against the backdrop of the woods. Once Randall is stowed on Taima, who paws restlessly, he catches your elbow. You hadn't even realised your knees were trembling.
"That's a lot of blood." His voice is calm. Carefully, he peels open the collar of the coat and feels along the wound. His hand is warm, and you watch minute movements of his jaw as he checks you for any serious injury. From his saddle bag, he takes a clean rag and, with a soft apology, tourniquets your arm. You gasp and clutch at the frayed sleeve of his coat. Murmuring soothingly, he adjusts your wrist against your side so you do not jostle the wound.
"Think you can ride?"
"'Course I can ride." You scoff, and then wince as speaking jostles you. He does not contest this, but helps you onto Guinevere all the same, boosting you up with his hand braced on your calf.
A six-mile ride feels like six years. Your vision swims, and a steady drip of blood is pooling under your coat. You fist the reins and blink hard. Every rock and ditch makes itself known to your shoulder. Even the sway of Guinevere's flanks makes you gag a little, your head stuffed with cotton.
"Camp here tonight. I can ride into Valentine tomorrow to deliver. You can rest."
"So you can claim all my money?" You giggle very unseriously. Charles's brow knits with concern.
"I wouldn't." He says quietly. "But we can wait to deliver him, I was only worried his heart would give or somethin'."
You feel rather foolish, looking at his serious face. The blood rushes to your head, and when you dismount, he is there to catch you. Gratefully, you slump into the circle of his arms. He's warm, and the fabric of his coat is rough against your cheek. Charles's breath comes quick and panicked against your hair, but when he speaks, his voice is steady as ever.
"Could use a few stitches. Still bleeding."
You find yourself eased onto the ground and steered into a sitting position. When you slump into the broad bulk of his shoulder, his arm goes around you, and you feel his flask against your lips. The whiskey in it burns against your mouth pleasantly. He is talking, low but urgent. You cannot make out words, only the deep rumble in his chest. He smells like smoke and leather. Familiar.
Drifting, a velvety sleep overcomes you. The quiet, even voice in your ears turns gravelly and accented. The hands on your face and hair do not touch you impersonally, like a carer's. Instead, it is a lover's touch. You go, willing.
You wake to the crackle of a fire and a piercing pain in your shoulder. Blearily, you get your bearings. Charles sits across the fire, a piece of wood and a carving knife in his hands. Wood shavings curl into scrolls, falling at his feet. You sit up, feeling at your shoulder. It has been sewn and bandaged neatly.
"Charles?"
Looking up, he rises from his spot at the fire, and he kneels beside your bedroll. The shirt you wear is one of his, you realise. Soft and brown, the collar sags around your clavicle.
"I cut you out of your shirt." He says apologetically. "Don't think it'll scar too badly, though."
"When have I ever cared about that?" You snort with wry laughter. Once, a long time ago, a whole lifetime ago, you were ashamed of them. You had wanted to look as pretty and as lovable as Mary Beth or be as graceful as Tilly. All those women, like beautiful flowers in the desert of your life. Arthur used to kiss the scar where he shot you and tell you that it looked like a comet against your skin.
Charles has seen you, you realise. Your cheeks burn hot.
"Where's Randall?" You say suddenly, thinking of the three hundred dollars.
Charles grins a rare, wide grin and rises. With Charles no longer blocking your vision, you are treated to the sight of William Randall, the family killer, trussed up like a hog and tied to a tree in his shirtsleeves.
You feel better already.
. . .
1902, Valentine
"Is my nose really so big?"
The woman in the bounty poster stares back at you, her face hardened by rough living, her eyes sharp and mouth downturned. The cloud of hair rendered around her head makes her look wild and unkempt. The scar on her face cuts through her brow viciously. You touch your hair. Three thousand dollars for the woman in the poster. Good thing that isn't you, you have long since changed your name. Ripping the poster from the board, you shove it into your coat pocket. Your shoulder aches from the wound. Stitched up at Charles's insistence, it throbs under your ruined coat.
"The saloon's got a room. Could ride out to the reservation in the morning." Charles says from behind you. The sun is beginning to set, and staying in plain view is unwise. Valentine has expanded from the backwards cattle town; it is harsher and darker. Buildings have sprung up from where there was only flat earth and soft grass. Eyes are everywhere. A woman in men's garb and a man as scarred and massive as Charles are sure to attract attention. But the two of you are effective. So you go by different names and drag in criminals of a lower status than yourselvesβand you get by.
