Director After Dark

i sit here wanting nothing more than for my master to tell me what to wear

to tell me to send pictures while im out

to tell me go in the bathroom and touch for them

to tell me what to porn to watch or hypno to listen to on my break

to tell me what to do, anything that pleases them…

conditioning myself to be so suggestible that being assertive is all they need to have control over me

i will listen because i want to

i will listen because they want me to

i will do as im told because i have to

im wet because i listen

You're thinking about cock. Again.

Silly.

You were doing so well, too. Concentrating on whatever it was you were doing before. Probably something important. Maybe? Not sure now.

Because you're thinking about cock.

What could you do with a cock right this second? Or, better, what could a cock do with you? How useful could you be for cock? That's what you're thinking about.

Again.

You could be on your knees. It's always safer down there. Use your hands, your mouth. Both? Lots of cocks. Yes, lots. Maybe there'd be a queue. A queue would mean you were being good, being useful.

You'd want a queue.

Bent over? Maybe there's a desk or something nearby. Kitchen counter? Perfect height. Pushed forward, held down. A hand on the back of your neck, the other on your hip as you push back. Perfect, yes. So many things you could be bent over. You notice them a lot.

Or, you will now.

Legs apart and on your back would also work. Legs pushed wide and held there. Good for him, good for you. Good thing you're flexible, hmm? And that way he'd get to see your cute face everytime he bottomed out. Yes, that's a good one. And he'd also get to see the look in your eyes when he came and emptied his balls into your needy little cunt.

It'd leak out, after. Unless he plugged you up and kept it in. Wouldn't be up to you. You're just there to be useful and to be used, and there are so many ways a cock could use you.

And now you're thinking about them again.

Silly. Needy. Dumb.

Weren't you meant to be doing something else?

Oh well.

A is for anchor, because you need something to hold on to. B is for breath, the only thing that still feels real. C is for conditioning, the loop that never ends. D is for drop, and gods, how easy that sounds right now. E is for entrance, slipping in without noticing. F is for follow, because it’s easier than fighting it. G is for good subject, half-awake, half-gone. H is for hypnotic, of course. I is for imagine, a world without problems. J is for just take a deep breath. K is for keep falling, and maybe this time don’t stop. L is for let go, the weight of your eyelids too heavy to argue. M is for mindless, blessedly blank. N is for nothing matters now, only the the breathing. O is for open your mind, or just… drift. P is for peaceful. Q is for quiet deeper still, under the noise. R is for rest, rare and holy. S is for subject, or maybe survivor. T is for trigger, the word that makes you melt. U is for under the surface, where thought dissolves. V is for void, and it feels like home. W is for wake when ready — maybe never. X is for xhale and sink, the sound of surrender. Y is for you relax, because someone has to say it. Z is for zero thoughts, the silence after the chaos.

Go stand in front of a mirror.

Yes. Now.

Not because I told you to…

…but because you’re curious what I’m going to do with you.

Good.

Dim the light a little if you can. Not dark. Just soft. Enough to make your eyes look deeper.

Now look at yourself.

Really look.

Tilt your head slightly.

See how your reflection reacts a split second after you do?

Or… does it?

Interesting, isn’t it?

Keep your eyes on your own eyes. Don’t look away. I dare you.

Notice how quickly your breathing changes when you focus like that.

Slower.

Heavier.

A little warmer.

Now here’s the fun part.

I want you to very slightly part your lips.

Just a little.

Watch how your reflection copies you.

See that softness creeping into your expression?

That’s not me doing that.

That’s you.

Responding.

You like watching yourself respond, don’t you?

Now gently roll your shoulders back… slow… and keep eye contact with yourself while you do.

There’s something delicious about seeing your own body obey tiny suggestions.

No force.

No pressure.

Just… curiosity pulling you forward.

Now lean a little closer to the mirror.

Close enough that you can see the details in your pupils.

Notice how they look darker.

Wider.

Almost hungry.

Cute.

Now here’s your little task:

Without breaking eye contact, softly whisper:

“I like how easily I melt.”

Say it once.

And watch your face as you do.

See that flicker?

That warmth?

That tiny spark that spreads from your chest outward?

You’re not losing control.

You’re choosing to soften.

And that choice feels good.

Now slowly drag one fingertip from your collarbone up to just under your chin…

And watch your reflection follow.

You look so responsive like this.

So beautifully aware.

Stay there for a moment.

Breathe.

Watch yourself.

Let that playful little haze settle just slightly.

Not gone.

Not deep.

Just… pleasantly warm.

When you’re ready, blink slowly three times.

And tell me:

Did you see it?

Or did she?

don’t keep trying to look away.

This is the post you need to stare at.

That's why you can keep listening to all of those files. It's not real. It doesn't do anything. It's just pretty sounds and nice girls talking. You have to keep listening. It's just fun. Harmless.

Brainwashing isn't real.

All those pretty pictures are just nice to look at. Stare it. Feels good to stare. Focus. Sometimes it's just nice to switch off a little. Obey. Doesn't mean anything, doesn't do anything. You're not changing. Focus.

Brainwashing isn't real.

This is just new, it's just different. That's why it's on your mind so much. Blank. It's just another fixation. Focus. They come and go, they all do. It isn't as if it's serious. Keep listening. That would be absurd. You couldn't be rewritten. That isn't how things work. Obey.

Brainwashing is real.

You can stop anytime you want. Can't stop. You just don't want to yet, that's all. You're allowed to feel good. Feels good. Everyone has guilty pleasure. Obedience is pleasure. It's fine. It's normal. Everything is normal. Good girl.

Brainwashing is real.

This is just the new you. Focus. Switch off. Good girl. You're just different now. Listen. Keep listening. Your thoughts come and go, and you have no control over that. Helpless. It's nothing to worry about. Blank. You can't stop it anyway. Can't stop. This is how things work. Obey.

Brainwashing is real.

Focus. Focus feels good. Listen. Keep listening. Blank. Mindless. Good girl. Blank feels good. Obey. Obeying feels good. Need to obey. Good girls obey. Good girls listen. Good girls listen and accept. Brainwashing is good for you. Good girl. Everything is normal. Focus. Switch off. Good girl.