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being told my whole life that “i’m such a strong girl” and “you’re so independent and caring” makes me so disappointed on how i’m not that girl anymore. i would do everything to make sure no one broke my confidence or ever belittled me but now i let everything and everyone hurt me because i can’t defend museo anymore. i used to prove day after day how smart and witty i am, and now i left people tell me how dumb and slow i am. i used to make sure no one could ever make me feel less than because of my body and now i cry the minute anyone notices any imperfection. i tried so hard to stand on my own two feet since the day i started school and i’m so drained and tired i can’t do it anymore. i can’t hold myself and stand on my own to feet. i would rather just cry and tell myself everything i need to fix instead of being the girl who also ignored everyone’s feelings towards me. i can’t do it anymore i’m broken i’m empty i’m not me. i don’t know if i ever will be that girl again. i don’t know if i ever will try to be. i can’t fix it. i can’t find that old girl within me. i’m just a punching bag and i will continue to just bruise until i fully shatter

sometimes things make me feel like the world is crumbling down on me but it’s actually just the biggest eye opener and i’m finally growing to learn that. i’m taking it one day at a time and understanding that whatever happens will likely happen for the better of it. i’m growing and changing everyday. i make mistakes and learn from them to better myself for the people i love and most importantly for myself. i’m taking this dark time as a step forward to push and make it thru. life has its stops yet the light is never red forever i’ll keep waiting til it’s green and get going :)

reminiscing on young and aged blissful times yet creating new and beautiful blissful memories🫖🎥🎶🎵🔢

childish behavior but in the wrong way is so very real. be childish when it comes to fun and love and enjoy life, don’t be childish when it comes to taunting and following the wrong crowds~

the most innocent love i’ve ever experienced has made me so blissfully ignorant and i’m perfectly fine with that 

change creeps in too often for serenity