The saloon room is dark and small, but clean. It is not crowded, but there is no point getting separate rooms. You would not be able to sleep without the even sound of Charles's breathing. You lie side by side, faces turned to the slanting ceiling. A thin shaft of light illuminates the room. The bed is too soft.
Charles speaks first.
"Arthur's grave is out this way."
You shut your eyes.
"Could ride past it. If you want." He says, no pressure behind his voice.
You have not seen Arthur's grave. You only know that it was Charles who buried him, and you are grateful that it was. If it had been you, given the chance, you might have crawled into the grave with him. You would have curled yourself around the bones that had carried him for so long and let yourself be taken by the elements. A hillside, Charles said. Where he would have wanted to be. As long as you do not see it, Arthur is where you want him to be. You might wake and find him snoring next to you. You can imagine that you hear the scratch of his pen, or feel the scrape of his beard against your face.
You wake slowly to the faint light seeping through the saloon window's grimy panes. Sometime in the deep of night, Charles must have shifted in his sleep, his arm now slung heavily across your waist. He's warm, and you can feel his heart beating steadily against your spine. Mumbling, he buries his face in the loose masses of your hair.
You shift in his arms, and he stirs into wakefulness, not before you feel the hard press of him against your lower back. There is a heartbeatβs worth of stillness where neither of you moves, where the creak of the bed and the faraway buzz of the waking town are the only sounds in the room. Then he draws in a sharp breath.
βSorry,β he mutters, voice thick and low, and his arm jerks away as if burned.
"Itβit's fine." But he is already turning away, dressing hastily. You exhale, an odd, brimming guilt in your stomach. Sleeping side by side under the stars is one thing; the whole land is your witness. Despite how quiet he is, it is never awkward between you two; there is always that steady companionship. The peace of knowing he will never push you to speak.
Charles is so warm.
. . .
1903, Temporary Wapiti Settlement
Hidden in a wide crevice of rock near the settlement is a creek. Water has been scarce, and you have had to make do by washing yourself by wiping the sweat and grime off your bodies with rags. Bounty hunting alone is tough on the body, and having Charles with you has made it easier.
Carefully, you work the buttons of your shirt open. Your shoulder aches from the wound, but it has healed considerably better than you thought it would. You unwrap the bandage, flexing a little. It will leave a scar, one of many. You survey yourself without emotion. The scars on your stomach and arms, and slashing over your collarbones. Vanity no longer afflicts you, and you have come not to worry about beauty any more. Undressing, you remove your hair from its plait and comb it out with your fingers. It has grown since you took a pair of shears to it and cut it to your jaw. It just sweeps the tops of your breasts, now. It is not convenient to have long hair in the wild. Charles does, though. It had struck you as odd that he would keep it so long. When you asked him, he said that it was something his mother believed was important.
The water is warm. Slipping in, you let it soothe your aching muscles.
Footsteps crunch softly on the gravel. You turn your head. It is Charles. Fully dressed, still in the clothing you wore while travelling. His shirt, tucked into his trousers, and his vest open. The afternoon sun slants through the crevice, gilding his dark head. His hair has been freed from the piece of twine he had been using on the ride, and the breeze picks it up so it curls in the air like black smoke.
He stills completely when he spots you, dark eyes widening a fraction as they find you among the water-worn stones of the creek. Surprise distorts the strong planes of his face, and his hand goes to the back of his neck as he averts his eyes. Even though it is just your shoulders and the hints of your breasts he can see, you feel oddly exposed. How ridiculous. It is only Charles who has seen you undressed a thousand times before. His voice carries over the bubble of the creek and the call of the birds.
"Didn't know you were here." His voice, low and steady. His skin is so smooth and dark that you never see him flush, but you can hear it in his voice. Fixing his eyes on the ground, he takes a half-step back. "I can go. Give you some peace."
"IβIt's alright. Nothing you haven't seen before." In all these weeks travelling to see Rains Fall, how many times have you curled into the same bedroll for warmth? How many times has he woken you from the nightmares that plague you and held you till you fall asleep again? You have lived in such proximity that it should not be strange for him to see you undressed. Still, he hesitates, "There's no point to riding back. Stay."
