Jay

All I know is that zip don't need to see you to love you

What would you say if a genderfluid mommy/daddy was intrested in you?

Her eyes burn in mine. At look into hers as they gleam and shine. She smiles and kisses my lips. I push her away as my grip on reality slips. I fuck up the whole thing. And my whole life is tied onto this string. With one snap it breaks. But I bring myself back with one quick shake. “I’m sorry” I said. “I just don’t feel good.” She looked at where the place she stood. “What is your problem…what is wrong?” She started to cry and I knew she wasn’t that strong. I pushed her away again, knowing what I’ve done. And the tears start to flow out of my loved one. She has done so much to keep me happy. Yet all this time I felt so crappy. She deserves someone better than me. And I hope that in her mind she agrees. I just want her happy and so that I. Can see that sparkle back in her eye. But with all the things that happened over the year. All this drama started to appear. She doesn’t deserve those people either. She needs someone that can keep her. Someone that can mend that broken lonely heart. Someone who won’t tear her apart. Of course I’m not that person. I noticed after our relationship worsened. So go out there and stop flirted and playing with guys. So that one day I can be able to see that happiness in your eyes.

She gave you the world You tore it to shreds She gave you her heart You stomped on it with no remorse It's been days maybe months And the pain is still there Some smiles at the world And laughs with her friends Then she goes home to cry At the mistakes that you made If she could she'd give you everything again Her love, her heart, the world She'd piece everything back together for you But you are gone Off with the wind Never looked back Never really cared That pitiful little game you played Thought it was harmless But it killed her She may be breathing But she's not alive Her soul left her body Just as you left her She meant nothing to you Yet you meant everything to her And she tries to be strong But here comes the tears Rolling down her beautiful eyes Why her, she asks herself No answer is ever given She wonders if you're happy What you're doing If you miss her Yet, he left no trace behind She doesn't want to miss you But the pain, it comes in waves Like a tide, No a tsunami Upon the unsuspecting city And there it goes Destroying what she built up Over and over again Unrelenting pain The love didn't hurt It was you, who left pain Scars not mending Such beautiful memories Guiltless lies Never-ending love And no matter what happened Even if you destroyed her She misses you dearly Every ounce of her being Craving your presence Tears pouring out Like a stormy day Thunder booming in her head All the words that you said All the lies that you told Crashing, churning Making her scream in pain But she holds it in What warrior she's made herself be Wiping away the tears Slapping a smile on her face Hoping you're okay No answers to her questions But she's going to be alright The tears will end one day But the pain will remain For months, years, who knows ~~.

What has this world come to. All these happy faces with sad eyes. Laughter with pain hidden inside. So much sorrow and not enough happiness.