Testing the Corners of the Human Subconscious

Lately, I have been sick and extremely tired. Figuring I've been tired, I've been trying to mess with lucid dreaming. However, I can't seem to sleep straight through anymore, I tend to awake in the middle of my dreams. I feel my medication causes this, but I have no idea. 

That hasn't stopped me from trying to lucid dream however, learning about another way to do it that seems a bit more effective, but tenfold scarier. Many people end up in astral projection with it, which I haven't yet cause I know how to control it seems, but either way, I wouldn't recommend it over methods such as a dream journal, binaural beats, mugwort under the pillow, or any other methods I may have found or mentioned.

This method requires you to lay in the solider position. You must be on your back with your arms at your side. Close your eyes, and don't move, at all. If you itch, don't scratch, if you have to roll over, don't. The idea is to trick your subconscious into thinking you are asleep. It will send signals trying to make sure you are, so it isn't easy to deal with, especially the itching part, but if you stay like that for about 20-30 minutes, you will then reach a scary part; sleep paralysis. DO NOT PANIC! Panicking will not remove you from sleep paralysis, it will only begin the methods to put you into astral projection, leaving your body basically empty of your soul. I'm not that much of a spiritual person, but I do believe in ghosts and negative spirits. Don't leave your body open for them, not unless you know methods of protections. Stay calm, and try to sleep. However, because you know you are asleep, the dreams are much easier to control, thus, this is the easiest way to Lucid Dream, but I can't begin to explain how scary sleep paralysis can be. Just don't panic and you should be fine.

Anyways, back to about the dreams. Over the past three days, I have had two particular dreams that have had very imaginative, but very creepy things. I will start with the dream eater.

This dream started as me being with my father and his friends at some sort of vacation. We were all just kind of enjoying ourselves and hanging out, one of those dreams you really wouldn't tell is a dream. However, I realized the 40 bucks I had for my herbs was missing, and figured someone had stolen it. I also realized then that it was a dream, and I let it continue to play because I didn't feel like generating a new one. I continued through the dream, realizing some faces I had absolutely never seen before (actively, faces in your dreams are always faces you have seen before, but more than likely passively seen.). I thought I had found the thief who had stolen my money, but as I looked at them, I realized, most people don't have six eyes. My confusion came when I tried to leave the dream and generate a new one, realizing that whatever this thing was was going to turn this into a nightmare. The problem was, I couldn't leave the dream, I couldn't change it, I had no control besides segment hopping. The dream seemed to already of been developed, and the furthest I could go was different parts of the dream itself. However, I could not seem to go backwards, so I had to use what I could of the environment to hide from this thing. At one point, I came across a lady who was working her own sewing business, and as I was talking to her, I heard the hiss of the creature outside and tried to hide i the building. They lady thought I was being silly, and went out to see the creature. I finally saw what his true form was. He had spider legs coming out of his back, eight of them. His head was like the shape of an upside down pyramid, his six eyes towering in vertical rows of three, with horns piercing out of the two points at the top of his head. His body consisted of what seemed to be an endless rib cage with what looked like scabbed skin covering all of it. His arms looked to consist of the same material, but they, as well as his legs, looked muscular. Because of the shape of his body, he looked fat, but it almost looked like some sort of prison with the way the rib cage formed. He had no visible mouth at first, but as he approached the woman and pulled her in, the bottom part of his head separated into two fang bearing jaws that he then pierced into the face of the woman. She turned pale, not even bleeding, and eventually turned into a skinny husk. It was like he drained her of everything in one quick bite. After it was done, his spider legs turned into long, fibrous hair, and hung at his back. I needed to run, so I did, and I hopped the dream again. However, I realized that this dream was set up like a spider web, and the close you got to the middle, the harder it was to escape. I ended up at the middle, trapped in a large building, and then he appeared. He refused to speak when asked any questions, just approached me slowly. I can't say I felt a sense of dread, his methods were somehow calming, but not enough that I wanted to die by him. I did what I could, and then thanked the fact that I can't sleep through a full session anymore as I woke up randomly from the dream.

I've tried researching this creature, but have found nothing. No one else seems to have found it. IF YOU HAVE SEEN THIS, PLEASE MESSAGE AND INFORM ME!!

