Wunderluxe

I called your name once. You didn’t look up, no reply.

Thinking you must’ve not heard me, I stepped up closer to you and called again. You still didn’t respond. Not even to look up.

“Ah… I see”

Why did I think I’d be worthy of your time and attention in public? So much for “if we see each other, let’s acknowledge each other”.

I need not be bothered nor follow a bunch of strangers’ entanglement.

Let things be.

Choose to ignore, choose to let go.

Feels ironic, but there was always a 1/7 chance anyway.

It’s been 6 weeks exactly, and every Tuesday night, it still aches - sometimes a dull ache, sometimes a panic attack. Tonight was the latter.

My heart is feeling a mixture of hurt and numbness. I know there’s relief to be had at the end, but omg what is this current feeling? How can it feel so empty yet painful.

It’s said third time’s a charm. But with knowing what I know now, this is gonna hurt three times fold.