mayvie

weighed myself for the first time in a couple weeks and I’m deadass so disappointed how could I do this to myself. All I do is gain weight like the fatty I am because the only thing I know how to do is stuff food in my face

my parents r so bipolar abt when they care about me and that makes me struggle so much. Times when they don’t give a shit, I’m tossed to the side and just asked to do shit and then told I’m ungrateful, but then when they decide that I do matter they shove food in my face because it’s they’re love language and it kills me and they won’t leave me alone and worry.

I’m so fuckint hungry right now all I wanna do is eat so I’m reminding me and you to not cave in!!

my friend took a video of me and I’m so fat I can’t wait to look back on it when I’m skinny and be able to call myself all the things I think

I can’t wait to live by myself

I hate when my parents make meals. Like, good job for cooking for your family but do you know how many calories was in that meal? Do you know how much oil you added? How much butter? I’m crying right now because it genuinely kills me it’s always so high cal and if I refuse to eat they punish me

Gained an entire inch on my waist. Guess who’s not eating Tommorow!

Got my phone back sorry guys but I’m here again. And so much shit had happened I feel like no one supports me and this is the only way I can validate myself because well, as much as I give to other people it’s never reciprocated. I’m just an afterthought and someone that in there mind “doesn’t need help” while I’m drowning myself in here. I can’t I hate every single thing about myself; my face, my body, my voice, my mind. It’s tiring.

I’m gonna try and get a job… any recs that’ll help me walk extra or burn extra cals?

been on the most insane binge streak cause I’m a fatass and I hate everything dude why does my mind always go to food

I hate cravings and feeling hungry bro like if any food was put in front of me it would be gone. Like give me a spicy mcchicken and it’s gonna be inhaled but then I’m gonna purge it bc my fatass would still feel guilty. How do I make these cravings and urge go away all I want right now is to eat, all I can think about is food

wait guys I locked in a little, I wore something today kinda to purposefully keep myself aware that I’m a fatass and shouldn’t eat a whole lot and compared to a weak ago when I first tried it on it’s looser… so I’m making progress!

I’m spamming small exercises in my bed till I cry from pain… lazy girl workout ig