XO.

I’ve been away from here for a while. In fact it has almost been there years. Last time I was on here I think I was preparing to start my first year at university and now I have approximately four months left of study. It’s incredibly safe to say a lot has changed.

Last time I was on here I loved education, I could not wait to further myself and improve and gain an impressive qualification which would allow me to get a better job. Now, I hate education and I can not wait to leave. I highly doubt I will be leaving with a good grade and I regret many choices I have made. 

Last time I was on here, I was seeing a boy who was very much a head fuck and fucked me around a lot, never wanting to fully commit or tell anyone about us but always wanting me to go round to his after a night out. Now I’m in a relationship with a man who is fully committed and talks about the future and what he can imagine our children being like and what our wedding will be like and can not wait for the next opportunity to show me off and introduce me to his friends.

Last time I was on here, my sister had started her second year at university studying to be a paramedic whilst living with her boyfriend (and his parents) 150 miles away from me. Now, she’s still yet to complete her degree at university but has a flat with her fiancé, my niece and has another bundle of joy on the way.

Last time I was on here, my Dad wasn't half as ill as he is now. I never imagined he would ever get to the state that he’s in now. 

Last time I was on here, my Grandma and Grandad were both healthy and well. Now, they’re in a happier place with each other after having both passed away after losing the battle with cancer within 14 months of one another. They both fought gracefully might I add.