Warnings: professor! ellie, student! reader, age gap, reader is in her junior year, ellie is 30, smut if you blink but tribbing, reader is closed off romantically, reader is a horny mess, angsty ending
Genre: angst, fluff, smut
A/n: So I was working on this for a minute, I hope you all enjoy it. I'm in an interesting place with my writing right now and I wanted to write more over the summer and I wanted to try something new with writing in first person because I haven't in a minute so I realllyyyyyy hope y'all enjoy this!! I'm tryna move through these poll fics my god😭
It's not the worst place to be, can casually see a turkey cross the road and go to trendy college events. Could try one of the ritual spots in Newbury Street. Pretend I'm inside every aesthetic early 2000s fall show.
I'm here to study literature because of course I am. So original! I met my roommate over the summer in freshman year, now Dina and I live in a two bedroom, two bathroom apartment. The two of us are peas in a pod…especially after we slept in a fort in the living room for the first six months.
It's September 16th, Wednesday night. The plan was to take this week easy since I just celebrated Rosh Hashanah with Dina, but she decided otherwise. I'm more spiritual than religious but her traditions are important to her so why not celebrate with her.
"We need to do something" she declares as she plays in her hair in front of her vanity. A sign she's trying to say something without saying it.
"No, I'm already drowning in assignments because professors are egotistical, we couldn't wait till October for a million and one projects!" I mutter, flopping onto her bed, snuggling with her comfort stuffed animal.
"That's exactly why you need to get out there, weren't we just talking about balancing peace? We go out tonight and then for the rest of the week we can work our asses off, c'mon" she pleads as she moves to knell at the bedside, a whisper mushed by blankets and pillows, "and I really don't want to think about Jesse tonight…"
They are off right now and she has not been taking it well…
"Okay but I get to pick where we are going" I sigh reluctantly
That's all Dina needed to hear, our blended playlist is cued, the wardrobe is being attacked and I'm tryna figure out how we're gonna coordinate.
We've done this I don't know how many times, take the train, go to legacy and go home maybe stop for some food. However, I can't shake the thrum in my head and the tightening of my throat.
I push it down, the beer helps. The music takes control as my hips sway. My body attracted to the beat of The Party & The After Party like a moth to a flame. Lights pulsing red's and blue's, highlighting the shimmer on my exposed skin. When my gaze shifts around the room until they land on those green eyes.
She's been watching me for a minute, it shows in her posture and how she lazily holds her beer while softly biting her bottom lip. Tipsy and lustfully I curl my fingers in a "come here" motion
As she makes her way Dina leaves my side, successfully reading the vibe I'm creating
Her warm hand finds my hip as her pelvis meets mine. Her carabiner presses into the left side of me. Those soft lips press to my ear as she whispers her name in the dark.
God I can't wait to scream it
Her questions are short, good enough for the moment, nothing we really want to talk about. I think she was asking about why I'm here or something nice like that but I cut her off with a testing soft kiss, I feel her lips quirk against mine. Ellie's hands leave my hips and cup my face pulling me into a deeper kiss.
Teeth clash, tongues meet and laughs are sucked in. She taste like beer, mint and Marlboro Red's. My nails grip into her shirt, trail down her waist and I pull her impossibly closer by her side belt loop. She lets out the cutest startled sound.
I pull away first, my nose brushing hers. "I should get back to my friend" I whisper creating more space.
"Not before I get your number" she says as she hands me her phone. I put it in her phone and she pockets it, "have a good night sweetheart" she mummers before pressing a brief kiss to my knuckles.
Dina's arm's immediately wrap around me, "she was hot, like really fucking hot"
I turn in her grip to face her. "I know and she is such a great kisser, the universe was on my side tonight! Anyways anything happen to you while I was living it up?"
My face moves, I have no idea what expression I showed but it makes Dina spiral. They always do this, I don't know why I try with either of them at this point!
By the time I put Dina to sleep, well she's pretending to sleep because she's texting Jesse, I jump into my duvet. I dream of her lips, the way her freckles dust her cheeks, that woodsy cologne that made my clit throb.
Two long weeks pass. I text her in-between classes, when I'm supposed to be studying and we call when we should be sleeping.
"Dina, help me! How do I even respond to this?" I say as I charge into her room
"Sext her dumbass" she says as she props herself up
I scoff, "that's too early"
"You met her then stuck your tongue down her throat babe…"
"Blah blah blah" I say with a flick of my wrist as I re-read the text, "I should've never said that, she has to drop off the food!"
"Then get cute, but in an 'oh I was just lounging in this but my ass looks great and my hair is perfect' way"
I change maybe five times before the counsel (Dina and Jesse via facetime) and I settle on a look. All for her to show up an hour later, look me up and down, give me my food and leave!
