Facts about Till that make me sad
He has spent most his life injured and in physical pain
He cries easily including over his abuse
He became covered in scars as a small child
He would try to hide his black eyes with his hair but his bangs were too short
He didn't want others to know about his abuse but everyone in Anakt knew
He would see his abusive guardian quite often while at Anakt
He was injured by the wagyein because Ivan set him up
Ivan's machinations frequently got him punished
He was constantly partially or fully restrained
Whenever he was in solitary confinement, he could only hear his own breathing
His shock collar was more powerful and sophisticated than normal
He was eventually put on a leash and was the only pet seen with one
He was also the only pet with those suspicious green patches on his neck
He has insomnia that only got worse as he got older
He's a light sleeper and wakes at the slightest sound
His room with Urak looks like an observation cage
His room with Urak has a hard floor with no furniture
His clothes didn't fit him at Anakt, his shoes were too tight for R2, and he wore metal shoes for R6
He was so skinny you could see his ribs
Urak would have disposed of him if he hadn't decided Till's exploitation was worthwhile
His passion was turned into exploitation
His resistance was turned into exploitation
He's been sexually assaulted
He's severely traumatized by the medical experimentation too
He loved singing as a baby and it set him up for a life of pain
He was separated from a loving mother only to be adopted by a violently abusive owner even by segyein standards
He would have been violently abused no matter what
Urak's pets always develop mental issues and lose Alien Stage because of Urak's treatment
His defiance had him abused even worse than what Urak already does to his pets
Urak's human editing company serves as a front for black market trafficking
Urak would physically and psychologically torment him
He spent most his life stressed or in distress
Even if he escaped with Ivan during the meteor shower, they would have been caught and brought back
His mood is unstable - either recklessly euphoric or depressed
He is full of fear and has been since he was little
His fight or flight response leans toward fight but he's a weak fighter
He is hyperaware of his abuse and trauma
He tends to focus on and remember the bad memories rather than the good ones
He wanted to be understood but was never able to truly connect with anyone
He is afraid of people leaving him
He never considered he might have to compete against Ivan
He tried to die during R6
He had no way to process or understand Ivan's actions at the time of Ivan's death
Ivan's death was an event he could not handle
He could smell Ivan's blood and dead body when Ivan died
He had to be dragged away from Ivan's corpse
Their relationship wouldn't have ended this way if Ivan had known Till draws him too
He became selectively mute
He hallucinated Ivan silencing and harming him
He would self harm without understanding what he was doing
He experiences his hallucinations in full which means he can feel Ivan's touch and hear Ivan's voice
For years, he only spoke to his hallucination of Ivan
His snapping at his hallucination was the first time he ever complained about his pain
It took him years to realize they were just children living in a horrible environment and none of them were at fault
He wishes he could comfort the Ivan of his childhood
He wishes things could have been different for them
It took him years to speak to living people again
It took him even longer to sing again
Even after rescuing the children, he still feels empty and struggles not to fall apart
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