i will discard myself, it's the decision we made

hey guys, i’ve been pretty quiet as of late because of my extensive work schedule and being literally exhausted 24/7 so i apologize for that. i’ve seen all the starters and replies i owe on both here and @doublecores and i plan to get to them, but i’m going to announce an official hiatus because i’ll be going on a trip to disney next week, a trip that i really need to take to help relieve my stress levels significantly and also, i’ll be hanging out with @zaesu which i’m excited about. i also want to focus a little more on irl a bit so i expect this hiatus to extend to about two weeks. my anxiety levels have been through the roof over various things, it’s made me flaky as fuck, and i really need the time to sort my head out and just… relax and get my head back on straight. i may be posting here and there, but yeah. thanks everyone for being awesome!

[text: akashi] Not everything has to be a goddamn competition! [text: akashi] I guess I don’t want to lost to you either. [text: akashi] … [text: akashi] Shut up.

[ text: Chihiro ] If you truly intend to not lose to me, I expect an overwhelming number of kisses in the near future. [ text: Chihiro ] Speaking of which, I've managed to find some time to spare the weekend after next. [ text: Chihiro ] I won’t trouble you too much if I spend the night at your place, will I?

ひだまりの

Mayuzumi & Akashi!!

[text: akashi] I’d like to hope we were close at this point! [text: akashi] Well… it’s the same for me, too. I trust you more than most people. I guess all people? [text: akashi] I’d kiss you. [text: akashi] And what’s all this about perversion, huh?! You’re just as eager! Are you calling yourself a pervert?

[ text: Chihiro ] I suppose that I am. [ text: Chihiro ] I’ve learned a lot about myself recently thanks to you. [ text: Chihiro ] You’re actually quite passionate when we’re being intimate, I can’t allow myself to lose to you.

[text: akashi] Well. Especially right now. [text: akashi] Believe me, I know when you’re teasing me at this point. [text: akashi] I’d do… whatever I wanted. As per usual.

[ text: Chihiro ] Oh? You know me so well now. Haven’t we become especially close? [ text: Chihiro ] It can’t be helped. I’ve told you a lot about myself by now. More than I’ve told anyone else. [ text: Chihiro ] I’d expect a kiss, at the very least. [ text: Chihiro ] Based on past behavior, I’m certain that your perverted inclinations would quickly take over as well. Since I also know you very well, I can say that with confidence. [ text: Chihiro ] You’re better at expressing yourself through actions over words, so I actually find your eagerness endearing.

He can’t help but breathe a sigh of relief when Akashi seems uninterested in his and Midorima’s usual form of travel. “Hey, no complaints from me on that front! Although I can’t really picture you riding the train…” Takao peers closer, then lets out a snicker – the image of someone like Akashi sandwiched in a crowded train car is too amusing. “You’re more merciful than Midorima, Akashi-kun – I might wind up falling for you instead.” Perhaps it was his internal sense of competition towards Akashi that had led him to blurt something like that, but he’s quite practiced in pretending like he hasn’t said some of the shit that leaves his mouth. “Yeah, let’s go to the park, it should be nice! We can grab something out of a vending machine, and then, I dunno – you can interview me about whatever you want, and I promise to at least be partially honest!”

“I was pressed for time when we last met up, so using the cart was a tempting offer at the time. I don’t like to think of myself as being put on a pedestal or anything, so I’m interested in experiencing travel the way everyone else has to.” Of course Akashi knew it was probably too late for others to think of him differently, but he knew that changing his image so that people weren’t so wary of him was going to take time. He blinked at Takao’s joke. “Instead? You mean as opposed to someone else, then?” Akashi questioned, giving Takao a long look, before moving on. He was actually quite grateful that Takao was being so friendly towards him, especially considering the way he’d treated Shuutoku’s team in the past. Akashi offered him a gracious smile. “That sounds like fun. You’re free to ask me anything you’d like as well, Takao-kun.”

❝That’s true, the city does change every once in a while. It’s always a little intriguing though, to see how a city develops.❞ Although Kuroko had certainly seen Akashi more in recent times than he had after their parting in middle school, there was always something nice about seeing an old friend, especially after everything all the members had been through. ❝Yes, although they moved across the street to a larger storefront. Business was very good last year.❞

"Before you get your wallet out, please let me take care of this," Akashi insisted, before ordering for the both of them.

❝Ah, Akashi-kun, hello. I don’t have anything planned for the day so we certainly can go to that stand. It’s been a while since you’ve been in Tokyo as well, so there’s other places we can also go to if you would like to walk around as well?❞ It wasn’t often that Kuroko could meet up with Akashi out of all of his former teammates; living in a different providence did tend to make meetings a little more difficult after all.

“Yes, it’s certainly been a while. I like to reacquaint myself with different parts of the area each time I come to visit. There are a lot of local treasures here in Tokyo that can’t be found elsewhere.” Seeing Kuroko alone already made Akashi feel as though he were back in middle school; after all, there had been a large gap between the last time he’d seen Kuroko as himself and the time that he had reawakened. “Is that arcade you liked still in business?”

It’s hard for him to look straight at Akashi when he says something so embarrassing, but he manages it nonetheless; he wants Akashi to know the force of his conviction regardless of his pride. Lamely – and without success – he tries to cover it up by saying anything else. “I, um – are we close? To the restaurant.”

Akashi could tell that Mayuzumi was quickly attempting to change the subject, the tone in his voice somewhat anxious-sounding. It was so cute that Akashi couldn’t help himself, craning his head upwards to kiss Mayuzumi’s lips briefly. “We’ll arrive in just a few moments. In the meantime, you can continue to shower me with affection, can’t you?” Akashi teased, now that the moment had passed a little. He was half-joking, of course, but also... half-serious.

[text: akashi] …I’ll keep that in mind. [text: akashi] Don’t say things like that so easily! You’re making me really miss being with you right now, dammit.

[ text: Chihiro ] Only right now? [ text: Chihiro ] I’m always in such a state when we’re apart. [ text: Chihiro ] I’m just teasing you, of course. Although I do mean the latter part of what I said. [ text: Chihiro ] What would you do if you were? Here besides me, that is.

[text: akashi] Yeah. I like having pictures of you. [text: akashi] Work around it?! That’s an understatement if I’ve ever heard one… [text: akashi] I’m glad you’re short. I’ll never beat you in anything else. Just let me have this one.

[ text: Chihiro ] Likewise. You’re actually quite photogenic when you’re willing to show your face. [ text: Chihiro ] Well, I don’t mind it that you’re taller or anything. Being embraced by you is comfortable because of that.

[text: akashi] I’ll… think about it. [text: akashi] I. Well. Thanks. I don’t know what to say… [text: akashi] I actually agree, though… we should. [text: akashi] You’re also attractive… obviously.

[ text: Chihiro ] I’ll return the favor as much as you’d like, of course. Is that motivation enough for you to send me more? [ text: Chihiro ] Thank you. My mother was quite beautiful... I’m grateful that I can resemble her in a way. [ text: Chihiro ] It’s somewhat unfortunate I’m less gifted in the height department, however. I’ve managed to work around it, at least.