I have all of the CPR/Defib scenes that I filmed with my mom saved on a flash drive. I watched all of the videos tonight and I am happy and thankful that my mother allowed me to film a few CPR/Defib scenes with her where I give her CPR and shock her with my fake, play, makeshift paddles. It is because she volunteered to be in my music video without knowing what it was about or what the character who she would be playing was going to be experiencing and she didn’t want to forget about it so she stayed as the star of the music video, thankfully (after she realized the CPR/Defib was not a joke but was the main storyline, she didn’t feel so comfortable doing it anymore, but had already agreed to be in the music video). I had to make a lot of changes to what I had wanted to do. I couldn’t have her in a bra; I couldn’t have her be barefoot; I couldn’t even have her play dead and I could only film two CPR/Defib scenes when I had scripted four CPR/Defib scenes in the music video…and not to mention dropping the extra added music to go along with the music video to tell a longer story which involved at least two more CPR/Defib scenes; do the math, what do ya get? Six CPR/Defib scenes! Oh, and I should mention the fact that the original script for the extra added music that I composed is much darker than anything that I have ever done in my entire life. To be perfectly honest with you…I really want to film that and I still can’t find another actress; so it looks like it’s going to be her in the music film project; it only makes sense; she needs to be in it. My mother began this whole CPR/Defib fetish that I have thanks to that story about my birth that she always told me; although it was done unknowingly, it’s honestly still her that needs to be the woman that I film every single CPR/Defib scene that I have in my mind that I want to bring out into the world so I can actually watch it on TV(and experience it for real with her, or course). I have over 8 different scenes already scripted and written in my notes and my journals. I have more scene ideas in my head. I originally plan on keeping all of the videos that I film with her to myself, privately…but; I kind of want to share or maybe perhaps make some money and build her into a star on my tumblr page; always being found in a different CPR/Defib scene, wearing a different coloured bra every time(sometimes topless if it’s poolside and I have to rescue her out of the water); so I am thinking about…and I found a way to do this…I play the video on my flash drive on my television and I film the video on my television with my phone and then I just upload a small preview of the video on my tumblr page…but part of me really doesn’t want to do that…what little remains of my inner good wolf.
