90 Day journey

I decorated my porch like this 2 weeks ago. I have been sick and in pain and bed ridden for a week. Just when I was ready to go back I die. I feel better but I’m so ready for this to be over lol.

I’m so ready for it to stop

I believe in all of you! You got this! Feel free to message me if you ever need an ear to listen :)

Yesterday and today I haven't cared. I ate what i wanted which was popcorn, normal pizza, and gluten free chicken tenders with broccoli. Not to mention nuts with cranberries. This doesn't sound like a lot you're saying... but it was especially for me. I struggle with PCOS and gluten sugar and dairy have always caused the weight gain. I’m on this 90 day journey for a reason. Sure... 2 days out of 90 doesn't seem bad... having slip ups is normal... yeah and you're right. But what's to stop me again? I need to self reflect on this. I haven't used my journal, I barely blog anymore, and working out feels like a chore and isn't fun... why? You know what? Here’s a promise. If I still feel like this after I start working I will talk to someone or figure out what's going on. Maybe I need to go back on Prozac? i stopped recently and I thought working out was enough... Is it? I guess we’ll find out

I just did the Body by Blogilates workout… and I know I just posted about being in a rut but… I just felt relief… and I just started crying. Idk why… maybe it was the post earlier or just a build up of stress but… why?… what is going on? Does anyone know what I mean?

This week has been hard. I ate one snack that had gluten and sugar but besides that I’ve stuck to everything. I have had non stop cravings 24/7 for pizza, burgers, Chinese, cookies and just anything that isn't in the diet. I have struggled to workout and I’ve done what I’ve needed to do but I didn’t enjoy it at all. I’ve lost 6 pounds yay but i don’t feel great about it. I don’t know why the second week has been so hard. I just want to stop and eat what i want but that would ruin everything and I don’t want that. I want to thrive and build confidence and continue off of last week. I don’t understand the rut I’m in but I’m praying I bounce out of it. I usually love working out... so... what happened? Is it normal to hit a decline so soon? Is it me like my depression and anxiety? How to I get out of this feeling? Maybe it’ll all change when I start working again. The cravings and the constant feeling of needing to snack will go away. I’m being as hopeful as I can. I almost didn’t even blog today... I haven’t even been doing anything with my journal.... Any advice out there?

This doesn’t look Appetizing but let me tell you!! I never thought zucchini noodles would taste good. They taste just like spaghet! And I love spaghet! Nom nom! I just got hired at Disney! (Working from home) but Disney!!! I’m so excited!! Good food great day and ready for my workout! Let’s go!

I have found the perfect snack! Something sweet and salty and healthy! It’s something I’ve been craving and didn’t even know. Today has been better. I went to Target and tried to find the new Blogilates equipment and it was sold out in every single target! No fair! Off to go change and then workout. Wish me luck!

Anyone know a healthy alternative for ranch or a dairy free version?

I’m headed out to Target to get some workout equipment!! I’m so excited to be out in the world lol! Today’s a new day and I feel exhausted! But I’m going to follow the plan and workout and eat exactly as scheduled! Let’s go!

Today was a hard and stressful day. I had lunch then all of a sudden everything hit the fan. I didn’t eat for the rest of the day. I’ve felt awful and terrible… I’ve jogged 2 miles and I did my body workout thinking I’d feel better releasing stress. That didn’t happen… I just feel tired and defeated. I don’t even want to shower and get ready for tomorrow. This is the first time in 2 weeks I haven’t looked forward to the next day.

I’m thinking… smoothie for lunch?💜