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if you dont catch it, it slips away as quick as it arrived
leaving regret and longing in it's wake
dear yingxing,
if only today, you were the one i loved but you didn't love me then
â°â ???
dear aventurine,
must you always hide behind a facade, it hurts more than just yourself
â°â ???
dear veritas,
your intelligence holds no bounds, but you couldn't spare a thought for me
â°â ???
dear dan heng,
if you'd look past winter memories, spring would welcome you easier
â°â ???
tbh this was only meant to be a yingxing fic but these other guys have been rotting in my brain so they can suffer too ^^ (i also want an excuse to write multiple fics ans i loved the premise for yingixing's!) shouts to @/tragedy-of-commons for dan hengs note thing-
taglist - @little-miss-chaoss, @frankiesteinn, @https-sourlimes <3 + open to anyone else just ask ^^
donât worry iâll always be ur moot as long as i ainât dead đ
ohhhh good luck on that then! ik things are hard for us since itâs last year of high school after all asgdhshsh-
ily too <3 and if you made a new blog just send me a message so i could follow you :)
â€ïžâđ„đ ily ilysm.
yes we must keep in touch aishskdbdihdieu i don't mind communicating with my beloved moots. and i hope ur okay with ur life there, we're literally neighbours đđ hope i'll get to see thailand one day because my friend did and he said it doesn't look too different from vietnam so i'm quite intrigue.
it's a little embarrassing for me i got shy but you can check it here @https-sourlimes
actually @ every fanfiction writer whether you wrote something that got thousands of reblogs and comments and became a staple in your fandom, or you wrote one fic and deleted it, or you write mutilchaptered fics that never get a final update, or write short fics, or long fics, or used to write and now you donât, or you deleted/orphaned your works, or you only share with friends:
thank you.
sharing your writing is hard. and sometimes itâs thankless. sometimes itâs such a negative experience that I wonder how anyone does it at all. but you are needed; you are wanted. whether or not we properly acknowledge it, you are a vital part of fandom culture. thanks for sharing.
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why speak like we are so old already we barely reach 18 yet love đ€š
butttt i miss you lots <33 iâve been doing good, everything is fairly fine except exam time lol
what about you? how u doing? đ
đđđđđ omgg wkebdkwhdibe imysm you don't even know how excited i am rn becuz almost all moots is disconnected im so glad ur still here đ«°đ
yes i'm doing finee, school starts a few days ago and it wasn't actually that bad except this is an important year for me (vietnamese education system is bringing out their new study plan for us and i don't even know if i can pass the brand new type of exam to graduate đđđ)
hey all !! normally i wouldn't engage in something like this on my blog, but considering that it's happening to a friend of mine, i felt i had an obligation to speak out. sorry for clogging up the tags/interrupting your scrolling đ
tldr: @/hxveneru has stolen the works of my good friend @lowkeyren not once, but twice and is deleting any comments calling them out.
edit: they've changed their user to @/yneri; if you've blocked them already, this doesn't really matter bc they're still blocked :) reminder to not engage with them, they're just looking for attention. block and ignore!
i know. fun stuff. proof is under the cut.
please note that i'm doing this of my own accord, and the only involvement ren has had in this post is me asking for permission to post it since, well, it's an issue mainly affecting her.
also i should say beforehand but. don't ??? send them death threats please đ we are better than that. i'm mainly making this to spread awareness about the issue :)
reblogs are appreciated to spread awareness.
first stolen work is ren's oneshot "drunk words, sober thoughts!" for aventurine here.
as you can see, it was posted on June 15th, a little over two months before hxveneru posted their own oneshot.
for reference. hxveneru is a new blog and all of their posts are in the month of september, proven here via their archive.
and here's the two oneshots side by side, with ren's on the left and the stolen one on the right.
notice how the oneshots are exactly word-for-word except for the title and synopsis? even the author's note is exactly the same. obviously i can't fit the whole thing here, but this should be enough.
honestly it's. i have to laugh at the audacity to just copy and paste like hello???
and here's the second work that was copied, with hxveneru's "diff scenarios w hsr men" taking from drabbles from two of ren's works.
these are the two fics that were stolen from, with their dates attached. both are posted far before september. links are here and here if you want to double check..
now let's look at the drabbles that were - once again, copy and pasted. first is blade's, again with ren on the left and the stolen one on the right (ren's is circled bc they didn't take the hcs part).
and here is the sunday drabble that was stolen.
so far, those are the only works posted on their blog. i was also informed that they had apparently stolen from @/exuvianen's post here but deleted it, but since said post is deleted, we don't have evidence for that so take it with a grain of salt.
but yeah! just wanted to let yall know out there, especially since the plagiarized works have already gained some traction and have 100+ notes on them. i've talked about them vaguely on my blog before, so if this sounds familiar, yeah this is them.
plagiarism is shitty, i shouldn't have to say that. it is not that hard to just write your own stuff. i know validation and publicity make you feel good, but stealing someone else's hard work is not the way to go. writers already have enough to deal with. just don't do it. what's the point of getting validation if it's not even your work?
