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recently found a cologne that I could settle down with however it seems to be two hundred and twenty five fucking dollars a bottle. so lmk where yall get your dupes from

I’m feeling pretty alright lately. having a good, solid, fun few days to step out of my life got me lofty and grounded at the same time, I’m feeling a little less rooted in waltham now that i’ve had a little taste of “the life i’ve always wanted.” it reminded me that I can make a place for myself wherever I go. gotta remember that always. I’ve had a little crush on a guy in the band for a little while now and after hanging out with him last weekend I’m thinking about pursuing it… there are many roadblocks. which is a good thing I think, because now I can focus on taking this day by day instead of feeling cagey or future tripping. I don’t even know if he’s queer but i’ve decided that’s not going to be a factor in who I ask out, I think it’s more fun to have that little added variable and it weirdly feels like a lower-pressure pretense. I can also say I’m not afraid of rejection but I am afraid of messing up a good thing. but I do believe it’s only weird if you make it weird, and lately I’ve been defaulting to confidence without even realizing it, so a shot in the dark might be the perfect pop quiz on everything i’ve worked on this past year. there is also the very spooky possibility that he’s interested, and that would be worth much more than a pop quiz. that would mean the first real life opportunity to date in a healthy way. after only a few months of consistently working out i’m finding myself amazed at the things my body can do and how my body can feel. obviously the way that it looks has been the most apparent, but I hadn’t even thought about how my basic functionality could change. I wonder how much my heart has learned while I wasn’t looking?

I do hope that mitch mcconnell is fully conscious but unable to alert anybody and also that he’s experiencing the most severe amount of pain terror and anguish that a person can feel