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Im going to kill my self if no body want me and look at me with true romantical passion and slow burn and slow kissing. Besides that its been chill in providence like the Zoloft is working but like oh my god please who want me. I think my school thinks I am evil too but it’s chill i just wanna make love and it will be slow and yearnful.

God I feel like such a monster. But I know it is just the chemicals in there telling me to feel that way and until someone gives me feedback, someone as in people I trust and know are amazing people until they say something than I am just going to try to keep the feelings down down down dont let them get in the way of having fun paytonnnn or or dont let that get in the way of gracefully existing in like studio like everyday can be carefree and u dont have to feel like a monster come on yes yes

Okay instead of killing myself tonight since it wont happen tonight should I pick up ketamine i think im gonna pick up ketamine yessss I cant keep thinking about dying ketamine pleaseeee

Who else up chopping it up with themselve. Tumblrs the place to say it right right someone kill me for me

Who else is so fucking suicidal rn. Someone or something smite me. Please

Who else STAYS only showering and bathing for dick appointment. No dick appointment no shower. So this is like a once to twice a week ordeal

Should i just hook up with my dealer atp its looking bad

Why is New England so suicide inducing why do I want to die all the time in New England why is it either suicide or being irrational and both make u suicidal oh my god why am I so suicidal in providence and feel so crazy oh my god is this just in providence oh my god

Okay trying to be patient bc I will die but I want to die

Idk u sounded very cold in those texts. Oh yeah did a SHIVER run through ur loose butthole out the other end. I hope the image of Santa’s elves butt naked locked outside the workshop pleading Santa please we’re sorry we’ll go back to work and hes like no ur bodies are mine and continues to tomato his elves and the tomatoes freeze instantly mid air before knocking his nude elves out clean at the North Pole come to mind i hope that was the image nerd. EAT MY ASHES STEAMING FROM NITROGEN GAS

Why is caseoh so fine it hurts idk what to do why is he so fine it rlly hurts