again, don't send death threats, please. that's a bit far, and they likely won't even do anything since the plagiarizer has already been called out before and this was their response.
not a single ounce of remorse or shame. people have gotten way too comfortable on here.
also "who the hell is ren anyway" bestie you blocked her đđ and ignored her ask to you. that's why ren can't dm her to sort it out privately btw, in case you were wondering.
anyways! that's all i have to say, thanks for sticking around this long and have a great rest of your day. hxveneru if you see this. hi ig ?? id say smth to you but i doubt you'd take it seriously so i won't <3
feat. gn!reader ; wc: 408 ; nothing else but tooth-rotting fluff and bladie being slightly confused when he gives you affection. (no mentions of "y/n") the drabble comes up because I'm such a wreck for him ugh!
blade isn't a man of words, and sure as his lover, you've noticed it by now. he has his ways of showing affection, rather odd, yet numbly adorable. and you? you are the one who mostly does the kisses and skin interactions, but it still stirs the same wave of butterflies within him of the very first days of allowing love in his seemed-to-last-an-eternity life.
"i love you," standing beside him by the window of a full moon night, you whisper.
blade grumbles, he breathes out softly upon hearing your words, watching you step closer and kiss on his cheeks. blade's arm is crossed when he gives you his frequent stoic expression, but look at his eyes.., they are much tender.
blade sighs; he tugs you closer and rests his fingers on your neck, pulling your face to his chest with his thumb tracing soft caress gestures on your cheek. Oh, you know, blade has a very soft spot just for you, and it's right there where his heart is, and with the most romantic thing he has ever acknowledged, the man then simply presses his lips against the top of your head, holding it for seconds, and then pulling away, his chin next, takes the place.
you chuckle, satisfied with the reaction you have anticipated correctly, but maybe he can handle a little more of your antics and banters, no?
"i love you; you're supposed to say something back, bladie," you say, expecting a scoff and somewhat typical disbelief kind of reaction from the stellaron hunter.
hell, you know him pretty well, don't ya?
"tch... you are being difficult," he merely states, and you grin, right.
"what?" you manage to suppress a laugh, "you don't love me back?"
blade hesitates for a moment, pondering of what you could possibly want from him while his lazy eyes stare back into those glimmering ones of yours.
he then cups your cheek with his bandage-covered hand, lifting your head up and closer before gently press your lips against his, though, his lips don't move one bit while he kisses you, but you certainly are getting that tingling sensation blooms in your stomach.
"is this... enough?" his voice hoarse, hinting embarrassment when he pulls away just a few centimeters, anxiously asking for your opinion.
"yes, but..." you smile, arms snaking around his waist to hold him back, as the urge to cling onto him becomes awfully irresistible. "now i want more than just one. will you please?"
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in which he takes a moment to justify himself after never noticing your little crush for him
starring. akaashi keiji x fem!reader
genre(s): angst to fluff, (super, like-) long scenarioÂ
warning(s): none, i think so? except for clueless keiji and not proof-reading
authorâs note: akaashi is just a major green flag in this (every haikyu!! boy is đ) i feel too bad to write them red-flag-y.
choose your character: m. atsumu | k. akaashi
youâve known akaashi for quite some time, starting from your last year of fukurodani academy and then serendipity brought you both ended up being each otherâs classmate at a same college/university. bokuto kotaro was your best friend, the little owl introduced his favorite setter to you and the friendship of three gradually become established, and as if it can not be any more inevitably, you eventually developed a secret admiration for the pretty setter when you three have been closed enough. however, graduating separated ways, kotaro pursued his journey to become professional in volleyball while keiji, once said to you he wanted a place in the literature department.
truth be told, even if you promised each other you would still keep in touch and plan every weekend friend group meeting online or offline, youâve never expect you would share every class in higher education life with your crush, the akaashi keiji. the great thing is you both are paired up for an presentation assignment in the major you and him pursue, you do have plenty of time to stay close and grab his attention from making gestures that he usually failed to realizes.
here you are again, happily humming your favourite song while carrying a box wrapped with a small detailed towel, some big rolls of assignment paper stuck underneath your arm as you make your way back to where you both planned to finish the project - the library.Â
âkeiji, iâm back!â you set your things respectively on the table, and akaashi nods with a smile on his face in acknowledgement.
âoookay, so hereâs your todayâs snack, I hope youâll like itâ you grin, tapping on the box before pushing it to his side as he receives it and casually opens it while speaking.
âhmm? are those sketches of our poster? you can always edit them on the computer, why the effort?â he chuckled softly before completely unwrapping the bento box.
âIâm not good at designing and stuff. I may draw as I like and youâll be the one to edit it on the computer.â you puff your cheek out, hands resting on hips as you watch his reaction to your delicately decorated sweets in the box made for him.
âthis looks amazing.â he smiles upon seeing the pastries you made, decorated beautifully with different kinds of fruit as each pastry has different flavours, you probably did not stay up so late last night just to make all kinds of flavours for him to show how much you like him. yeah, probably not.
