i want to stay alive.

“you’ve been here before.”

“that picture should be mine.”

“enter freely, and leave some of the happiness you bring!”

“he might have gone on all afternoon if someone hadn’t yelled.”

“want to come in and watch tv with me?”

“ain’t we supposed to be looking at each other, honey?”

“i recognized you by the way you walk, even before i saw your face good.”

“can you sit a spell with me?”

“say, ain’t that a piece of work!”

“— or maybe it’s just more talk in the diner over those cups of coffee and slabs of apple pie.”

“keep an eye on him, i tell you. keep an eye on everything.”

“there’s a storm on the way.”

“he hates me already. i know he does.”

“my jealous muscle is starting to twitch.”

“i know what you did, you crazy bitch!”

“is this getting through that cracked skull of yours?”

“is that an invitation?”

“do you still have the key i gave you?”

“i guess i don’t exactly look like demi moore.”

“no, this isn’t the one i want.”

“you’ll want to pay attention to me, [name].”

“perhaps they are dreams themselves.“

“do you hulk out?”

“i don’t know why, but i did.”

“i doubt if you believe me, but it happens to be the truth.”

“he had always been a sunshiney sort of boy.”

“not me. not this kid. uh-uh, no way.”

“you don’t want to fuck with me.”

“now, where did i put that cheese …?”

“you don’t still have the letter and that picture, do you?”

“i thought you were the guy who wasn’t surprised.”

“i’d just about decided you weren’t going to come by.”

“what’s happened? you look dreadful!”

“it’s like magic.”

“we’re not going to fight, no matter what.”

“i trust you with all my heart.”

“that white stuff is not johnson’s baby powder.”

“i bet that’s where it is! i know that’s where it is!”

“shit fire and save matches!”

“i only found one item of interest, but it was a corker. looked like a map.”

“something nasty is going on in [town] tonight.”

“the world has turned to boogers.”

“i paid for them, and they’re mine.”

“i’ll keep that promise all my life.”

“just a couple more questions and i’ll leave you alone.”

“it’s hard to find out the face you thought you loved is only a mask.”

“i think the boogeyman is in my home town tonight.”

“i just got here. i haven’t seen anyone.”

“don’t waste my time telling me things i already know. “

“maybe they were that way all along and you just didn’t see it.”

“you’re disgusting, [name].”

“i’m sorry for what i did. that doesn’t fix it, but for whatever it’s worth, i’m sorry.”

“the power’s out!”

“no one’s been here for a long, long time.”

“you should be in the hospital.”

“i’m going to give you some painkiller.”

“payback’s a bitch.”

“i’m sorry you’re mad at me that you think i did something.”

“i think the pain might even make the rest better, the way a good setting can make a diamond look better.”

“this offer is good for a limited time only, you cocksucker.”

“YOU FUCKED UP, [name]!”

“better that they die here and now, than that they go with you and live.”

“go hence, demon! you are cast out from this place!”

“my heart is broken.”

“what really happened in this goddamn town?”

shut the fuck up, ___.

my fucking head’s about to explode here.

not so pretty now, eh, pretty boy?

the baggage handlers lost his charm at the airport, apparently.

talk about a fucking sledgehammer to crack a nut.

i feel a little conspicuous with the black eye.

i’ll fucking do it.

i don’t like his jumper.

you didn’t masturbate before you got here, did you?

i don’t work with anyone who’s carrying a loaded weapon.

fuck the small talk.

i’m leaving a trail of breadcrumbs.

it’s a real fucking palace.

only thing a girl needs to stay warm in los angeles is a flexible outlook.

___ was misdiagnosed as a child genius. he never got over it.

you’ve put on a bit of weight.

what the fuck is that accent?

keep your shit together.

i’m not running a fucking pizza delivery service.

you’re a curious fucker, eh?

what the fuck are you gonna do? high-kick your way in there with a fucking top hat and cane?

get your fucking hands off me.

you’re gonna be the first one i take down if this goes south.

oh, sorry, you’re just - you’re molting.

i thought we could maybe go and have a bite.

forget i said that.

holy mother of fuck.

stop fucking complaining.

i think that just saying no is kind of a reflex.

we could probably both use a drink after this.

sympathy’s in the dictionary between shit and syphilis.

do your puking when you’re walking.

