May

The only reason I desperately want to believe in God is not because of my want for an Eternal Paradise but because of my want for Revenge and for my faith in Justice.

It is my only consolation being born in this unfair world.

Living knowing there are people feeling pangs of hunger for days on end, their stomachs churning with envy for the well-clothed full bellies walking past them.

Living knowing there are people beaten and bruised, raped and killed, tortured and murdered.

Is it not torturous itself?

How can you ask me if God exists? God has to exist. God has to bring justice to the lives burned at the stake, to the lives killed in war, drowned in the seas, buried alive and dying of hunger.

Maybe I wish for God just to shift the responsibility and to lessen the guilt I feel when I walk past them indifferent to their suffering.

What if everyone was born equal? No poor no wealthy, no weak no strong, no wrong no right.

My Child, I will love you unconditionally, you may be good or you may be bad but you'll always have me by your side.

I hope you have so much love that every step you take leaves a trail of flowers behind so that whenever you are lost I may come find you and take you home. It's okay even if sometimes those flowers are replaced by spikes. Our feet will bleed together and heal together.

You are a bird, you are a fish, you are air so you may fly, swim or flow wherever you wish to go.