"oh, it's nothing, I just hope it doesn't taste bad" you chuckle nervously while scratching the back of your neck, letting his praise send you up to cloud nine.
your actions falter when you see akaashi put back the box's cap on, set it aside as he leans over to reach the posters you drew.
"now then, can we start working on the project?" he spreads out the piece of paper, glancing at you as you stand there awkwardly, prefer him taking a bite to look through all of your efforts than just shrugging it off and go straight to the main part of your study session.
"what...? oh- um..." you trail off, a bit embarrassed. "wouldn't you like to try one out? it won't hurt to just have a taste of it..."
"maybe later, y/n. we have other things need to be done right now." he merely states, eyes study the poster in front of him, unknowingly sinking your heart.
"yes, right." you shift slightly, taking the sit by the opposite of him, trying to catch up with him on the progress.
you let your mind wanders off how many times you've lost count already while akaashi quietly focused on scribbling something in his notebook, every thoughts you have are always about keiji, your feelings and the stare you give him thinking it's discreet. what's stopping him from trying my tarts out? and how does he feel being around me? or is that his way of rejecting something without making that person feel bad? flooded your mind.
"y/n?" you realize his faint voice ringing somewhere "y/n..." the voice becomes clearer. "earth to y/n, you're staring." awh, snap. right.
you blink, startled before clearing your throat, mumbling a small apology as you try to get yourself busy with the work underneath you once again.
but akaashi just chuckles, his voice calm and reassuring.
"hey, you seem off today. it's lunch break, please make yourself comfortable." you fumble at his words, it's noon already? as he collects his books and tidy it up at one corner of the table before speaking again.
"yuri satsuki is inviting me to have lunch with her. would you like to also join? i think she wouldn't mind." he kindly offers, probably not knowing the words struck you shocked.
you know satsuki-senpai, she's a year older than you and has been a social butterfly ever since you set foot in student life. she is a nice person, you conceived, but not until you found out that she has a huge crush on your akaashi keiji, her behaviour in your eyes became somewhat annoying. in return, she did realize she had a rival to win over him, you acknowledge that through the smug look she gave every time akaashi was around her instead of you, that is how the tension gradually builds up between you and your pain-in-the-ass rival.
and now she's even invited keiji for lunch? you feel an uncomfortable twist in your belly, screaming that if you do not take further actions, you lose akaashi to her. but his way of discarding your hard work, also known as an attempt to get his attention earlier discourages you hastily. this comes to a realization: ever since he start hanging out with satsuki-senpai, he has never touched one of your cooks once.
"no, i'm fine staying here. you go" you force a smile waving him goodbye. he hesitates upon seeing the downward trend of your mood as well as the strange attitude every time he brings up yuri.
"what are you waiting for?" you scoff, trying your best to make it sound not so bitterly. he nods quietly before ruffles your hair, thoughtfully remind you to get something to eat before start working again, and he'll be back with you soon.
you groan for the nth time in thirty minutes since his last leave, deciding not to eat anything at all after you laugh bitterly to yourself seeing the bento box laid cold by his stuffs which corrects your thoughts that he is not going to appreciate what you did for him.
the chair scraped the floor when you stand up, attempting to compose yourself when you feel your brain need a break from overthinking such situations.
on the way out of the library, your eyes meet yuri satsuki's, assuming that keiji is just somewhere around here as his lunch break partner is the person you least excited to bump into.
"well, well. isn't that the girl whose best friend choose to hang out with me instead of her?"
excuse me?
"don't get too ahead of yourself, satsuki-senpai. just a friendly reminder" your tone evidently irritated as you flash her an unamused smile, trying to avoid her as soon as possible.
but the radio scene of her voice replayed all over your head, your mind goes muddy despite the fresh air you're trying to take in, you let out a shaky breath, tears brimming out.
maybe, he doesn't quite noticed the things I did for him after all...
---
"you're back. where were you?" akaashi worried tone surprises you after a quite fine time of trying to find you because your study desk in the library was empty.
"i was... out for fresh air. why?" your voice is off and he noticed that. he always knew when something is bothering you, and right now he definitely know that something is wrong.
"after i finished my lunch i got yours, 'cause i know when i'm back you would still hadn't eaten anything." his brows slightly furrow seeing your avoiding attitude.
"thanks, keiji." you said briefly, take the package from his hand and sit down on your seat, never forget to notice the pastry box still intact.
your strange attitude didn't just stop there, it confuses akaashi for a more couple of days of your avoidance, he dislike the way you put a small distance between you both in study sessions, you flinch and tense around him more often, your answers and conversations are brief and sometimes awkward as you seem to be more preoccupied and attentive rather than to communicate with him.
"good morning, y/n." he smiles, your state has been bothering him for days as he is paying attention to your fade grin and a small "hey" as a greet back.
then he fumbles. something is missing...
oh. but then, realization sets in him quite quickly: you didn't bring any homemade sweets today.