Dream number two has been a lot more relaxing, though strange. I was hanging out with friends, playing some interesting sort of game and enjoying my night with them when we brought up this new form of art. It was mental weaving, and you basically used your mind to interact with this special fiber in order to create 3D sculptures. We had all heard of it, and I decided I was going to try it out. Now I already knew this dream was a dream simply because, unlike the other one, I didn't have my cane and could walk just fine, something I can't do in real life. I was really intrigued this time though, and I decided to keep going with it instead of controlling it. I got to this building that apparently allows people to take classes for the mental weaving, and I learned how to use these strange, fibrous strands of what seemed like hair to create 3D art from my mind. I enjoyed doing this. As I got better, it was almost like dancing to create the structures. Anywhere from things I knew to things I imagined. However, I made a mistake, and woke up as soon as I was done. I decided I was going to do a huge project, and spent all I could to make it. I was going to remake the dream eater. So I spent my time on every detail and every piece of this. Mental Weaving was best done with others, increasing the personal control as more mental waves are introduced, so while my friends were building amazing scenes and sets, I was building this. Finally, I was done, and I stared at it, trying to analyze what the hell it was. Then it hissed, and I woke up.

This creature is now in my dreams, and I'm not sure what it is doing or if it is harmful. It is scary, yes, but I have a knack of loving horror, so I generally am not afraid of it, just of what it could do.

So far, it only appears when I don't take control of the dreams. Whether that is a stipulation or it just hasn't chosen to appear in lucid dreams, I don't know, but I will find out. This delays my memory access testing, because if this thing can get into my memories, then I have bigger problems. Until it is gone, I am not going to continue testing with memory access, and sure as hell not messing with precog dreaming either.

I want to apologize to everyone on here who follows me an enjoys what I've been doing. Holidays and doctors started catching up with me, and I ended up too busy to really focus on what I was doing.

To start off, I have found a new development. I was reading a book about a lucid dreamer and he said that not only did he control his dreams, but he had access to his mind in a way he couldn't compare to anything. He felt the dream state was a parallel state to reality but not part of reality. His reasoning behind this was his precognitive dreams.

For those who don't know what it is, precognitive dreaming is basically a vision of the future. This man had dreams of future events that seemed to coincide with the number 3. Anywhere from 3 days to 3 years he could see into the future. He had no control of this though.

So I made it my interest to find more like this. Luckily, I found 3 (the irony of that number). One of them had evaded her own death repeatedly because of these dreams. She rarely had dreams of anything else besides her own death, and when she did, the harm of the situation that would of killed her she was able to recognize and survive the situation, each of them being almost exactly what happened in the dream. The second one has had visions of her future quite often, good and bad, and being she doesn't dig into the superstition itself, doesn't focus too much on it or do anything with it. She just thinks that it is a coincidence. The third I met in a random chat room. He stated that he had often saw events based around the people I love, many times ones he hadn't talked to in a while. He used it as a witty way to make people happy, like his friend got engaged and he called to say congrats only to hear his friend confused on how he knew. 

None of these people had a numerical link like the person I read about, but they did have the exact same situations the man described. Events of personal harm, future success, and information on those they cared for.

So I started to dig into this. Starting with the first part the man in the book found. He said that he was able to play his memories back in his dreams, no matter how old they were. He believed the mind has perfect memory, but to access it you must be on a higher level of conscious. He used the dream state to do that, but mentioned a warning.

Memories are very fragile, and can be rewritten. To cancel it out, a memory must be made that you are rewriting it. So I did just that. I visited an old and mostly useless memory, writing down outside of the dream what it was, and I rewrote it in my head. Now I have two memories. When I woke up, I remembered my dream, remembered the memory that I had now written, and had honestly no recollection of what it used to be until I saw the notification I placed on my phone explaining it. But this was also the first time I accessed a memory from the dream state, so I realized the harm and the good of it.

Our mind is like a hard drive, it stores our data there. To access it, you must be at an elevated state of mental awareness, such as dreaming. Once there, you can access your information at will if you know how to look for it, which mostly involves knowing you are in a dream, and trying to access it by will alone. Higher lucid dreamers are able to do this freely, while newer, less experienced ones may have difficulty.

