CURSED / ALIVE *

all   of   these   starters   are   taken   from   the   2017   album   “hopeless fountain kingdom”.    feel   free   to   change   the   pronouns   to   make   these   fit !

“There’s some kind of light at the end when touching the edge of her skin,’

“Stoned, forgetful and then I’m drinking what used to be sin,”

“Could you be the one that’s not afraid to look me in the eye?”

“We drive to leave the past and clear the mind”

“Wish I was much more masculine, maybe I’d even learn to swim like fourteen miles away,”

“I’m sinking to the bottom of my everything that freaks me out,”

“I want to swim away but don’t know how, sometimes it feels just like I’m falling in the ocean,”

“Where is the coastguard, I keep looking each direction for a spotlight, give me something”

“I’m treading for my life, believe me,”

“I’m reaching for the life within me, how can one man stop his ending?”

“I thought of just your face, relaxed and floated into space,”

“What if we could put our lives on hold and meet somewhere inside the world?”

“I’m glad to say that we’ve met, but I’m sad to say that the circumstances weren’t on our side,”

“If you’re sleeping, are you dreaming? If you’re dreaming, are you dreaming of me?”

“I can’t believe you actually picked me,”

“I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head, they crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed,”

“An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?”

“Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you,”

“I’m sober now for 3 whole months, it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with,”

“The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again,”

“In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night, while I was waging wars on myself you were trying to stop the fight,”

“I’ll drive so fucking far away that I’ll never cross your mind, and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind,”

“Why do I feel this way? Why do I kneel?”

“I’ll show you the road that I led you the wrong way on,”

“My mind, it kind of goes fast. I’ll try and slow it down for you,”

“I came to see the light of my best friend, you seemed as happy as you’d ever been,”

“My words, they don’t come out right but I’ll try to say I’m happy for you,”

“Ever carried the weight of another? For how long?”

“I want to carry a piece of who I was before so when I hit the wall, I really hit the wall.”

“I’m here to tell you that I’m sorry I was sorry, but I’m happy that you’re happy, this is no longer about me.”

“Live your life just like a dream without the pain of goodbyes,”

“I’ve been a drunk disrespectful little street punk,”

“There’s a self-destructive meaning in the bleeding of a guy, it’s the guilt of what reality has given me.”

“I want to kiss a girl and know I’ll never lie again,”

“I want to let my brother know he saved my life a thousand times throughout the years,”

“Minus the speed could you imagine the phobia?”

“Give me recipes for happy with the chemicals gone,”

“I’m sick of shaking, never waking from the hell I achieve,”

“I never knew a heart could live inside the rust from all your rain,”

“Myself and I, we share this barely beating heart of hurt.”

“I want to show you just how fascinating kissing is when earth collides with all the space between,”

“Never look behind you, spooky people bring you down,”

“I am toasting to the way you put a smile upon my face,”

episode six - a murder of gods.

❝ you saved me. thank you. ❞

❝ you already know my name. ❞

❝ what are they ? ❞

❝ oh motherfucker, you never just answer a fucking question ! ❞

❝ that’s not a question, ___ , a question would be: what do you believe you saw ? ❞

❝ i don’t know what i believe. ❞

❝ it was a warning to me, and a sacrifice to them. ❞

❝ sacrifice ? like –– like what, for –– for a god ? ❞

❝ what’s a god ? can we even know they exist ? people believe things, which means they’re real. that means we know they exist. so what came first ? gods ? or the people who believed in them ? ❞

❝ where was all this before i met you ? ❞

❝ there’s always a window. but people are frightened to look through it. it’s safer in the prison cell. ❞

❝ we’re not safe now. ❞

❝ who are you ? ❞

❝ i believe in some things. ❞

❝ your wife obviously has a temper. not used to getting her way, huh ? ❞

❝ your dearly departed has departed and i suggest we should do the same. ❞

❝ was she a ghost ? i mean, do you think you saw a ghost ? ❞

❝ you know, you’re not questioning any of this. i’m questioning everything right now. ❞

❝ i’m not so young nor so narrow to assume the dead are dead, and there’s no spectrum or spectral in between. in my experience, the dead that aren’t rarely come back without purpose. ❞

❝ her purpose was to let you go, now get in. ❞

❝ now you’ve seen who’s after us, and you know what they’re capable of. you can hang around here if you want, but i’m getting out of here. ❞

❝ fuck ! where the fuck is my car ! ❞

❝ yes, it does belong to the dead woman, i am the dead woman. where’s my fucking car ? ❞

❝ first piece of luck i’ve had in days. ❞

❝ worse things out tonight than you. ❞

❝ isn’t she lovely ? ❞

❝ i’ve done the math. this times that equals you’re a cunt, divided by the only way i’m gonna get what i need is if you give it to me equals the only way you’re gonna give it to me is if you don’t need it. ❞

❝ like my friend jesus christ, the only thing you need, ___ , is resurrection. ❞

❝ did you just name drop jesus christ like you know a guy who knows a guy ? ❞

❝ i can be very convincing. ❞

❝ is this you being convincing now ? because you suck at it. ❞

❝ i’m trying to convince you to live. real living. not whatever rot living this is. ❞