"y/n..." he hesitates, meeting your eyes as you lift your head up from the notebook you're scribbling on. "does your home perhaps... out of ingredients or something?"
you are stunned for a moment, knowing exactly what he was trying to imply, scared to look at him directly in the eye as you shift your gaze elsewhere, pretending to have forgotten.
"oh... you mean the pastries... I forgot to do it. I was busy yesterday"
lies. he see through it, you know that, but you can't just blurt it all out that you're heartbreaking because of his indirect rejection that never says he doesn't like you, but makes you feel like it did.
"hey... i know something is wrong, can you tell me what it is?"
there it is - the worried look on such handsome face that never fails to make your heart flutter. but you know, that is just his nature of being an attentive and thoughtful person, not just for only you, but for everyone in his orbit.
so his question remained unanswered.
akaashi has been extremely distracted due to the sudden lack of your affection on him. it's just doesn't feel the same. even if he refuses it but deep down, he misses your midday snacks, your bubbly laugh around him and that flushed cheeks you wear every time he caught you staring. it has been a whole week since, and the fact that you didn't join the friend group video call with bokuto last sunday was his last straw.
he misses you, dearly. and if he doesn't do anything now before your project is finished, he might find it difficult to approach you even when you are his best friend.
and then, on an another lovely morning in the college's campus, an emotion he thinks he's aware of stirring in his stomach at the scene of you handing out a bento box wrapped with the same detailed towel, a small smile tugs at the corner of your lips as the other boy laughs lightly, scratches his neck, sending regards with a polite bow before making his way back in the classroom, akaashi doesn't like what his eyes have witnessed, so when he met yours, the bitterful look sends shivers down your spine.
you turn away, begin to walk, you do not want to deal with your bothered heart right now, not if it has anything to do with him, with that thought, you choose to neglect it because it is just your one-sided feelings for him.
but you hear footsteps behind, next is a small "wait" escaped from his lips when he managed to catch up and hold gently on your arm. that stopped you midtrack.
"please. can we talk?" he pleads.
---
you find yourself trapped by his presence in a corner of the school's library. there's no point in avoiding now.
"i'm sorry." he states. "i like you, i should've known."
your eyes widen. why- all of a sudden?
akaashi glances at you, softly sighs before bring your hand up to his face and kiss your knuckles gently.
"i understand now, i was clueless, you have the very right to be mad at me." each sentences he speaks crack your heart, but at the same time, they give you hope.
you neither know how to react, nor what to say, you just stand there, completely speechless, it encourages him to continue his speech of pursuing you.
"the last time i went to have lunch with satsuki, she confessed to me." he stopped, watching your expression. "but i turned her down, then, she got angry and started to brag about you. i did not like what she said, so i got quite defensive and... that was when i realised."
"i didn't know when it started. i just knew that i didn't feel very comfortable seeing you bringing your pastries that was meant for me to someone else, and more it's because i didn't appreciate it."
he squeezes your hand, afraid if not, you'll slip from his grip and become somebody else's apple. he certainly dislikes the thought.
"i want your pastries back, i love them as much as i love you. please let me correct such a terrible mistake."
---
"yes, hello. i've received the box, thank you, my love."
akaashi spins his office chair slightly, softly speaking to the phone stuck between his cheek and shoulder with a smile while unwrapping a huge warm box of freshly baked tarts.
"keiji, bad news, i'm out of powdered sugar after that batch." your voice echoed on output, he chuckles.
"are you free after work? we can visit the supermarket to purchase some. i'll drive, consider this a date with me, 'mkay?"
in which he takes a moment to justify himself after never noticing your little crush for him
starring. akaashi keiji x fem!reader
genre(s): angst to fluff, (super, like-) long scenarioÂ
warning(s): none, i think so? except for clueless keiji and not proof-reading
authorâs note: akaashi is just a major green flag in this (every haikyu!! boy is đ) i feel too bad to write them red-flag-y.
choose your character: m. atsumu | k. akaashi
youâve known akaashi for quite some time, starting from your last year of fukurodani academy and then serendipity brought you both ended up being each otherâs classmate at a same college/university. bokuto kotaro was your best friend, the little owl introduced his favorite setter to you and the friendship of three gradually become established, and as if it can not be any more inevitably, you eventually developed a secret admiration for the pretty setter when you three have been closed enough. however, graduating separated ways, kotaro pursued his journey to become professional in volleyball while keiji, once said to you he wanted a place in the literature department.
truth be told, even if you promised each other you would still keep in touch and plan every weekend friend group meeting online or offline, youâve never expect you would share every class in higher education life with your crush, the akaashi keiji. the great thing is you both are paired up for an presentation assignment in the major you and him pursue, you do have plenty of time to stay close and grab his attention from making gestures that he usually failed to realizes.
here you are again, happily humming your favourite song while carrying a box wrapped with a small detailed towel, some big rolls of assignment paper stuck underneath your arm as you make your way back to where you both planned to finish the project - the library.Â
âkeiji, iâm back!â you set your things respectively on the table, and akaashi nods with a smile on his face in acknowledgement.