Once you are in the memory, you need to let it play and not interfere. If you interfere, then you are no longer just messing with a dream, you are messing with a memory. The brain does not keep perfect memories, it often dresses it up in a way that isn't psychologically harmful to you in order to not let it damage your mentality. If you mess with the memory itself and interfere, you can rewrite it, and possibly cause it to be categorized by your brain as harmful, thus making your mind block it. That isn't to say you can't get access to it again, and that also means you can access blocked memories from this heightened state.

I've only done it three times as of writing this, the first a rewrite, the second two a recollection. The first was a minor recollection of something that was missing small details, the second was a major recollection of when I was young and unable to retain those memories naturally. I wanted to know who my first friend was, and I found it. 

The man from the book wrote of how by doing this repeatedly, he started to recognize a difference in the environment when he was dreaming, and when he was in reality. By finding this, he started to perceive it as a different realm outside of reality that doesn't bind to time. My findings of precognitive dreamers and memory access believes him to be telling the truth, and I hope maybe I can find how to access the precognitive section of this realm. By this theory as well, your mind is its own universe, not just a storage and processing unit. 

The worst part about this is that I can't prove any of it. It is all experience based and I have no way of showing on paper that it is happening without pulling someone into the dream itself. So I hope that those following this will take it as is.

ALSO, I strongly suggest for those wishing to lucid dream to look up binaural beats. There is an app on android that has presets, and there you can find one specifically for lucid dreaming. I have used this to much success, and I will explain it more after I understand it better. These sounds also have a strange effect that leads me into a bodily feeling as if I am in a dream if I use them right. This could be a huge connection, even meaning we can reach that higher conscious at any time with the right manipulation. While it feels almost like a phasing into another realm, you still feel yourself. BE SAFE WITH THESE, AS THEY CAN INSPIRE DROWSINESS WITH CERTAIN FREQUENCIES AND SHOULD NOT BE USED UNDER HAZARDOUS CONDITIONS SUCH AS DRIVING!!! DON'T DIE JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT TO MESS WITH YOUR MIND!!

Well, I have a very interesting development after a long period of seemingly nothing. Recently, I picked up the game series "Legacy of Kain", a very well written and very imaginative series based around vampires of a very unique ideal. The story itself has been a very deep, rich, and intense experience, one that has my mind running and my thoughts interested in what could happen next. It is one hell of a game to get the mind running the way it does, with only one other game legitimately doing that to me in the past while, Dark Souls.

Well, in my time playing these games, they have become embedded in my dreams in their own way. These dreams, have been very, very intense. I feel heavily restored when I wake up from them, and moreso, almost enlightened. The dreams only take place with elements from the game world and characters, but so far, nothing of the actual game itself. Gaining a lucid power over these would be quite fun, and thus, I finally did about 5 minutes ago.

It is said that gaming increases lucid dreaming. While I never saw that as true due to being a gamer since I was 7, I see why it could be true. Most gamers can tell the strong correlated difference between reality and dream simply because of video games. However, for myself, I enjoyed being wrapped up in a dream world, more than reality, ever since I was young. It helped spike my creativity, and develop and appetite for the insanity that had become part of my writing. Now in my older age, I want to lucid dream, but this requires breaking down barriers brought to me by my childhood love for imagination, a love I never lost, but a love I have lost touch with. I wonder if this research will help empower my imagination, or push it further away. Either way, getting back into gaming has helped my dreams, along with the drop of medication. I have stopped pills altogether in exchange for a more natural, herbal option. So far, they have been much more effective, and less side effects have entered my system. 

One dream was very interesting though. It wasn't a nightmare, it was actually quite nice, but it was scary. I recognized I was in the dream, that the world around could not be real, and I wanted to leave. I had to find a way out, but I wasn't sure. People in the dream were trying to help me. Eventually, I focused in on something I was reading, and broke the barrier holding me in the dream. I felt trapped by a force I did not know, but I definitely could feel it. It is a terrifying feeling when you are damned to a realm you don't understand, even if it is a realm you should always be allowed to escape.

I wonder how comatose people feel.