DiscoverinGenius

In the coming year I will be posting more of my own content here.

I love writing and I enjoy taking pictures, so more of that to come!

There’s something that happens to people in life where afterwards they are not the same people. They look the same and sound the same but they are so so different.

I look in the mirror and I recognize myself, but I look at the conscious being in my body and I don’t recognize it. Have I always been this crazy? Have I always been such a coward? Did I always make excuses for myself? When did I become so mean and harsh on others? What actually happened to me?

It’s a transformation that I do not wish upon the enemy. I cannot tell if I’ve simply learned all these new things about myself that have always been there but I ignored or if these odd traits appeared post trauma? Either way it would mean that what ever I am today has always been a part of me. A change in circumstance elicited these poor qualities to surface, thus there is hope for a reversal.

I know that I do not wish to be the person I am today. I know that I want to be my better self. But how do I move forward? How do I not become a monstrous adult that everyone eventually succumbs to? 

I've graduated college, traveled to my homeland for the first time in seven years, hugged my favorite grandma, broke up with someone, made it a quarter way through my first job, traveled to Spain, fell madly in love, rented my first apartment, got diagnosed with a heart problem, met the best people you'll ever meet, and the worst, got cured from the heart problem, continued to stay madly in love, and after all this the only thing keeping me sane is twirling like a ballerina in the middle of the kitchen and making my right ladybug slipper talk to the left one.

Life hits you like a big yellow school bus as you're crossing the street on a green light.