âoookay, so hereâs your todayâs snack, I hope youâll like itâ you grin, tapping on the box before pushing it to his side as he receives it and casually opens it while speaking.
âhmm? are those sketches of our poster? you can always edit them on the computer, why the effort?â he chuckled softly before completely unwrapping the bento box.
âIâm not good at designing and stuff. I may draw as I like and youâll be the one to edit it on the computer.â you puff your cheek out, hands resting on hips as you watch his reaction to your delicately decorated sweets in the box made for him.
âthis looks amazing.â he smiles upon seeing the pastries you made, decorated beautifully with different kinds of fruit as each pastry has different flavours, you probably did not stay up so late last night just to make all kinds of flavours for him to show how much you like him. yeah, probably not.
"oh, it's nothing, I just hope it doesn't taste bad" you chuckle nervously while scratching the back of your neck, letting his praise send you up to cloud nine.
your actions falter when you see akaashi put back the box's cap on, set it aside as he leans over to reach the posters you drew.
"now then, can we start working on the project?" he spreads out the piece of paper, glancing at you as you stand there awkwardly, prefer him taking a bite to look through all of your efforts than just shrugging it off and go straight to the main part of your study session.
"what...? oh- um..." you trail off, a bit embarrassed. "wouldn't you like to try one out? it won't hurt to just have a taste of it..."
"maybe later, y/n. we have other things need to be done right now." he merely states, eyes study the poster in front of him, unknowingly sinking your heart.
"yes, right." you shift slightly, taking the sit by the opposite of him, trying to catch up with him on the progress.
you let your mind wanders off how many times you've lost count already while akaashi quietly focused on scribbling something in his notebook, every thoughts you have are always about keiji, your feelings and the stare you give him thinking it's discreet. what's stopping him from trying my tarts out? and how does he feel being around me? or is that his way of rejecting something without making that person feel bad? flooded your mind.
"y/n?" you realize his faint voice ringing somewhere "y/n..." the voice becomes clearer. "earth to y/n, you're staring." awh, snap. right.
you blink, startled before clearing your throat, mumbling a small apology as you try to get yourself busy with the work underneath you once again.
but akaashi just chuckles, his voice calm and reassuring.
"hey, you seem off today. it's lunch break, please make yourself comfortable." you fumble at his words, it's noon already? as he collects his books and tidy it up at one corner of the table before speaking again.
"yuri satsuki is inviting me to have lunch with her. would you like to also join? i think she wouldn't mind." he kindly offers, probably not knowing the words struck you shocked.
you know satsuki-senpai, she's a year older than you and has been a social butterfly ever since you set foot in student life. she is a nice person, you conceived, but not until you found out that she has a huge crush on your akaashi keiji, her behaviour in your eyes became somewhat annoying. in return, she did realize she had a rival to win over him, you acknowledge that through the smug look she gave every time akaashi was around her instead of you, that is how the tension gradually builds up between you and your pain-in-the-ass rival.
and now she's even invited keiji for lunch? you feel an uncomfortable twist in your belly, screaming that if you do not take further actions, you lose akaashi to her. but his way of discarding your hard work, also known as an attempt to get his attention earlier discourages you hastily. this comes to a realization: ever since he start hanging out with satsuki-senpai, he has never touched one of your cooks once.
"no, i'm fine staying here. you go" you force a smile waving him goodbye. he hesitates upon seeing the downward trend of your mood as well as the strange attitude every time he brings up yuri.
"what are you waiting for?" you scoff, trying your best to make it sound not so bitterly. he nods quietly before ruffles your hair, thoughtfully remind you to get something to eat before start working again, and he'll be back with you soon.
you groan for the nth time in thirty minutes since his last leave, deciding not to eat anything at all after you laugh bitterly to yourself seeing the bento box laid cold by his stuffs which corrects your thoughts that he is not going to appreciate what you did for him.
the chair scraped the floor when you stand up, attempting to compose yourself when you feel your brain need a break from overthinking such situations.
on the way out of the library, your eyes meet yuri satsuki's, assuming that keiji is just somewhere around here as his lunch break partner is the person you least excited to bump into.
"well, well. isn't that the girl whose best friend choose to hang out with me instead of her?"
excuse me?
"don't get too ahead of yourself, satsuki-senpai. just a friendly reminder" your tone evidently irritated as you flash her an unamused smile, trying to avoid her as soon as possible.
but the radio scene of her voice replayed all over your head, your mind goes muddy despite the fresh air you're trying to take in, you let out a shaky breath, tears brimming out.
maybe, he doesn't quite noticed the things I did for him after all...
---
"you're back. where were you?" akaashi worried tone surprises you after a quite fine time of trying to find you because your study desk in the library was empty.
"i was... out for fresh air. why?" your voice is off and he noticed that. he always knew when something is bothering you, and right now he definitely know that something is wrong.
"after i finished my lunch i got yours, 'cause i know when i'm back you would still hadn't eaten anything." his brows slightly furrow seeing your avoiding attitude.
