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Anyway, i’ll probably be visiting my tumblr more often. I want to start to write again. My recall is already rusty. 

I am furious right now. Why? Because I cannot get away from this crazy world. Even if I'm home, it still feels foreign and different. I love music. I mean who doesn't, right? But I more than love music. It is kind of my life actually. Ever since I was a kid, I played guitar and I am a bit of a fast-learner when it comes to other instruments. The ridiculous thing about me is that I can't sing. Well I know how to do 2nd voice. Still, I suck at singing. But I know how to harmonize and listen to some tune (immediately get the tune on my guitar) which I think is amazing because some people could not do that. I may sound pretentious but I am amused by it too. What do you use when you listen to some music? Yes. Ears. We all use our ears for communication. We use it to connect ourselves to the songs we choose on our playlist. We use it in eavesdropping. Basically, it is very useful. But don't you think that it is kind of frustrating for a musically-inclined person not to hear anything? I have a damaged right ear. I can barely hear anything. The doctor said it's profoundly damaged. Don't worry. My ears are clean. It's the nerve that's damaged. Somewhere inside my eardrum. I don't know if I got this ever since I was born but I knew I had this since I was a kid. I fucking hate it. Yeah using earphones would make it worse but god I hate the world (just some of it). I don't like noise. I couldn't even handle a small ticking sound. Music relaxes me from those stressful days. It surely keeps my sanity. The reason why I made this post is because of my parents. I love them. I really do. But they do not realize how much I love music. I am planning to have a studio. This way I can enjoy the notion "do what you love". I always put earphones every night because I daydream. I want to get away from this crazy world. Away from other people's chastising, my parent's lectures and other annoying sounds. If they see me wearing any earphones, they would take it from me. They can destroy it infront of you if they want to. "It's for your own good." No. Eff no. I always cry when they do that. So what will happen to my dream studio? Would they still take my earphones when I produce? My parents became my pet peeves. I just hate this. When you already know what you want in the future but your parents are stopping you because you have a damaged ear. I can hear well on the other ear so please leave me alone. I have this gift. But I also have a curse. A curse that could change my expected future.

I need a JOB

Dancin'.

work dat booty

#dumbboys #cat

I have been listening to her songs these past few days and I freakin envy her voice. She's just 18. I can't stop listening to Lush Life and Never Forget You. Probably influenced by the Queen B Beyonce. I want more of her this 2016 😆