Angry Owl

I just wanna see how many of my mutuals are doing this

I want to meet/follow people near me

I’ve never been so… Pathetic? I guess. I live alone in a dorm room, I’m anti social as it is and I really only leave to go to class, buy food, or use the restroom. Which is right across the hall. Otherwise my only social interactions are the occasional game club on Friday and a Pathfinder campaign on Sunday, neither is a guarantee. However, I’ve gotten so desperate for some sort of affection I’ve found myself looking up ASMR for falling asleep with a girlfriend… This is partial due to insomnia, as well as how fuckin lonely it gets in my room. I know that sitting in my room won’t do me any good if I’m looking to find a girl, or even make friends that is. I just honestly don’t know how, I’ve never been good at it. I try to not be so intimidating to others (I’ve been told my more people than I can remember to count that I’m surprisingly intimidating to talk to, or even see walking towards, idk honestly…) I try slouching and smiling, but it hasn’t worked so far. Making the first move to talk to someone is difficult for me, the most I get is an awkward conversation and then parting ways, never to see each other again. That’s just with guys, trying to approach a girl is so difficult because normally it’s four girls in a conversation already or there’s already a guy there. Is it too much to ask to be able to make a new friend? I’m always honest when I talk to people, even if it’s rare to talk with people. I just hate being in my room all alone, I’m honestly asking for advice from anyone who sees this… How. How do I fix this? Nothing has worked for me so far and I’m out of ideas.