Jay

kind of weird how parts of your soul are left in various locations without any warning… like yes i’m always at the top of that hill, sitting at the bus stop, in the cool light of the Japanese restaurant, standing at the pier etc etc

got my lab results back turns out i’m full of rage because i am full of grief

in many ways i am still my pretentious 14 year old self which is fine

the curse is lifted! you are no a beast no more! congratulations! but you'll never forget the way they looked at you, will you.

not now honey, mommy’s yearning for something that once was and will never be again

the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

WHAT THE FUCK IS NONCHALANT 😭😭😭 i was built to take a sword through my chest for you

mary shelley writing about a monster rejected and abandoned by its creator and dedicating it to her own father i need to smoke a blunt with her i need to give her head