Quietly, he sheds his clothing on the gravel surrounding the spring. You turn your head to give him some privacy, but in your periphery, the expanse of scarred skin is slowly revealed with every movement. His ribs are a bruised, blotchy purple, just visible in the deep, warm brown of his skin. He winces as he unbuckles his belt and shucks his trousers off. He is so graceful that you forget how large he is sometimes. Arthur had never been graceful, his bulk always apparent in the way he fought, the way he made love.
This thought dissolves as the water ripples with Charles's entry. Sighing, he shuts his eyes as he leans against the rock basin. The ends of his inky black hair swirl at the surface of the water.
"Feeling better?" He says, angling his head towards your shoulder.
"It's my own fault." You say, "I lost focus."
He shuts his eyes again, and you find yourself oddly struck by his nakedness. He is not hairy, as Arthur had been; the skin of his chest is smooth and deep brown, littered with scars. The ball of his bicep flexes as he takes a cupful of water in his hand and splashes it onto the laceration on his ribs. You had not noticed he was hurt. Then again, he does not let you worry about much.
You turn in the water, and Charles reaches for you, that instinctive movement so like the one where he draws for his shotgun.
His hand catches your elbow to keep you from slipping against the slick rock. You look up at him. He is already looking at you.
The body keeps score, you have realised. While your mind roils with guilt, your body wants and wants. Charles's hand has curled to cradle your elbow, and a keen desire to read his mind strikes you. Immovable as he seems, Charles is a man. He must have desires, too. Unconsciously, you have turned your body to his, the way a flower faces the sun. If you could not see the rapid rise and fall of his chest, you would think he was made of stone.
Turning your palm inward, you brace it against the inside of his forearm. The veins in his forearm pulse with his breath. You slide your hand upward, along the swell of his bicep, the slashing scar on his pectoral. The scar is ridged against your fingertips. He is still now, barely breathing. His heartbeat slams against your palm.
Slowly, his hand begins to search you. The pads of his fingers are rough as they travel up your shoulder, thumbing the healing wound.
"It's healing well." He says, you can almost hear a tremor in his voice.
"Yeah. It's thanks to you. I wouldn't have stitched it if I were on my own."
Somehow, you stand close in the sway of the creek, braced on each other for balance. Something brushes your thigh. Charles tenses, all the muscles in his body locking. Oh.
Shifting, he leans his body away from yours. "I didn't mean toβ" He mutters, the scar on his cheek turning pink.
βNo.β Your fingers tighten around his wrist before you can stop yourself. βDonβtβyou donβt have to pull away.β
His eyes flick up to your face, searching. The sound of the water, like bells.
"I want to. I do." You splutter. "But Iβnot all at once."
He exhales. His other hand comes up to rest at your waist, careful, like heβs afraid youβll break. βAlright,β he murmurs. βAlright.β
Curling your arm about his neck, you press close. His hair is thick and silky against your hand, and you tentatively pull your fingers through it. Then, he sighs and presses his mouth to yours, tentatively at first but then with a swift urgency that leaves you gasping and clutching at him. How long has it been since you have been touched? Mumbling, you brace your back against a rock. He crowds you against it. Both of you deserve something to ease the loneliness.
Reaching under the water to grasp him, you circle your hand around the heft of his cock. He grunts and twitches in your hand. Tentatively, you stroke upward, and he makes a strangled noise. He is hard and thick in your hand. Pressing your thighs together, you twist your wrist experimentally. The thick fringe of his eyelashes brush the tops of his high cheekbones. The scar on his cheek pulls taut. Slowly, you move your hand, studying the play of his muscles. Groaning, he drops his face to the slope of your neck, tasting the droplets of water collected there.
Then, his hands search between your thighs and find the parting in between. He, too, moves experimentally. Easing one thick finger in, he mouths the curve of your neck. You tighten around him, and he gentles the movement, those deft archer's fingers making you gasp. Everything in you is aching and crying out, desperate to be touched. He eases a second finger in, and you whimper, a desperate, animal sound.
"Too much?" Charles whispers, mouth brushing your temple. You kiss his cheek, his jaw.
"Go on, Charles."
. . .