Saturday started out in a frenzy of hygiene, panic and perfume. Each step makes my stomach flutter, I don't do relationships. Not that this is one but I know she's older and she's probably looking for that. Is this casual? Should I make it casual?
My thoughts buffer when I see her waiting…she brought me flowers.
"Thought you'd like 'em" she says softly as she hands them to me.
"They're lovely, thank you els"
"Course baby" she says as she takes my hand.
Of course she can sing! She did so good and I sounded like a kicked puppy. Ellie doesn't make me feel bad about it though, her praise washes over me like a warm embrace.
Then we're up there, bumping hips, cracking small smiles as we sing Dreams by Fleetwood Mac together. I let her voice carry, partly because I want to zone in on her. Like how her mouth moves or how she drops eye contact when I look at her too long.
The last melody fades away and she walks me home, hand in hand.
When we reach my door, I squeeze her hand once then twice and she brings them to her lips for the softest press.
"Tonight was fun, I needed that" she says softly as she walks into my space, left hand trailing up my arm.
"Oh, I do what I can for the elderly"
"You're 30" I say as I unlock my door, "Dina's not here if you want to come in?"
She freezes for a minute before entering, I wave her in, tell her where to take off her shoes. I take note of her astronaut socks.
Ellie presses her face into the crook of my neck as I pot the flowers. I try my best to stay still, her calloused fingers are roaming and her teeth are nipping.
She makes me face her, "is this okay?"
Shakily I nod before my lips find hers. That dangerous combination fills my senses. Her tongue pushes against mine. Without breaking the kiss we move towards my room, she's taking in the environment when she pushes me on the bed.
A question was making it's way out of her mouth when I cut her off, my leg pulling her closer and whispering "Ellie fuck me"
"Eager huh?" she taunts as she strips bare
I reach out and caress her abs, fingers tautly rising to graze her breast then I rest it on her heart. She helps me out my clothes, the air shifts as she takes me in.
Her fingers lace with mine as her clit nudges against my opening.
"You okay?" she whispers as she slowly moves her hips to rock our heats together. I nod, and squeeze her hand.
This isn't how I'd imagine it going. I'm use to a quick fuck and goodbye, and I prefer it that way. At least I use to? She's just…different. Hasn't done anything spectacular just different. Looks at me different, brings me gifts differently, grinds against me different.
Immediately she stops, cradles my face, "what's wrong sweetheart? Did I rush you or?"
"No god, no…you just feel really good" I say as a wave of overstimulation beats on my chest
Ellie pulls herself off of me, puts my panties back on me and the floodgates open.
"You have to talk to me" she whispers, her fingers resting on my hips
"I think I like you" I say with a wet laugh, wiping my face, "that's a stupid thing to cry about I just don't typically like people. It's not my thing."
"Me neither" she says in a steady voice, "so how about we get some sleep or at least try to?" Her gaze is so awkward, she cares. It's so obvious but I haven't realized how nervous she's been.
"Let's cuddle naked, I swear I'm not being a pervert I just think some skin to skin would be nice?"
Ellie looks me over make three times, I guess checking in if I really calmed down before she got back on the bed.
We argue over it but I get big spoon!
My breast press into her back as my leg lays over hers, intertwined fingers pressed against her chest.
The night was peaceful, however the morning wasn't.
Dina was out with Nora last night and typically would've come back hours from now.
"Rise and shine-" Nora says as she opens my room door, clothes everywhere, messy blankets covering Ellie and I.
We both pop up, before I could say anything to the two of them, Nora calls Ellie, professor Williams. My head snaps to the side. "Professor Williams?"
She looks at me, "I'm a teacher, I teach philosophy at Harvard"
"You teach at my school?"
"You go to Harvard? Since when, I never see you on campus?"
"Well I skip class a lot but I told you I'm a college student!" I say as I sit up, she argues "I told you I was a teacher!"
"I didn't believe you, since when are professor's 30?"
"Dude that's so normal!"
"I didn't really think about it!" I huff as I rub my face, Dina clears her throat and says they're gonna leave.
"Look I'm sorry I have to go" Ellie says as she struggles to get dressed.
"Wait you don't-" she cuts me off with a raise of her hand as I wrap the blanket around me ready to follow her.
"I actually really have to, sure you aren't my student but you attend where I teach and I won't let either of us get in trouble" she states barely looking at me as she moves into the hallway to get her shoes. The blanket snagging on my feet as shuffle behind her.
"Ellie stop for a second" I say as she turns to me, "yeah it looks bad but we just said we like each other, I mean we're building something right?"
Quickly almost like she wasn't trying to think about it, she kisses me. Despite the speed it's soft, mournful. "Forget about me okay?"
And just like that, she left.
Left me leaning out my door calling her name.
A/n: making the text are so fun I hope everyone enjoyed them…y’all idk why I’m so nervous 😟
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