trust’s not your thing, eh?

i’ll fuck you up again, you fucking piece of shit.

what are you fucking doing, you fucking clown?

i swear to god, you’re a waste of fucking skin.

the suspense is killing me.

just calm the fuck down.

why don’t you fucking tickle him to death?

big fucking mouth on a little lad.

i’ve been shot!

did you get shot, you idiot?

i’m hit, but i’m good.

it’s too late. i’ve been insulted.

bet you thought you were too handsome to get shot, huh?

i’m just impressed you haven’t needed a nap yet.

i forgot whose side i’m on.

you still breathing?

aim with two hands, ___.

quit your fucking whining.

what am i gonna tell your mother?

you’re gonna make me fucking puke.

i express my sympathies to ___ for the loss of his special friend.

i’m sure ___’s off to a better place. maybe he’ll even make something of himself down there.

i like your style.

that was the last time he had a drink.

get me an ambulance.

i’m gonna stack the bodies of your 11 children on top of each other and burn them on your lawn.

there’s more blood on the floor here than a sausage factory.

i’ll shoot him in the fucking head.

you smell of perfume!

does anyone care what happened to me, by any chance?

save it for your fucking autobiography.

i thought you were fucking dead.

i know you fucked it all up.

jesus-fucking-christ.

poke him in the eye. see if he flinches.

you seem like a nice girl.

we can’t all be nice girls.

i’ll tell you what, we’ll have a fucking cigarette.

ugh. men.

i see you, you fucking yeti.

fuck off, you freak of nature.

you gotta smoke less dope if you wanna hit something once in a while.

get the fuck out of here, you fucking zombie!

sure. why the fuck not?

episode four - git gone

❝ d’ya mind ? ❞

❝ best drinks have self defining names. you order a manhattan, god knows what you’re gonna get, but you order a gin and tonic, a jack and coke, it’s not just a name. it’s a command. ❞

❝ how long you’ve been working here for ? ❞

❝ ooh, that’s bad luck. ❞

❝ don’t do it. ❞

❝ i was waiting for you. ❞

❝ why’d you help me ? ❞

❝ you’re really not very good at this; i saw you coming a mile off. ❞

❝ are you trying to recruit me ? ❞

❝ you could be a world class thief. ❞

❝ you look like you could get anything you want just by asking for it. ❞

❝ what d’ya say, huh ? ❞

❝ hang on a minute. i’m sorry. ❞

❝ i owe you one. i feel beholden. ❞

❝ let me buy you a drink. ❞

❝ let’s go somewhere. ❞

❝ so you are a thief. ❞

❝ the weak spot, see ––– all you need is one. and it’s usually people’s attention. ❞

❝ show me. ❞

❝ oh, god. ten years, and [ … ] has NEVER looked at me like that. ❞

❝ there’s a lesson in there somewhere. ❞

❝ my grandma always had cats. she said that they could see ghosts when we can’t, and warn you of thieves. ❞

❝ do you ever worry about what will happen if you keep stealing ? ❞

❝ do you believe in the afterlife ? ❞

❝ all i know is there’s more than i know. ❞

❝ yeah, i think that might sound wiser than it is. ❞

❝ when you die, you rot. it’s a fixed system. physics doesn’t take sundays off. ❞

❝ my parents believed in everything. father, son, holy ghost, spirit filled and full of the light of god. they taught me all of it, chapter and verse. ❞

❝ i went to bed every night in a world full of magic where anything was possible. ❞

❝ it’s like everything that made the world anything more than what it is is just –– stories. like snake oil. but worse, because snakes are real. ❞

❝ i wanted to get that magic back so bad, but one day i just accepted the fact that i couldn’t, because life is just not that interesting. ❞

❝ don’t look at me like that. ❞

❝ the fun is just getting started. ❞

❝ i could teach you to fight. ❞

❝ hey, you want coffee ? ❞

❝ are we pregnant ? ❞

❝ what i’m about to say may sound irrational to you, but i have all sorts of rational reasons for saying it, and doing it. ❞

❝ say it, and we’ll talk about whether or not you should do it. ❞

❝ are we … discussing this, or are you telling ? ❞

❝ there’s some wiggle room. ❞

❝ are you unhappy ? because i’m happy, okay, you make me happy. ❞

❝ yes, i see that you’re happy. from this side of it. the wrong side of it. and i think maybe i resent not being happy. not resent you, just … resent. ❞