"thanks, keiji." you said briefly, take the package from his hand and sit down on your seat, never forget to notice the pastry box still intact.
your strange attitude didn't just stop there, it confuses akaashi for a more couple of days of your avoidance, he dislike the way you put a small distance between you both in study sessions, you flinch and tense around him more often, your answers and conversations are brief and sometimes awkward as you seem to be more preoccupied and attentive rather than to communicate with him.
"good morning, y/n." he smiles, your state has been bothering him for days as he is paying attention to your fade grin and a small "hey" as a greet back.
then he fumbles. something is missing...
oh. but then, realization sets in him quite quickly: you didn't bring any homemade sweets today.
"y/n..." he hesitates, meeting your eyes as you lift your head up from the notebook you're scribbling on. "does your home perhaps... out of ingredients or something?"
you are stunned for a moment, knowing exactly what he was trying to imply, scared to look at him directly in the eye as you shift your gaze elsewhere, pretending to have forgotten.
"oh... you mean the pastries... I forgot to do it. I was busy yesterday"
lies. he see through it, you know that, but you can't just blurt it all out that you're heartbreaking because of his indirect rejection that never says he doesn't like you, but makes you feel like it did.
"hey... i know something is wrong, can you tell me what it is?"
there it is - the worried look on such handsome face that never fails to make your heart flutter. but you know, that is just his nature of being an attentive and thoughtful person, not just for only you, but for everyone in his orbit.
so his question remained unanswered.
akaashi has been extremely distracted due to the sudden lack of your affection on him. it's just doesn't feel the same. even if he refuses it but deep down, he misses your midday snacks, your bubbly laugh around him and that flushed cheeks you wear every time he caught you staring. it has been a whole week since, and the fact that you didn't join the friend group video call with bokuto last sunday was his last straw.
he misses you, dearly. and if he doesn't do anything now before your project is finished, he might find it difficult to approach you even when you are his best friend.
and then, on an another lovely morning in the college's campus, an emotion he thinks he's aware of stirring in his stomach at the scene of you handing out a bento box wrapped with the same detailed towel, a small smile tugs at the corner of your lips as the other boy laughs lightly, scratches his neck, sending regards with a polite bow before making his way back in the classroom, akaashi doesn't like what his eyes have witnessed, so when he met yours, the bitterful look sends shivers down your spine.
you turn away, begin to walk, you do not want to deal with your bothered heart right now, not if it has anything to do with him, with that thought, you choose to neglect it because it is just your one-sided feelings for him.
but you hear footsteps behind, next is a small "wait" escaped from his lips when he managed to catch up and hold gently on your arm. that stopped you midtrack.
"please. can we talk?" he pleads.
---
you find yourself trapped by his presence in a corner of the school's library. there's no point in avoiding now.
"i'm sorry." he states. "i like you, i should've known."
your eyes widen. why- all of a sudden?
akaashi glances at you, softly sighs before bring your hand up to his face and kiss your knuckles gently.
"i understand now, i was clueless, you have the very right to be mad at me." each sentences he speaks crack your heart, but at the same time, they give you hope.
you neither know how to react, nor what to say, you just stand there, completely speechless, it encourages him to continue his speech of pursuing you.
"the last time i went to have lunch with satsuki, she confessed to me." he stopped, watching your expression. "but i turned her down, then, she got angry and started to brag about you. i did not like what she said, so i got quite defensive and... that was when i realised."
"i didn't know when it started. i just knew that i didn't feel very comfortable seeing you bringing your pastries that was meant for me to someone else, and more it's because i didn't appreciate it."
he squeezes your hand, afraid if not, you'll slip from his grip and become somebody else's apple. he certainly dislikes the thought.
"i want your pastries back, i love them as much as i love you. please let me correct such a terrible mistake."
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"yes, hello. i've received the box, thank you, my love."
akaashi spins his office chair slightly, softly speaking to the phone stuck between his cheek and shoulder with a smile while unwrapping a huge warm box of freshly baked tarts.
"keiji, bad news, i'm out of powdered sugar after that batch." your voice echoed on output, he chuckles.
"are you free after work? we can visit the supermarket to purchase some. i'll drive, consider this a date with me, 'mkay?"
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she has his sense of humor and his laugh, full-bodied and from her stomach. tetsurou loves to blow raspberries on her neck just to get that reaction. she grabs onto his hair when he lifts her up on her shoulders, and you can see it in both their eyes that thereâs nothing else they love more than spending time with each other.
heâs her best friend (he hopes itâs âtill forever). and when her first words are papa, you canât even be mad, because seeing her is like seeing himâyour favourite person (except, mini version).
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you first laid eyes on him when you were sitting alone on the subway, his dyed-blonde locks caught your attention as he first talked to you about the chase atlanticâs song you were listening to, he was cute, warm and friendly. at that moment, you were verified that he wasnât the guy who was fond of his fan girls that everybody had been rumoring about. He eventually found out that you guys went to the same high school, so as to start a new beginning of your bonding friendship.
