told you, you don’t wanna fuck with me

-bad vibes club-

it's kinda weird when we met in real at first you think that i'm a person with atypical sense of humor. Then we met more and you start to understand that most of the things i'm saying as joke in public, the're my daily basics. It's funny sayin that i want to die when someone is saying sth stupid and you say it as a joke, but what if someone references to his actual suicidal thoughts? Or when you ask what he was doing at the weekend, and he says "crying alone because i have no friends" - trying to sound ironically. To be honest I also say things like that, and when someone who met me before in my school, get to know me better is usually suprised that all the things that I say as a joke are real. Then it's that akward time when I'm around them and say things like that, because we're both laughing but know that in fact, there's nothing to laugh about. But also nothing to do about it.