butterflyana

let’s spread this again and again and again

Am I back on my bullshit…?

I've had a really shitty day. I'm exhausted, I don't want to do this anymore. I feel like nothing matters and no one actually cares about me. It's been really bad, mentally, physically, etc. I just need some sort of escape but I don't know what that is. Everything feels fake.

these are good if you live with family or need a quiet workout!!

bless you

:0 !

I see all these posts about people feeling fake saying they have an ed for eating a sandwich. This is the shoutout post for people who starve all day and binge all night. The people who are stuck on a certain weight because they binge almost daily. The people who can’t control themselves and hate it more than anything. The people who feel like their ed is fake all day and every day.

Did anyone else go through a random recovery where your mental health just improved in general which allowed you to kick your ED mentality to the curb and see through body dysmorphia but then gained a decent amount of weight making you unhappy with your body and reverting back to ED habits even though you don’t have the same obsession anymore and now feel like you don’t really have an ED anymore because it’s not that bad you just have disordered eating and also kinda wish your mental health would just fuck up so you could at least go back to being a real Anorexic/bulimic ect. Because boy this feels shit and confusing and I really do feel like I’m faking it now.

say it a lil louder for the bitches in the back

Lol..My whole life summarized in one post