It wasnât long until you finally realized that you might have adored the pretty setter a little too much than usual. his touches, his smile, the way he calls your name and his genuine characteristics when he was used to you being around seemed a little bit more easy to flutter your heart than every other day. Ever since then, you just hid your feelings and was grateful for what you got right then because you knew that if you confess, you couldnât get this best friend treatment that you silently fell for for any longer.
You impressed yourself for even keep it until now. you and him are mature and beautiful, but you still canât help but feel so âhigh schoolâ when you look at him. the least thing you could do for a friend (crush) is care for him through bottles of flavored electrolyte water, preparing his favorite after-practice snacks and even cool and soft towels to calm the heat down after a match. However, it seems like mr. miya doesnât notice all of the hard work you did for him, he was so used to be taken care of by you that he accidentally failed to realize the special treatment only for him but nobody else.
âHey, tired yet? you can call it a day for now if you want?â you smiled, hand over his bottle of water you prepared for him to the softly panting atsumu taking a break on the bench. He is quite preoccupied with his earlier techniques that he need to improve, he only spares you a glance then takes the bottle to drink without saying any words, you assume that he is in a bad mood.
âoh, andâ you search for the thing in your bag. âhere, your towelâ
he nods and takes it, it makes you feel awkward. thatâs⊠allâŠ? You try to not overthink yourself, after all, it was quite a tense match, and the fact that your team will have an important volleyball game the next month proves his concerns are valid.
you watch atsumu leave when hinata shoyo came up to you.
âoh? isnât that our manager?â you startle at his voice. âhehe, please donât mind tsumu at all, please, he just got pissed because he made a mistake during practiceâ the sunshine grins, having him around surely just brighten everything up, because he is just so sweet and comfortable to be with.
âno, no,⊠I really donât mind at all, actuallyâ you know atsumu better than anyone so you donât take his actions to heart sometimes, itâs justâŠ
âoi, oi! I know what youâre thinking, I saw you overthere doing things for tsumu. This guy, honestlyâŠâ Hinata sure saw you earlier with enthusiasm written on all over your face while preparing those towels and bottles, he felt bad for you and decided to cheer you up regardless atsumu has just cracked your poor heart a little.
âItâs okay, hinata. thank you for checking on me!â you smile wide, so my efforts wasnât invalidated at all, gratefully bow down to see the awkward hinata trying to stutter words out.
âno- no, donât do that, you are our manager, thatâs just nothing! besides, seeing you give tsumu so special treatment makes me real jealous!!â he huffs cutely. âI really want that flavored electrolyte water, too! what a shame he wouldnât notice.â
you laugh sheepishly as you guys return to your dorms to rest. things have been going hard for you like crazy, the work amount weighing on your shoulders make it almost unbearable, but you still stay strong and put a warm smile on your face so nobody would notices. you have been thinking of retiring just in case the situation just got worse to the level of destroying your mental health. but, by thinking of your small joy of seeing atsumu everyday, you hesitated.
your sleepless nights start when the important games take a step closer, you overworked yourself and often feel burnt out, your time with atsumu narrows as you find it hard to start a conversation even in lunch break. atsumu does feel weird. why isnât y/n sit with us? she is nowhere to be found these days.
âhey, tsum-tsumâ said bokuto. âwhat do you think of y/n?â he said, putting a tray of food on the table while making his way to sit.
ây/n? whatâs with her?â the fake blond raises a brow, munching on his food
âI think sheâs so cute and thoughtful, base on her affection for you, i betcha sheâs completely smittenâ the owl laughs as the other teammates giggle along. âyou should consider on dating her, what a waste if you donât, sheâs literally girlfriend material, same thoughts huh, hinata?â he winks and the tangerine head give him back a thumbs up.
âdating y/n, huh?â atsumu laughs as if he doesnât take bokutoâs statements seriously. âI donât date my friends, you know. besides, y/n is just a close friend of mine, she ainât my typeâ
âheartless tsumu⊠she worked so hard for you these daysâŠâ hinata fake crying when talking about you
âI know that she makes snacks and does things for me, but sometimes, thatâs just unnecessary, i donât need it to be all the damn time, it feels a little annoying, i just need to be alone to refresh my thoughtsâ he sighs. ânow you told me to consider on dating her, i wouldnât know how long i can take it.â
now there is dead silence following his statement, everybody just awkwardly continues finishing their lunch, and you do know eavesdropping is a thing that you shouldnât do. but you did. before you even notice, hot streams cover your face and you feel your breath hitches. the coach sends you to check on the team at such wrong timing, you canât face them, the voices earlier destroy your confidence, replace it with angst and hurt. so⊠what i did is just a bother to him, huh. you realize now, that you were such a dumbass trying to make him catch feeling by all of this. and with the tiniest amount of pride left, you back up a smile and step into the cafeteria, the atmosphere suddenly feels tense as everybody hasnât been moving on since their last conversation, atsumu feels an uneasy feeling when he sees you behind him, guilt? he thinks.
