Stephen couldn’t help the sympathetic smile that spread across his face at the sight of Doyle looking so frustrated. There were bigger threats ahead of them now than the Hellstroms and his throne, but he wasn’t sure that he wanted to put that on the younger boy’s plate right now.
He could conjure a memory spell and attempt to restore Doyle’s consciousness, but it was risky and not something he could do alone. And he didn’t have enough memories alone with Doyle yet to share his own mind like he’d done with Clea.Â
It was conflicting, having memories from both Battleworld and their prior reality at battle in his head, and he had to remind himself that this oddly paternal protectiveness he felt for the boy wasn’t real. Not in his reality, at least. And yet he still felt the urge to stand up and pull Doyle into a hug, to try and reassure him that he would be ready when the time came to claim his birthright.Â
Swallowing, he shrugged at Doyle’s response. “I’m gonna go with the honest one, if that’s alright with you. You can always be honest with me.”
looking up at the other, doyle shrugged as well, eyes watery with unshed tears. he wasn’t going to cry in front of strange, no way.
but god was it hard not to.
“i’m not - i don’t –– ” he stuttered, swiping a hand across his face in a feeble attempt to wipe away any stray moisture, snot, whatever. it didn’t matter; he was not crying.
“ - i’m not ready,” he finally admitted, voice small.
why was it all up to him? the weight of the world seemed to be on his shoulders, and doyle was not particularly well versed in being able to handle it. magic was one thing. his skills were quickly growing and improving, he was learning more each and every day.
his confidence, however, was lower than ever.
“what if i can’t do it? what if we’re better off with the hellstroms in charge? i’m not a king, baron, whatever. i’m just some stupid kid, born into a stupid family, stuck in this stupid place –– stupid, stupid, stupid!” he kicked at the table leg in frustration, the chair beside him scooting across the floor a few feet as he stumbled back into it.