Girl with a Broken Smile

Relapse.

Few times a day.

One day, you'll regret losing me.

One day, you'll regret leaving me.

One day, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

Once upon a time..

Even before you say anything..

Waiting is tiring. Manage ekspekstasi sih sudah, di level terendah. Memang masih ada, bukan tidak ada sama sekali, namanya manusia..

Ternyata masih kecewa juga.

Happy Birthday Umi Setyaningsih !!

Time freeze at your 38th, when it was 2016, 10 years ago. Today should be your 48th, if you're still alive. I wish your next life will be full of wealth, abudance, and happiness. You'll be free from the worldly burden.

LOVE YOU!!

11 Januari 1978 - 4 Maret 2016

*This should be posted yesterday, 11 Januari 2026.

Hey, it's year 2026 and I'm still alive.

Today is January 4th, 2026. Just woke up from my slumbering. I slept from December 31st, 2025 and I was like zombieing for the past few days. Not checking my phone much, not interacting much. What I did basically: sleep, eat, playing games, dracin, sleep. Repeat.

Oh, I never thought I will visit this page again. Maybe after this, I can visit my other page and writing something longer than this. Gonna double post this article into my Tumblr and Blogspot.

I missed writing my feeling and my thought down into something that I can read it again somewhere in the future. Learning how to write things coherently (?), since a lot of words are disappeared from my brain. Really, it feels sucks. The words just on the tip of the tongue but i can make it out.

What actually happened is: too much things happened at a short time and I'm overwhelmed. I am tired and dissapointed. I cannot regulate my own emotion. I'm having a meltdown. And I don't want to face anything or anyone at the moment.