I'm not diagnosed, and we tend to question our status as a 'system'. the purpose of this blog is to have a diary/record our experiences surrounding possible plurality, as a refrence for ourselves.
our experiences as a system are our own, they wont be exactly like anyone else's- though we hope by sharing our perpective we can be another refrence for others who may also be questioning.
I'm new to most things surrounding plurality, including almost all of the terms surrounding it. the intricacies of the language may be lost on me, and I may misuse/misunderstand terms. we're always open to corrections.
I'm painfully antisocial outside of our circle of friends. i'm trying to be better about it, and I'm happy to recieve asks and interactions, but please excuse any awkwardness and such.
[under the cut: roster introductions, other blogs, tba]
INTRODUCTIONS ☆
we're 19, queer, and new in town /ref
Bones/Cypress- they/it- some kind of bug
Shuttle- she/they- unicorn?
I'm the host! I'm never not fronting as far as I can tell? and I've been the main one experiencing.. everything? yea.
directly caused problems: 1
the first to talk to Bones directly and begin taking notes of whos who. I get easily anxious about being percieved, being a 'seperate person' is very new to me.. often feels like im the only one struggling with that, perhaps because i feel like the farthest removed from the host.
Mckayla - they/she/it- opossum
Jukebox - they/them- fox
the noisiest and often angriest of us. I butt heads with Bones the most. I also claim most of the memories from the later years of our being a teen, sometimes I still feel like i'm 16. I got all the unchecked issues from the divorce and subsequent fallout.
directly caused distress: 1
Naomi- she/her- wolfdog
self proclaimed eldritch horror. I interact the least, because being a human sucks. I have the best music and fashion sense haha L
directly caused distress: 1
Naomi is an oc we're had since 2020, and she may or may not be developing into a fictive of sorts? anyway she's been a selfship f/o since 2021, so she's very important to us.
you can find more of our art @miscellaneous--bones (the main blog, c. 2018) otherwise we're most active on toyhouse under the same name.
Hen- she/they/any- stuffed animal/unknown
newest introduction, seems like the caretaker type but we don't want to force her into that responsibility. rational, comforting presence.
there may be others we don't know yet, who havn't developed or introduced themselves.
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This was a conversation we had after a troubling event. The question was if self harm (cutting) was really that bad, and the consensus was that Yes, even if we are using it to ground or explore ourselves, it's still traumatizing and we would not be engaging/doing it. We're all okay and the situation is dealt with, which is why the comic is unfinished!
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for sake of logging what i've noticed: she feels veryyy responsible and comforting, logical. ever since shuttle started being more anxious about things it feels lile shes taken over helping fill the spot of soft-spoken reassurance and rationality, which I can certainly appreciate. (and thats nothing against shuttle. i still am very thankful for her help in all this and shes doing great. muah)
she isnt sure what she looks like yet, so far i've got "plushie" and thats about it. idk if she'll decide to pick a specific animal or be more fluid or what. but welcome in nice to meet you regardless!
it's march 5th, which is dissociative identity awareness day!! i seldom talk about being plural on here, but i am, and i've had this comic idea for quite a while now... i have P-DID, which is a label under the OSDD umbrella that not many people know about! i think these little infographics can be helpful to anyone who might be questioning or newly-realizing/diagnosed as plural, i know talking to other systems was one of the things that helped me out the most when i was learning all this stuff about myself. hopefully it might help you, too- or maybe you'll just get to learn something new!
the colors here are from this flag, just with a few adjustments to make it work better for something like a comic. i'll also link my sources under the cut, for anyone interested in reading more!
reblogs are appreciated!
SOURCES:
https://pluralpedia.org/w/Partial_Dissociative_Identity_Disorder
https://www.isst-d.org/publications-resources/public-resources-home/fact-sheet-iv-what-are-the-dissociative-disorders/
https://icd.who.int/browse/2025-01/mms/en#988400777
(as a note, i don't particularly like the language used in the ICD-11. i think presenting any form of dissociative disorder as inherently alarming and destructive, especially toward anyone other than the plural individual themself, is... questionable, at best. but it's the most official and academic source i can provide on the matter, so i figured i'd include it.
i much prefer pluralpedia as a source for learning about these things- it's made by and for systems, and the language used is a lot more focused on the individual(s)!)
she seeeeems feminine, and sounds distinctly different. i tried asking who she was and she said she was Me, (she used the word "You", actually) as far as she knew, so maybe she needs more time? anyway I'm not going to force her to introduce herself but I wanted to log it.
it wpuld have probably been NICE to use simplyppural or something similar but now its shutting down so. we will just continue trying to keep track of eachother here :/
"I just find it hard to believe some people who claim to be systems. why do all their alters have strange names and unique appearances and weird mannerisms?" queer people are disproportionately at risk of experiencing childhood trauma. autistic people are disproportionately at risk of experiencing childhood trauma. there are countless studies on this if you want to hear it right from the source. childhood trauma is the driving factor behind a massive majority of DID/OSDD system formations. I trust that you can connect the dots here!
if you intentionally choose to disregard peoples' existences based on their appearance or behaviours, you have biases that you absolutely need to deconstruct before people like me can ever feel safe around you.
you can start by saying nothing about how you "just can't believe it" when someone you don't know exists as a system where you can see. you can keep going by trusting the people in your life when they share extremely vulnerable information about themselves.
telling someone that you're part of a system feels like exposing your soft underside. I've cried from terror almost every time I've had to reveal it to someone I care about, and I don't cry easily. if someone tells you they're part of a system, they're placing a monumental amount of trust in you.
actually, another thing!!! you are seeing systems who:
1. actually know that they're systems (this is rare. being online makes resources on figuring it out WAY more accessible)
2. happen to exist in the same online space as you, the tumblr user reading this
3. are, as a result, usually younger and/or autistic and/or queer, which are all factors that can influence individual alters' identities.
so of COURSE you think we're all like this. you're looking at one damn tree instead of the whole forest!!! there are systems who are 60 years old and never had the resources to figure out what was going on. there are systems who are 30 and barely use social media for personal reasons. there are systems who are 20 and don't tell anyone because of the cruelty they've faced every time they try. there are systems who are 15 and are SO relieved to have answers to why everything felt weird and wrong their whole life, so they shout it from the rooftops. your limited interactions with systems in specific online spaces does not represent the majority of systems on earth.
even if it did represent the majority of systems on earth we STILL deserve to be treated like people. this should not be something I have to beg for!!!!!
ID: tags that say: #Reading pre-internet documentation of systems will give you such a sense for our history #Thinking about the system who got dianosed at 70 who had a Snow White introject. She found out at 70. #l think about her so much. I wish knew more about her than a passing comment in a text book. #The world is so vibrant if you become curious rather than hateful/End ID
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jukebox has been more present, but theyre pissed i didnt let them draw their sona last night. as far as im concerned its payback for scaring me a few days ago. they were very mean >:(
