who knows?

What this blog is: a place for me to post about my experiences with therapy, DID, and other mental illness, my opinions on certain things (sometimes related to DID, sometimes not), some (sourced) educational posts I find interesting or helpful, and occasionally my other interests or posts I think other parts would like to see

What this blog is NOT: a professional resource. While I do sometimes make educational posts, they will always be linked back to the book or website I got the information from. I myself am not an expert on DID or any other mental illness, but I do read a lot and think sharing research here can help people who aren’t sure where to look. Please feel free to ask me for resources and I will be happy to try and help you find them!

PLEASE DNI if you are a NSFW blog, a cg/l blog, an anti recovery (pro-Ed/self harm etc) blog, an anti psychology blog, a traumacore blog, or use terms like “sysmed”, “traumascum”, etc.

Also I am an adult, so I would also appreciate if minors didn’t interact with me without stating that they are a minor. I just want everyone to be as safe as possible.

Ask boundaries would be:

-please no trauma dumping. I am sorry if you’re hurting but talk to a professional, not another traumatized person who’s triggers you have no ideas about. This includes if you want/need a trigger tagged. I don’t need to know the reason why it triggers you, it’s perfectly okay to ask me to tag anything, I won’t judge it. But I do not consent to hearing about others’ trauma

-Along with that, don’t ask for details of my own trauma. I do occasionally post vague bits of what happened to me but I don’t want questions about it randomly.

-I cannot tell you if you have DID or another disorder, I’m just a random stranger on the internet who’s figuring out their own shit, so please speak with a professional ASAP if you have concerns. I will however be happy to try to direct you to proper resources if I can

- I am okay with answering questions about my experiences with diagnosis, treatment, and discovering myself/my parts. I am happy to talk about myself or other parts, aside from trauma related questions

Notes: I use “parts language”, I do not use or like “alter roles” (if they help you, that’s wonderful. But pls don’t use them to refer to me or other parts), I do not want to be involved in “inclusive plural communities” (I do believe systems outside of DID/OSDD can exist, I just do not believe we’re experiencing the same thing and therefore should not be lumped together). If any of this makes you uncomfortable, feel free to unfollow or block me but please do not tell me how to speak on my own blog*

*if I post something misinformed (as in, not based on fact and unsourced! I don’t mean something that goes against your opinion) or in the wrong tags, feel free to correct me

- books left out in the rain because outside your home was the only safe place to be but you have to hurry to get inside when called

- books dropped into bathtubs because you are too jumpy when you hear noises

-reading the same book/series over and over again as a distraction from real life

-8 year old dressed in all black reading adult horror stories in class until they get yelled at to pay attention

-10 year old browsing the used bookstore for literal hours because nobody is around to take you home

-exchanging old books for new books and then old books again because you have no money but you do have store credit

-only happy memory as a very young kid being the visit you took with your mother to the library before she stopped loving you and paying attention to you

Some of the younger ones just want affection but not the kind any of us can give them and that just makes things harder. I will never be good enough to really take care of them. None of us will. They want a mom and dad who care about them and take care of them the way a mom and dad are supposed to and I can’t give them that.