Dog Moms, Inc.

Nothing worked out like it was supposed to kissing you was so nice but I'm not even sure that i want something to happen in the future with you because you really just fucked that all up. You had to be messy about it and I had to like you more than you liked me and it just had to go badly didn't it? I guess in a way it's good because I would just spend the next several months getting my hopes up and then being disappointed when i got back. At least this way I know what I'm in for. Maybe things will change in the future, but for now I have to brush it off and move on because I cant keep getting invested in people who don't care about me.

I fall asleep thinking about laughing with you, holding your hand, lying naked in bed with you, watching movies, playing guitar, and it's all so dumb but i kinda think it would be nice to do it with you and i hope that in a month or so when you're ready, you think it would be nice to do that stuff with me too

It was a really shitty thing you did. I know I wasn't always the best or most reliable friend, but I would have done anything for you. I wanted to come on that trip with you but I didnt want to pass up my only vacation opportunity. Then my grandma died and I had no choice. You wouldn't let me say goodbye because you wanted to be alone and any other time i would have honored that no problem, but I couldnt come the next day because hanging out with you conflicted with my grandma's funeral. Im not saying I was perfect, but I guess the thing that hurts the most is that you never made an effort again. You never apologized, never checked on me, never checked on iz, never even reached out. Did you think i was being immature? I dont know but i miss you.

I know i'm needy but please just communicate. It feels like I put everything into this friendship and I only get 50% back. You only talk to me consistently when you need me, then you forget about me. You get annoyed when I text you to remind you we were having a conversation and act like I'm not being the most supportive friend I can be and I don't know how to exactly articulate what I'm feeling without you making it about you. If I tell you I'm not feeling satisfied by our friendship then you'll launch into this whole thing about how you're sick and I know!!! But i dont expect you to be your old self. I know you can't be. I just need you to also asses your actions and how they affect me. If you can't text, tell me. If you aren't going to be able to facetime, instead of telling me you will and then never doing it, just tell me you can't! I understand you're sad and busy i just need you to talk to me. Ask me how i'm doing. Respond to my texts. Just give an ounce of effort.

Ok i unloaded and i feel better but not good and i just keep thinking about how i'll never be able to end my own life now that i've see the aftermath and i've seen how it affects people. And that scares me and makes me mad and sad and I'm still terrified that my best friend is going to die and i don't know how to express that without alienating her because i need her and i don't want her to hate me

This is a cry for help!!! I need someone!! My heart is eating me from the inside out!! My best friend is self medicating and being increasingly more reckless!!! I'm terrified that she's going to die!!! If she did I would probably stop functioning!!! I can't tell anyone about my problems bc she is who i talk to and i don't wanna be a burden!!!

This is honestly the worst thing that has ever happened she was just a baby she was a freshman she didn't even know all the good things life had to offer her

One of my best friends' little sister just killed herself and i'm so. I can't properly form thoughts i'm so sad and i don't know what to do