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i don't what they've put in this stupid ship, I don't think I've been obsessed with a ship for so long... granted the fact that I'm writing fics and doing fanart might contribute to my obsession lasting so long. But anyway I just love them so much and the doomery is so so tasteful. Just something about them loving each other so much that they hate each other in the end ooooooo

Thought I was an ennemies to lover person, then switched to friends to lovers but it looks like I'm a lovers/friends to ennemies after all siiiigh

Why does he want to cover them up? Does he think they are ugly? He talks favorably to John about his scar, wanting him to feel better about having it, either b/c he genuinely feels that way or he just wants John to not feel upset b/c Javier felt similarly with his scars. Does he think they taint his image of wanting to look like a noble, honorable freedom fighter? That they make him scary and undignified? Reminds me how he wears his fancy clothing, yet underneath those gold toed boots he still has socks with holes in them. He tries so hard to seem presentable and noble but deep down has done things he's not proud of, lacks faith and direction over what is the right thing to do, lacks belief that the world is even worth fighting for. A cynic trying to be a romantic.