1904, Three Sisters
Taima is dying. Her head rests in Charles's lap, his big hand smoothing along her shuddering neck. She is felled by a bullet, a flyaway one from a stage you and Charles foolishly tried to rob. And now Charles, always proud, always steady, comforts his dying horse. The spots on her flank blur as you blink away tears. You stand in the grove, the wind whistling around you. His hair lifts in the breeze, but otherwise, he is still.
"It's getting dark. Should bury her." You say softly. He says nothing. You cannot see his face.
Tentatively, you reach out and touch his shoulder. He flinches as you do, and you withdraw your hand.
"Go." His voice is choked. "I'll catch up with you."
"Charlesβ"
"Go." His tone is so final that all protests die on your tongue.
You leave him to mourn her.
. . .
1904, Temporary Wapiti Settlement
Dragging the comb through your hair, you peer into the wooden-framed mirror. The scar curving along your temple and through your brow is softened by the low light. The new Wapiti settlement is small, and the people are tired. Rains Fall has more streaks of grey in his hair by the day. Still, you had wanted his blessing. Any family you have is long dead or long gone; it has just been you and Charles. You are handfasted on the settlement, with as much ceremony as is possible. But it is enough, and the ceremony has never meant much to you anyway. It means something to Charles, though.
The tent flap falls shut behind Charles with a soft rasp of canvas, sealing the night outside. The wind murmurs against the walls, distant firetalk fading to a hush, leaving only the two of you in the low glow of a single lantern. You sit on the edge of the cot, still in the soft, borrowed dress. He stands a moment too long by the entrance, broad silhouette filling the space, his hair loose and catching gold in the light. When he turns, his eyes find you with that rare flicker of uncertainty you've only seen in private. Slowly, he lowers himself beside you, close enough that the heat of him cuts the chill.
"I ain't got much to give youβ" He begins.
"Don't be foolish."
He takes your hand and presses something cool and beaded into it. Turquoise and bone, and smooth wood. It slips through your fingers. The necklace you have never seen him without.
"Charles. This is your mothers. I couldn't possiblyβ"
"It's yours." He says simply. "Like I am."
You want to tell him you have been his for years now. That you will be his for as long as you live. You open your mouth, but nothing comes out.
Charles takes your hand, the necklace still fisted in it, and kisses your knuckles. His mouth is soft against the scarred, bruised skin. Silently, he draws you to your feet and steps behind you, the cot creaking softly as your knees brush it.
Your pulse stumbles as Charles gathers your hair over one shoulder with infinite care, his knuckles brushing the back of your neck. The beads are cool against your skin, and rest just below your collarbone. He hesitates, and you feel the soft press of his lips at your nape, where he fastens it. Charlesβs hands slide slowly down your arms until they rest at your elbows. When you lean back against him, you feel the hitch in his breathing.
Turning, you face your husband. You lean up on your tiptoes and press your mouth to his. There is only his sigh into your open mouth and his arms around you. You reach for the top button on his shirt and giggle as it slips from your hands, trembling with anticipation. You loosen another one, and his breath hitches. His fingers find the ties at your collar and undo them with the same reverence he shows everything else. He presses a kiss to the column of your throat, and you twist your fingers into the thick, soft hair at the base of his skull. Pushing the shirt off his shoulders, you touch him, the hard planes of his chest and stomach.
"Charles." You say softly, sweetly. "Charles, you are so beautiful." You press another kiss to his sternum. He tips your head back in his hands and kisses your eyelids, slow. When you kneel, kissing the spot above his navel, he catches your shoulders, stroking the line of your jaw.
When he eases you onto the cot, he settles on his knees. You look down at his face, framed by your thighs and watch the lamp dance in his brown eyes. He takes your ankles in his wide hands and lifts them onto his shoulders. From this angle, you are laid bare and open for him. Charles bends his dark head to the soft inside of your thigh, the rasp of his stubble making you shiver. The want building all day is met with his soft mouth. Crying out, you twist your fingers into his hair and arch into his face. To steady you, he reaches up and flattens his big hand over your quivering belly; you grasp it blindly. Once you are left gasping and sweaty, he relents and rubs his cheek against the soft thatch between your legs.