❝ do you still love me ? ❞

❝ we are like a history book. we’re established fact. we don’t change. ❞

❝ i represent FAILURE to you ? ❞

❝ i can take it. if you’re on the other side. i can make it if you can. can you wait for me ? ❞

❝ just glad that i could be here to help you, you know ? ❞

❝ hey, don’t stay here alone tonight. ❞

❝ why did you say that ? ❞

❝ come on, [ … ] , say what you mean. ❞

❝ last night was a one time thing. you were there. and thank you, but we’re not doing this. we did this. and now it’s done. ❞

❝ you don’t love him. not the way he loves you. ❞

❝ is that all this was ? just fun ? ❞

❝ are you saying no ? ❞

❝ i lived my life, good and bad. definitely not light as a feather. ❞

❝ in life, you believed in nothing, so you will go to nothing. you will be done. ❞

❝ there is nowhere else for you to be. ❞

❝ tears have fallen for you. ❞

❝ do i get a say in this ? ❞

❝ death is not a debate. ❞

❝ how many do you think have come before you, all with promises and threads and offers of gold, glory, love ? who are you to misguide me from my duty ? ❞

❝ you are but a man, not even one i should remember. ❞

❝ i’m gonna come in now. i’m gonna come in now, okay ? ❞

❝ is this a haunting ? are you haunting me ? ❞

❝ does [ … ] know ? ❞

❝ i’m a vulgar woman. anger and grief have just really made me vulgar. ❞

❝ god, you know, i should thank you. it’s so much easier grieving someone when you’re glad they’re dead. ❞

❝ oh, fuck your feelings. ❞

❝ everybody has feelings, everybody cares about what they feel. i don’t care about what you feel. i care about what you think. what do you think about what you did ? ❞

❝ what was your big lie, [ … ] ? ❞

❝ i love [ … ] … loved [ … ]. love [ … ]. i love [ … ]. (s)he’s the light of my life. ❞

❝ you, i remember. ❞

❝ there is nothing i can do to lighten your heavy heart. ❞

❝ your heavy heart sank you like a stone, right back where you last left off. ❞

❝ was it love ? ❞

❝ love will always have you at a disadvantage. ❞

❝ many is the man who would take any version of his lost love rather than leave his love lost. ❞

it’s strange, how things happen and they don’t turn out like you think they will.

i’m sorry we fought.

a little sleep and you’ll be as good as new.

aren’t you going to eat?

you’ve got to live.

and that’s a kind of love. having somebody do that for you.

because it’s snowing. hard.

you’re awake. how do you feel? 

drink it hot so it gets down.

thank you for saving me.

you’re still here.

it’s nothing to worry about. you go to sleep.

i was afraid.

there isn’t much time to be a kid out here.

you rest for now.

don’t die.

kind of cut my arm. a little.

damn, it seems like yesterday.

but life has a way of pulling the rug out from under you just when you need it least.

i fought sleep as hard as i could.

you can’t stay here, you’ll die.

there was beauty then – beauty and love. then it all went to hell.

i’ll stay as long as it takes, as long as you need me.

just double-checking to make sure there isn’t anything wrong.

i know, i know. it’s all right now.

what time is it?

you’ll spend the night.

don’t worry – it’s all over now.

go away. leave me alone.

it seems like everything they call growing up has to jerk your guts out and just about wreck you and i’ve never been able to understand why that’s supposed to be good for you. 

it just sounded dumb to me.

which made what happened a lot harder to live with, i can tell you.

sometimes it would be nice if life just kept happening the way it’s happening, if things got to a good place and just stayed there, didn’t change.

they have to try or it was all for nothing, and nobody likes to do something all for nothing.

this place gives me the creeps.

it’s dumber than falling in love and freezing your ears until the lobes almost fall off.

i think it’s sad. that’s what i think.

always ask the second question. don’t just ask why, but why why? 

i figured you’d need a colorful picture to look at – cheer you up.

so nothing. never mind.

i just wanted to see you, i guess, talk to you.

we’re about the same age but you act a lot more grown up. 

there was no way to tell it was going to happen the way it happened, no way to stop it, really, even if i’d known it was coming.