Lemons and Lemonades

With a gut of a chin, he sat on his stead With downcast eyes, I sat on mine His fingers snapped and wealth appears But when I snap, the cold awaits me at night Perfect hair and well manicured hands Better wrap my hair in a bun For labors await my day Mother won't have it any other way

If a dozen roses will make you come back, I'll buy a dozen more to make you stay 🌹🌹.

You want me to explain myself? Nah, I don't have to. You already made your conclusion. I'll leave you to that. Thank you so much for thinking so highly of me!

Is it always gonna be like this?

Four sides and four corners Three sides of concrete walls One side made of steel bars A mug to break the silence To silence the voices in my head Or not For they never cease Relentless, They never stop Enclosed in these empty spaces Its presence haunting me So I fill it with voices I fill it with colors Images of me and my freedom In contrast to these gray world Four sides and four corners If I were placed inside How different can it actually be?

Is it weird to feel awful after I've opened up to someone? Because I feel like my privacy has been violated. Like he doesn't deserve to know that about my life. About me. But I slipped! I fricking slipped. He asked questions and I had my guard down. I'm screaming on the inside. I regretted opening my mouth. But once it was out, there was no going back. Awful doesn't even begin to describe what I feel. I'm frustrated with myself. I feel exposed. Someone has judged me with my past and I don't even fully trust the guy. I want to seal up my doors. I'm panicking!

Can I just say Once Upon a Time is a masterpiece! I'm so glad I found this series.

And then she hides Too afraid of the light, Too afraid of their laughs Cowering from their eyes Bounded to think less of herself “It ain’t good enough,” she says And it never is And it never will be For she refuses to believe it is, And the world is convinced