Breathlessly, you beckon him closer. Crawling over your prone body, he cages himself over you. His long, muscular legs hang over the edge of the cot, tangled with yours. As he picks open your dress, you finally relieve him of his breeches. Then the two of you are joined. Strands of his dark hair are plastered to his face, and his eyes are sealed with pleasure. You take a moment to appreciate the architecture of his body, lined with heavy muscle and golden brown skin. Cradling his face in your hands, you kiss away the sweat beading at his temple, the bridge of his nose. You push at his chest, urging him to roll over.
"Charles." You whisper. "Lie down."
With difficulty, he opens his eyes and loosens his grip on you. You flatten your palms against his chest, and he falls back willingly. There is a shimmer of sweat on his chest, and the heavy length of his cock is angry red at the tip. Pulling the dress over your head, you swing your leg over his thighs to straddle him. He groans as you grasp his cock to guide it into yourself. Bracing your hands on his stomach, you sink on him slowly. Steadying you with one hand to your hip, he reaches up with the other to lay his palm over your sternum; your heart kicks against him. Tightening around him like a vice, you undulate your hips a little faster. Suddenly, he heaves himself up so you can twine your arms around his neck and he can mouth the peaks of your breasts. Cradling his head to your heart, you stroke his soft, dark hair as he comes. You kiss him as you reach your finish, you mouth at the salt on his cheek.
Afterwards, you lie with your cheek against his chest on the little cot. Throwing your leg over his hip, you lift his hand and bring your mouth to the rough pads of his fingers.
"Don't. I'll want you again." He says, a little helplessly.
"Mmph." You draw his index into your mouth. His cock stirs again, and he rolls onto his side, taking you with him. This time, he draws your leg over his thigh, chest to chest. He takes you again, with less ceremony than the first time. When you sleep, it is with him still inside of you, his head to your breast.
Dawn filters through the canvas, and you wake to Charles's broad form dressing next to the cot. You tuck your hand under your head and watch him. How many times have you watched him dress before, but never as his wife. Only as his companion. He buttons his loose shirt over his broad chest and ties his hair up with a piece of twine. When he draws his bow over his shoulder, he notices you watching. Leaning over the bed, he hesitates and then presses a kiss to the peak of your bare shoulder.
"Rains Fall asked me to go hunting with him." He says softly. "I thought I'd let sleep."
"Mm. He must miss Eagle Flies." You yawn. "I can help out around here."
"Could join us."
βIβd only slow you down,β you murmur.
βThatβs not true.β
A small smile tugs at your mouth. βIt is a little.β He smiles in response. "And, you can get used to Falmouth. He's still skittish." Your wedding present to him had been Falmouth, a spotted stallion that had taken you three bounties to purchase. He will not replace Taima, Charles's companion since he was eighteen, but Charles had needed a horse.
"Rains Fall. He doesn't say much these days." Charles says, thoughtfully.
"I know. Go. It'll be good for him."Β And for you too,Β you think.
"You'll be alright here?" He says, fingers still lingering on your arm.
"Sure. They're packing up this camp, I'll keep myself occupied."
Charles leaves, pressing a last kiss to your hair, his eyes lingering on your body under the pelt.
You stretch. The tent feels large without him. You've been pressed so close to him that the beads around your neck have left divots in your skin.
It must be early; the air is chill. Nobody would grudge you another hour of sleep.
. . .
1906, Saint Denis
"It's okay. It's just me. Wake up."
Charles's hands are soft on your hair. When he lifts you into his arms, you go limp. Regaining your senses, you can smell the oil from the lamp and the cool night air from the cracked-open window. The rented room that has been your home for months now is small and cramped. Charles hates it. Sometimes, he wakes in the night and sits on the small terrace, smoking for hours. He says he cannot breathe in Saint Denis, that the city doesn't suit him. It doesn't suit you either; you miss the open plains and long to press your cheek to cool grass. To sleep under the stars and smell fresh country air. Shivering at the draft, you cuddle into his broad chest. The acrid tang of sweat and drink clinging to his skin makes you wrinkle your nose.
"Bad dream?" He says against your hair. Pulling back, he cups your hot cheek in his hands. Nodding, you snuffle closer.
"I didn't hear you come in."
"Got back a few hours ago." He says softly, stroking your loose hair.
"You smell bad." You say, but slip your arms around his neck and bury your face in his shoulder anyway.
"Was too tired to wash." He says, and you lift your head to look at him. Charles's face is distorted with concern, and the light from the window illuminates his eye, swollen half shut. "And, too drunk."