❝ why don’t you put that on your fucking scales and weigh it ? ❞

❝ what the fuck are you ? i mean, what the fuck are any of you, but first, tell me, what the fuck are you ? seriously, what the fuck are you ?! ❞

❝ please stop stealing my cab. ❞

❝ i have been traveling in the direction of mecca for days, looking for a jinn. ❞

❝ i’ll tell you where to find a whole murder of gods, demi and otherwise. every god damned one of them. ❞

❝ i know a charm that can lift grief from a grieving heart. ❞

❝ do you know a charm that can stop bleeding ? ❞

❝ i know a charm that can cure sickness and pain and a charm that can turn away the weapons of enemies. i know a charm that can heal with a touch. ❞

❝ excuse the cold hands. ❞

❝ there’s always been a god shaped hole in man’s head. trees were the first to fill it. ❞

❝ mr. wood was the trees, mr. wood was the forest. see, he was a very old god who saw something very new. he saw a god fearing society turn towards complete industrialization. so what did he do ? he sacrificed his trees, he sacrificed his forest, and he became something else. ❞

❝ well, at this stage it’s ‘we’ll see’, or, ‘time will tell’, but if it’ll rest your weary head, then yeah, it’s gone. ❞

❝ religion inspires in those who fear nothing, fear of the gods, and using that fear requires a certain element of fucked up. ❞

❝ i’m not scared of anything anymore. ❞

❝ i’m scared you’re never gonna shut that flapping hole of yours. i’m sitting here having a fucking anxiety attack because i am genuinely terrified that you are never gonna shut the fuck up. ❞

❝ did you kill ___ ? i won’t tell. ❞

❝ my name is ___. or … it was ___. i do not know what my name is now. ❞

❝ i just realized that i’m never gonna see my mother again. i’m never gonna hear her say my name again. i’m never gonna eat her cooking again. ❞

❝ are you dead ? ❞

❝ this is my afterlife, ___. ❞

❝ did you pray for another life ? ❞

❝ i do not pray to ask god for things. i pray to thank god, for bringing me where i am. to this time, to this place, where i finally know what i must do in this life. ❞

❝ i pray i find ___. he is my afterlife. i knew him. we knew each other. and now i wish to know more. ❞

❝ people will defend the warm safe feeling their america gives them. they will defend it with bullets. ❞

❝ less a funeral than a celebration of a sacrifice. ❞

❝ if i know my friend, somebody got tossed into the volcano. ❞

❝ this was a human sacrifice ? ❞ 

❝ that’s him. head of the crowd. the one they flock to. ❞

❝ please, go in peace. ❞

❝ what rock did you crawl out from under ? ❞

❝ playing a little hide and seek. hiding from the proverbial them, and seeking … you. ❞

❝ i need you to believe in me. ❞

❝ i’ve heard your name on the wind. ❞

❝ we’re at war already, and we’re losing. you, me, all of us. they’re taking honey from our mouths. ❞

❝ i have no use for shame. ❞

❝ it’s easier to pass for the living in the dark, if i felt the need to pass. ❞

❝ your heart’s not beating for this life anymore, ___. this life is done. ❞

❝ that doesn’t obligate him to feel shit. ❞

❝ perhaps i misjudged the kiss. ❞

❝ death do us part, take the fucking hint. he’s gone. your man came, saw you, tasted death on your tongue, and he fucking left. ❞

❝ your kind of love, ___, is the worst kind of love of them all. you can love somebody even when you know they don’t like it. even when you know they don’t want it. ❞

❝ that’s some profound fucking knowledge for you right there, wrapped up in a quaint sexual metaphor. ❞

❝ people do tend to behave if they know they’re being watched. they like being watched. ❞

❝ somebody’s watching. somebody’s always watching. ❞

❝ what did you do to become the god of this little universe that you’ve created ? ❞

❝ you’re no stranger to sacrifice. ❞

❝ they don’t sacrifice anymore. not to me. ❞

❝ you could always sacrifice yourself. you’ve done it before. ❞

❝ you ever see a man hanged, ___ ? throat crushed, gasping for life. it’s a terrible way to find your faith. faith doesn’t have to leave the faithful dangling. ❞

❝ you are what you worship. ❞

❝ the power of fire is firepower. ❞

❝ not god, but godlike. and they believe. ❞

❝ god bless the believers. ❞

❝ i’ll make you a blade worthy of a god. ❞

❝ i know who he is, and who he’s always been. i can depend on that. ❞

❝ you’re not here at the moment. you’re distracted. i wonder why. ❞

❝ she’s out in the cold, but … she doesn’t feel it anymore. or maybe … maybe it’s all she feels, now. ❞

❝ they make blood sacrifices to you. ❞

❝ you could use a blood sacrifice. ❞

❝ you sold us out. ❞

❝ you saw what i was. i was a story people forgot to remember to tell. and they gave me a gun. they put power back in my hands. and i gotta tell you; it feels good. ❞

❝ i never needed my religion to be moral. ❞

❝ moralizing religions are materialistic ones. they all need their martyrs. ❞

❝ i’m laying down a curse. i’m cursing the whole fucking thing. ❞

❝ god is great. ❞

these are song lyrics from Lorde’s 2017 album ‘Melodrama’ there may be some trigger’s present.