Good Question! :) Thanks Jessica
Sometime last year I got asked a really good question that I've yet to respond to...
"How do you keep your head so high?" I asked for her email because I knew this answer would be a long one. I never got around to putting thought into my answer. She reminded me the other day and said things like : "You're a huge inspiration to me. And I neeeed to know the secret lol. Seems like you got a lot going on but you always have your head up"
Well first off I want to say thank you for the kind words and curiosity. This kinda stuff is what inspires me. Secondly, I want you to know there's no secret. And whether or not it seems like my head is held high all the time, all this Facebook stuff is just what I choose to share with everyone. I've had a lot of days where my head is so low I don't want to get out of bed or do anything at all. Just like everyone else. It takes everything I have to believe in myself and honestly a lot of the times it makes me feel crazy. Like I see something/ want something that no one else really believes in. But in order to make people believe, I just have to keep going. At this point there is no possible way to stop the drive and passion I have to succeed. It's like building a train that builds its own track along the way and doesn't stop building until it gets all the way around the world. There is no more option off dropping my head - It's stuck up. Lol how ironic does that sound? In context - I am calling myself stuck up. But those are just words - I really want you to understand that. My opinion of myself has NOTHING to do with how I see the whole rest of the world and everyone else in it. I have lower self esteem then the majority of the people I know. I do feel beautiful in my images but what you have to understand is - that's just an image. It's almost like a roll play - they are meant to look a certain way.
I've fallen in love and lost my mind - more than once.
I've wanted the things I cannot have my whole entire life.Â
I look in the mirror and feel disappointed at least once a day.Â
But at the end of everyday one thing is certain. Success is something I want more than absolutely anything. There is no one else in this world that could give me everything I want besides myself. & Unfortunately a lot of the things I want do include money. But I'm willing to put in the work. I don't have a credit card that mom and dad gave me or a brand new Benz they bought me. But I will get both those things, and they will be that much better because I worked for them. I keep my head high because that's where the sun light comes from, and who knows - If I look down, I might fall. Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â It's all in your head.













