I really don‘t know

Yesterday I thought hard about taking my own life for about two hours.

parents: my child is completely fine

So, this night I had a fckn strange dream. A (dead) penguin and I talked about what happened to him and I decided to go back in time and save him. So I‘m there, too late and I see how he dies and all the other penguins (there was war between the penguins and some kinda human livings). Turns out I‘m on a completly different planet and since the penguins are dead, the ice is melting and there are growing sunflowers. But it gets better!! Now I‘m not longer alone, there are 3 other people with me. On the planet is a storm so we decide to explore the planet and then go forward in time, to the time I came from. Back to MY FCKN PLANET. Next thing I see is, that we are in a house on a street and a man is talking with us through a window. He goes back to his car and I scream he has to come back to the window because we are TIME TRAVELLERS and he can come with us if he wants. Sure, he doesn‘t believe and we go back in time to the OTHER PLANET but just before we leave (disappear like the Tardis) he grabs my hand and climbs through the window into the house and turns into a women.