discombobulate

my blog exists for when im bored and unwell, which is always.

$tyros arent enough. i need to go deeper.

fuck. im such a fucking useless bitch ass prick oh my fucking god i cant do this anymore i want to die i want to die i want to die nd rot nd let the worms eat into my skull 6ft under the ground i have to die im going to im going to km$ soon i will i will i hate myself i hate my life i wish i was dead i wish i wish i was dead i cant wait to die i hate myself useless fuckup failure dumb prick im gna die alone im gna die i want to slît my n€ck øpen so bad.

i fucking hate myself. i HATE myself. im a failure. im selfish. im so incredibly awful. im an awful person. im a horrible partner. ive ruined everything. i fuck everything up. im such a fuck up. i cant do this anymore. im genuinely such a horrible person. im so sorry. im so so fucking sorry.

counting down the days.

whenever i think of my future its distorted with the idea of my life being ended by my own hands. i don’t even feel phased by that. im not making it to my next birthday..

all i want is to go deeper. the pain is keeping me sane. poetic i know. didnt even hit a week clean and im relapsing. im still hot guys..right?

im on holiday and i have the urge to c^t but i have no bladę UGHHHH i want the bloød i want the pain. maybe some car will run me over!