"Did you lose?" You reach up to touch his swollen eye, he winces a little and then kisses the heel of your palm.
'Course not. He got a lucky hit in." The hint of indignance in his voice brings the slightest of smiles to your mouth. He relaxes when he sees it. "What about you? You get him?"
"Some idiot with a whole crew got to him first." You roll your eyes as you recount the day. "Don't know why you'd need a whole crew to get him. He came up to my shoulder. A strong gust of wind would've sent him to the grave."
Bounty hunting in Saint Denis has proved a little easier. Charles throws fights, and you pick up petty criminals off the outskirts of the city. This time, it has been a bespectacled doctor who had been lacing his medicines. It would have taken you an hour had that buffoon Jared Golding not gotten to him first. A whole crew of thoroughbreds. Guinevere, fast and faithful as she is, had been no match.
"S'alright. The payment from this fight should tide us over a while."
"Oh, your poor eye." You say, the guilt is hot and sudden. Tipping your head up, you press a kiss to the purpling mess.
" It ain't too bad." He says, a little embarrassed at the affection. "The other fighter came off a whole lot worse."
"I'm sure he did." You say, nuzzling his cheek. "But it's my fault you're throwing fights. I shouldn't have killed him."
"He started with you. I'd have killed him if you hadn't."
"I know." You say mournfully. "But you hate this." Nosing at your hair, he kisses your forehead in response.
The sun is beginning to spill through the windows, and there is no point trying to sleep. You slip out of bed and make two cups of coffee in tin mugs and hold a cool cloth to Charles's eye as he drinks his. You assuage your own guilt by kissing his battered face and combing out the tangles from his long hair.
"Got no bounties today." You say, buttoning your shirt. He sits at the small, round table, clad only in his breeches and nursing his third cup of coffee. "Could take the day off."
"A day off." He says slowly. "You alright?"
"Fine." You do not meet his eyes.
"What do you want to do on your day off?" He catches your wrist and pulls you to stand between his knees. Bracing your hand on his shoulder, you look down at him. His eyes are steady, but you can see the concern behind the question.
You do not tell him that you dreamt of Arthur, his voice wrecked with illness and pain, lying white-faced and feverish. You do not tell him that Arthurβs face had gone strange and blurred at the edges, then changed not all at once, but in terrible pieces until it was Charles looking at you through the same pain. Charles with Arthurβs voice. Charles begging you, over and over, to save him from the slow erosion of his insides.
βI want to go to the gunsmith,β you say. βGet my gun fixed.β
He nods once. βAlright.β
βThen I want to walk through Chinatown.β
βMm.β
You swallow, then let yourself smile a little. βAnd then I want you to take me to bed.β
That gets the ghost of a smile from him. βThat so?β
βThat so.β
His hand tightens lightly around your wrist. βAlright, then.β
The knot in your chest does not ease until later that night. You lie on your belly with Charles over you, his weight warm and solid along your back. His hand rests over your hip, while the other braces beside your head as he ruts with slow, careful rhythm. His breathing is rough against your shoulder, but his touch stays gentle. You sleep easily.
. . .
1907, Mount Hagen
Charles has been shot.
The frost bites through the worn knees of your breeches as you kneel beside him, his blood bright and terrible against the snow. For one blank second, you cannot make sense of it. Then he makes a low, ragged sound, and your body moves before your mind does, half-dragging him behind the boulder as another bullet cracks past.
βCharles.β Your hands are already on his shoulder, pressing, slipping, pressing again. βCharles, stay with me.β
His face has gone ashen. Blood pours between your fingers, warm enough to make you feel sick. βIβm okay,β he says, but the words are thin.
βNo, youβre not.β Your voice comes out too sharp, too fast. βYouβre bleeding too much.β
βI said Iβm okay.β
βYou donβt know that.β You press harder, as if you can force the wound shut by will alone. βHas it hit anything important?β
βI donβt know.β
βHow can you not know?β Fear knots your throat so tight you can hardly breathe around it. βCharles, look at me.β
He does, and the sight of his eyes half-lidded with pain almost makes you fold in on yourself. Snow has fallen onto his hair, his shoulders. The bright glitter of it makes your eyes burn.
