Just Me :)

I am leaving home for college after diwali break and it is like hitting me rn like this is it back and forth now i dont live here i ‘visit’ my town my bedroom, my parents i visit them this is so insane to me like FUCK! This is where i ate, laughed, enjoyed and learned everything, my parents whom i used to fight with and see everyday i will crave their presence the sense of security i had everything….

This pisses me off

I just wanna run away. From this town to a big city maybe mumbai. Where there is loudness. So much loudness that my voices in my brain are not heard of again. Have a small flat with a view of the city. Dreaming is mankind’s biggest win

I hate this. I had a little fight w/ my dad and we have been on non talking terms. Not the first time. But this time My aunts are calling me telling me to forgive my dad. My mom is saying that i am ruined her vacation (My dadi is visiting her other children so she calls this a vacation we are in the house.) it sucks. That everything you do ruins your parent’s life. I cant be angry at him cause he is financing everything. Can’t earn right now cause i am not responsible enough. I have to be trauma dump for my mother. Well because she brought me in this world. God I wish she hadn’t

I cried so much today that my undereyes are all scratched up. Now my tears are hurting me as they fall tf!?

2024 is ending. I learned a lot and if i look back i would not change anything. I am who i am because of my choices and will live them. Hopefully though 2025 would be much better. I will make dad proud and happy. I will get slimmer just like my mom wishes.

Ishan Kishan is with SRH now ig i am too👅😛