Psychotic babygirl

here’s a simple exercise that you can do any time of day.

this workout is the best, trust me. I went from thighs completely touching, to thighs barely touching at all in just a few days.

lay on your back, with your knees bent, feet together. fold a bed pillow and put it in-between your thighs. squeeze and hold for two seconds. do this as many times as you can, trust me, it’s going to burn. when you feel like you can’t do it anymore, squeeze and hold the pillow for ten seconds. It seriously hurts, but totally worth it.

It is unlikely for you to gain or lose 2 whole pounds of muscle/fat in a day unless if you burn 7000 kcal more than what you take in or eat 7000 kcal over your BMR/activities.

So no you cannot “gain a pound” from eating 800 kcal the day before if we are talking about fat/muscle weight. It probably meant that you were more dehydrated before and now you are better hydrated.

I ate ~800 kcal yesterday and when I weighed myself this morning I was a pound more than yesterday. My stomach dropped. I opened the fridge and was about to binge on my roommates’ cheesecake.

But then I walked away and went back to sleep for an hour.

I thought about how my pee was way too dark for a while (oops tmi?) and how I was feeling pain on my side since I started restricting again to win against this flesh prison. I thought about how forcing myself to drink more water is eliminating these symptoms of dehydration.

Half the battle is in the mind, so repeat after me until these phrases sink into your psyche… 

“I have learned how to keep myself from overeating”

“I don’t binge anymore”

“I am reaching my ideal weight”

“I lose weight more quickly because I eat slower”

“I do not eat out of anxiety or depression”

“Food provides me energy, nothing more”

“My body is becoming more efficient”

“I choose to eat nutritious food and avoid unhealthy foods”

“Weight loss has become effortless for me” (FAVE)

you eat once a day/ u don’t always fast 24/7

you’re not bones

you don’t openly talk about it lile it’s a big problem

you don’t want treatment

you don’t think you’re sick enough for treatment

you can’t purge

EATING DISORDERS AREN’T WHAT THE MEDIA TELLS YOU

i had a experience today where my body overheated i started to lose focus in my schoolwork my heart started beating so loud and fast and hurting like a mf and i thought “omg this is it this is how i die i am going to die in the middle of art class” then i decided to try to alert someone i tapped my friends thigh my breathing was shaky and loud and my face was red and tried to tell her “get the teacher somethings happening” all that came out was a scrambled mumbled sentence and i thought i was about to faint but she understand and the teacher got her to take me real quick and since she knew i was anorexic she got a proteing bar and made me eat that shit and the second i took a bite everything slowly started to calm down and i have honestly never been more terrified

When you don’t eat, your blood sugar goes DOWN. This causes a variety of symptoms:

-An irregular heart rhythm

-Fatigue

-Pale skin

-Shakiness

-Anxiety

-Sweating

-Hunger

-Irritability

-Tingling sensation around the mouth

-Crying out during sleep

-Confusion, abnormal behavior or both, such as the inability to complete routine tasks

-Visual disturbances, such as blurred vision

-Seizures

-Loss of consciousness

ALWAYS make sure you have a fast acting carbohydrate on you. Orange juice, LifeSavers, (NOT DIET) soda, dried fruits (raisins), bananas, glucose gel/tablets, energy bars, rice cakes, pretzels, other candies.

These will correct your blood sugar (bring it up) in 5-15 minutes!!!!! Eat them when you start to feel faint or right after you pass out. Hydrate yourself as well!!!

I have never been so scared.

I had a BMI of 21 and had only been restricting for a month.