The shooting has stopped, you realise dimly, and the silence is worse than the gunfire. Sadie appears through the snow, breath ragged. βHey. Youβre okay,β she says, though she sounds like sheβs trying to convince herself. βYouβre okay.β
Charles lets out a rough breath. βI will be.β
You sag closer, hands still pressed to the blood. βThen weβre getting you out of here.β
βNo.β He shifts weakly and winces. βGo on with John.β
You shake your head once. βNo.β
"Move fast. Or they'll come down that hill and kill us all."
"I won't."
βGo,β he says again, quieter now. βI can follow. Just not fast.β
You stare at him, at the blood soaking through his shirt, at the strain in his mouth that heβs trying so hard to hide. Your fingers tighten on his coat.
βI donβt care about Micah. I donβt care about any of it. Let John have him.β
Sadie glances between you and Charles, then steps back, leaving the two of you in the cold. Charlesβs gaze stays on your face.
βJohn and Sadie need you.β
βDonβt.β You blink hard, but it does no good. βDonβt ask me to go.β
He studies you for a long second, blood still spilling through your fingers, his own breath shallow. βWhy? This is what you wanted.β
The words tear out of you before you can stop them.
"Because I'm not having this child without you."
Even Sadie does not speak. The wind seems to go quiet around the boulder. You stare at Charles, suddenly sick with the fact that it is out now, impossible to take back, impossible to bury in the lining of your skin.
For a long moment, he only looks at you.
Then his face changes β not in disbelief, exactly, but in shock so deep it seems to cut straight through pain. βYouβreββ
You give a tiny, helpless nod. βI was going to tell you.β
βWhen?β
"After this. After I kill Micah."
Madly, you wonder if he is upset with you. With his blood spilling through your fingers and his face grey with pain. You wonder if he thinks what a reckless, selfish woman he has married. One who will risk anything, everything for vengeance.
But then, his hand comes to cover yours. You exhale, a cold puff of air that makes your relief visible. The light weight of Sadie's hand is on your shoulder, but you barely feel it. You watch Charles's eyes, glazed with pain and love.
"I'm sorry." You whisper, stroking his hair away from his face with your free hand. His skin is slick with sweat despite the cold, but his heart, thrumming beneath your hand, is strong. "I should have told you. I thought you wouldn't let meβ"
βNo.β His voice is low, roughened with pain.βNo.β
He swallows, and you see the effort of it. See him try to gather himself for you.
Then his fingers tighten over yours with weak insistence, as if he can tether himself on earth, simply by touch.
βYouβre not leaving me,β he says.
. . .
1903, Ambarino
"I'm getting married."
The breeze sifts through your hair. You look down, feeling idiotic. Arthur's grave is a cross. On it, inscribed;
"Blessed Are Those Who Hunger And Thirst For Righteousness"
Blessed. Arthur would have laughed. Are you supposed to weep? That is what women are supposed to do. Weep into hankies and lay flowers on the tombs of their lovers. You do not have flowers. What you do have is the mad urge to laugh.
Arthur Morgan is dead. Dead! His massive, powerful body has been reduced to bones underneath your feet. The man who loved you and fucked you and danced with you by the fire is dead. The man who killed for you and killed with you and seemed tall as the mountains, as bright as the sun.
Charles has buried him, and you think what it must have been like. Charles shooing crows off Arthur's rotting flesh, picking maggots out of his sunken face. Charles has said none of this to you, but you know.
He had been so tired. He had been so brave.
"I don't want to leave you." Arthur's eyes are bloodshot. Exhausted. He has woken at midnight, his skin burning with fever. He sits at the edge of the cot, his aching head cradled in his hands. You sit beside him, kissing the sharp jut of his shoulder blade. You taste sweat.
"I'm hard to get rid of." Your voice trembles. You force a smile.
"I know." He enunciates slowly, forcing the words through the feverish delirium. "But I'm tired. Real tired."
"Rest a while, then."
"You'll wake me?"
"'Course."
"Will youβwill you rub my head a little? It hurts."
You sit up on the cot, patting your lap. Crawling over your legs, he puts his head in it. Silently, you run your fingers through his hair, press your thumbs against his sweaty temples. His breathing evens, and he drifts. You lean down and whisper in his ear.
"Rest, my love. Rest."
The soil is cool beneath your cheek. The sun breaks through the clouds, blanketing you in light.
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