i have alot of feelings

what’s the point of all these pretty things in the world if I can’t have you?

i feel very numb to this life thing. i feel like every breath i take becomes heavier and heavier. waking up is hard, going to sleep is harder too. doing the simple things aren’t so simple in my sad head. my sad head tells me i’m nothing, my heart tells me i’m everything. it’s the constant battle. the past makes me feel hazy and the future disappoints me. my sad head also says that loneliness will kill me, so i latch on to the people that make me feel the loneliest. but what my sad head doesn’t understand is that this numbness that builds inside of me has the ultimate chance of really killing me.

he just feels like summer

i don’t want to put my body in situations with no clarity anymore

you should never do something that you have to prove someone wrong for 

i’ve never been able to understand something. how could you? no but really how could you. not even how, but why? why did you hurt me so deeply that i felt like i couldn’t breathe anymore. i went on vacation and you crossed my mind every day. why can’t i just erase you like how you erased me?

it’s always been so hard for me to get over someone, it affects me so much. i just don’t know what to do anymore. it’s almost as if a part of me can’t accept it. and it just hurts so much, it gives me headaches everyday. and when and if i get to that point of moving on, my heart is so loyal. she just doesn’t wanna stop loving.

i wish i mean’t more to you

this vicious cycle is driving me psycho

i don’t know what post of mine you read that would ever make you think i’d spend the night with you

if you wanna go, imma let you leave.

every single song that plays reminds me of you, i’ll be doing great but then the song will come on and i feel it all over again.

i don’t write anymore so i don’t have to think about him, forgive me.