Film Producer

The Boyz are back in town

I am starting to understand why I can not do the things that I want to do in life. It is making me feel trapped in something that I can not ever escape from because there is no existing exit. I have learned by now that I am the unknowing and unwilling star of a reality television show known as “The Truman Show” or something to that extent. Every person who is involved in my life is nothing more than a paid actor or actress…or extra(there seem to be a lot of those) and no one is allowed to help me find my way off of the show. The producers have trained snipers on the ready in case I attempt to escape from the show. I have contacted multiple actresses to be involved in some of my darker fantasy productions, which I am trying to get into(I have everything written) but it seems as though I am either too soft or too creepy for any actress to go through with acting in my productions. I have stated time and time again about the reason behind my interest in the CPR Defib resuscitation scenes and related films; it is the fault of the story that I was told about my birth(and no I will not type it out again; you can go back and find one of my previous posts about it if you want to read it again). I now understand that the story was told to me a lot of times as a young kid as a way to condition or brainwash me into believing the story wholeheartedly so then I would never question the truth because it would be considered “offensive” to a certain person; but after a music video that I filmed with the actress who portrays my mother on The Truman Show, she revealed to me that the story I had been told so often since I was little was nothing more than lie(because I creeped her out and she had never thought of what the story could cause in my head; which is an obsession with CPR/Defib resuscitation scenes and filming them). She told me that if she knew what that story would eventually cause then she would have created a different story entirely. The whole show is a controlled environment. Unfortunately there is no way out for me unless I do something horrible and criminal(that would allow them to put me away and cancel the show the way that they want to cancel the show). There is a right way to cancel the show, but they will never to that because then they have to pay me money from the revenue that the show made from MY intellectual property and that could lead to me buying a place of my own where I can do things that they would never want me to do. My craziness has already caused the show to lose a great amount of their audience and if they keep losing watchers then they have no reason to keep the show on the air; which can and will lead to cancellation and my liberation from The Truman Show. I believe that this show is absolutely inhumane, and if nothing is being done to the criminals at the top who are not being held accountable for their crimes because of a lack of people not caring, then why would I ever be set free from my reality which is The Truman Show. The truth is that nobody seems to care about anyone or anything except themselves. I would believe that this is a sign of the end of times and the apocalypse, but I do not believe in a higher power anymore and if there is one(and I have found proof) then he is cruel and evil and does not care about anyone on this planet.