âhey⊠coach sent me to check up on you guys, please be well rested at your dorms after lunch, we have practice match at 2pm, alright?â your voice evidently trembles, you try cover it up with some fake coughs. oh, who are you kidding? itâs atsumu miya weâre talking about. he first notices how your eyes are a bit swollen, have you been crying? your tired figure due to sleepless nights, the way you havenât eaten properly shows right in front of his eyes. he suddenly felt a twinge in his heart, in which moment he never wanted to see you like this, ever again. but, whatâs all this for? he doesnât like you⊠right? because- youâre his best friend, and caring is whatâs best friends do, am I correct?
you left the cafeteria. atsumu feels like his whole head is going to explode, he regrets what he said earlier, knowing seventy per cent that you might have listened to it. he is weak because of guilt and distaste. the group feels uneasy and moody all of a sudden.
âi havenât told you this before but youâve seen her now, tsumu⊠she overworked herself with this huge amount of work with nobody beside her, yet she still maintaining to take care of you with these small gestures.â hinata sighs heavily. ây/n told me not to tell you about her state so you can concentrate on practising, but Iâm really worried because now she canât even hide it anymore. I tried to help, but she pushed me away and told me that i should do my own practices as our game is going to start soon.â
hinata pats atsumuâs back before leaving as if heâs signalling him to make it up to you. atsumu started to cry at this point. how could he be so clueless? he didnât even know that his best friend was undergoing such pressure, yet why does the term âbest friendâ sound so irritating? he felt like he had failed to protect you and worse, hurting your feelings and he regretted it, so badly.
The following day comes, atsumu's first task is to search for you. To his astonishment, you are once more nowhere to be found. he was so preoccupied, his spikes arenât as good, and he could not concentrate on practising, the coach sent him out, and gave him a moment to rethink by himself. and so, he reaches a staff, asking for information about you.
âY/n? oh⊠sheâs at the infirmary, we noticed her devastated state so we sent her to the doctor a while ago. now think about it I might write a report to the coach asking him to reduce the amount of work sheâs handling.â
âthank you, kind sir. may I be the one whoâll write the report? Iâm sure I could convince the coach.â
as the man nods, atsumu bowed goodbye to him and sprints to the infirmary where youâre at. he knows, that if anybody should write a report for you, it must be him. he must protect you because he has just realised it now, he likes you a lot more than he could imagine.
âY/N!â atsumu slams the door open, he faces you with your eyes widened, startled by the bright window.
âtsumuâŠ?â you softly speak.
atsumu in front of your eyes is the atsumu who tries to hold back his tears, biting his bottom lip as the poor heart lurching somewhere in his stomach but somehow still happy because he has found you.
âheyâŠâ he kneels down on one knee beside you. âiâm sorry, angelâ his hand softly squishes the smaller one, it holds back gently on hisâ
in all of the things you dislike, what you utterly donât want to deal with is your emotions when you see atsumu looking so vulnerable like this. you instinctually grab a tissue and wipe off the sweat drop on his forehead the moment you see it, atsumuâs worried expression wonât vanish unless you speak up something.
âheyâŠâ you smile. âdonât worry, Iâm okay now, tsumuâ you fondly touch his face with a hand, and he sinks in your touch, eyes glittering. atsumu intentionally plants a soft kiss on your warm palm and watches you go weak for him.
âi like you, y/nâ he sighs. âi donât want us to be just friends. i want to protect you, want to be the kind of guy who mentally support his girl to help her cope with any pressure.â
he looks up to see your widened eyes, without a response, he continues.
âiâm sorry i said the things i didnât mean when you were there, I was justâŠ" he gulps nervously and you sigh.
"tsumu... if it's too much for you to bear, maybe i should stop doing those things, okay?" you scoff bitterly, he becomes panic
âno, no, no,... i really like the way you care for me, please, i want your attention. please keep doing it. donât get tired of meâŠâ
you can feel the pulse bumping in your nerves, your heart flutters, and blood rushes into your cheeks just by hearing his confession. you kneel down beside him, fighting back the tears but then you canât, so you squish him in a hug. atsumu holds you back as you start sobbing on his white shirt, inhales fondly your intoxicating smell and pats rhythmically on your back
âthere, there, my angel. iâm here now. iâm sorry iâm late. let me make this up for you, yeah?â he chuckles.
atsumu loves his girlfriend. after hearing you ramble about your tight schedule, he immediately writes a report based on your experience to inform the coach about your condition so that everyone can share in your responsibilities instead of you having to handle everything alone. it wasnât that long for the msby mates to realize you guys are together, he wrote in that report that he is your boyfriend, anyway.
âyou nailed it, tsumu-kunâ hinata bumps him with a thumbs up, atsumu responds with a sheepish grin while bokuto laughs beside him and sakusa just doesnât really give a shit.Â
he spots you standing on the opposite road near the brand new cafe, waving back to him smiling, ânah, gotta run. gonna treat my girlfriend with extra pastry today.â