THE DouJin Paintbrush

This one was harder for some reason. Sorry, Shien-San. At least I wasn't late.

Rio-San, thank you for being the person you are. Please don't disappear.

I'm sorry I was so late. I hope that you're happier now. I hope you're free.

I'm sorry I was too late. I did my best, Rikka-San.

I found Hakka first. That little bird was just a fun person who made me smile and laugh. I heard him sing for the first time when he released Omen of Crows. I gathered the courage to look into him more. To listen to him sing, watch old streams. He started streaming on twitch, and for a while I haven't missed a single stream. And in meeting Hakka, I met a whole world of people I didn't know about, not just Holostars, but the Starmin as well.

I joined them, and I feel so comfortable here. I've met all the Holostars EN members through their streams. And then, I started to know the JP members, as well.

When the first announcement happened, I was shocked. I was angry. I felt hopeless. How could people so talented and kind and loving be treated this way? I was scared for their futures, and I wanted to help. I wouldn't say I'm usually the optimistic type, but this time I was. I thought there was still time to change it. I told myself I was doing everything I could to help them, to be there for them. I lurked in streams, I spread their names, I supported their every loss and triumph. In doing so, I grew more and more attached to them. Why wouldn't I? They're such amazing people. I even revived this old account to cheer for Bettel. I know we were all having fun, but I truly thought we had done something. I thought we made that difference.

That second announcement was made. The graduations. And I haven't stopped crying. I'm not sure if I've smiled. I became absent, even in Hakka's streams. I leave the occasional comment. I always say hi in the streams I catch. I didn't stop making the art I promised. I just changed the order. Why did I have to meet people so great just to lose them so quickly?

I will cherish you. I will love you. Always. Do your best out there, and please don't give up. Take care of yourselves, Holostars. All of you. Especially the ones that are staying with us. Because I know it hurts more for you than it does for us. And I hope that, as you live your lives, you still see us and know how much we will always love you. No matter where or who you are.

This one hurt to make, too. It's the final details that have been making me sad.

With all of these, I try to be respectful. I'm not objectifying. I'm not sexualizing. It's appreciation. This one needed something more... I rushed a bit to get done in time.

I'm sorry this happened.

All of Holostars in Lingerie part 5

This is a difficult question to answer. There's a lot of good moments, and if I go based off of what made me laugh the hardest, it's the most recent Gartic Phone that didn't survive. The whole stream. But one clip that I rewatch a lot is this one

I got it done. Tried my best. I'll keep trying as much as I can.