just vibes

i think being a little in love with your friends is crucial. (x)

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Tyler Knott Gregson, Typewriter Series #465

I had been blinded by greed.

"What was P'Ton doing on P'Nut's cheek?"

LOVE IN THE BIG CITY, EP 3 | 4: ON THE TIP OF YOUR TONGUE IS THE TASTE OF THE UNIVERSE Directed by Hur Jin-ho, 2024

When I was with him, I became someone who spoke and ate little. I was completely intent on observing him, squirreling away within myself the sight of his short, unkempt hair, the warm air that flowed between his front teeth when he laughed, the way he raised an eyebrow when he felt shy, and the slight whistle whenever he pronounced an s. After dinner, I had to scramble to keep up with him on my at-least-four-inches-shorter legs as he strode along with his gaze straight ahead. I was often thrown into despair over the fact that he never once looked back at me on that long walk to the subway station. Whenever I sat staring at him, all kinds of thoughts ran through my head. I wanted to know him as a person, and more than that, to know what he thought of me, and even more than that, I longed to understand how he managed to keep jerking my emotions around. My thoughts, my feelings kept racing ahead at hundreds of miles per second, and I hadn't a clue as to what to do with this kind of energy. So, I turned the spiralbound notebook I had bought for the class into a diary and wrote about him and the changes in my emotions that he brought on, recording and examining my feelings. The more I wrote, the less I understood.

I believed her when she said it wasn't heavy. No—now that I think about it, I think I wanted to believe so. How many countless years were filled with loneliness and sorrow, thinking it was okay because she’s my mom, and brushing it off. Now that I’ve become a mother, it pains me terribly.