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Asaba Harumasa Character Psychology, Headcanons and Kinks
They got me lads. I am now playing Zenless so I lied, you will be getting more of my zzz content (including a part 2 for lighterâs stuff) Harumasa is my man (lighter is my friends) but when I tell you this man has me in CHOKEHOLD, I'm not exaggerating. Also bunni-v1 writes great Harumasa fics if you need more content.
Also: Spoilers obviouslyÂ
Edit: I forgot to add the playlist i made so here you go
Harumasa Playlist
And I will be headcanoning that the cure his master gave him (in his mission) prolonged his life because I don't feel like crying while writing headcanons for the other alternatives. His issues with his chronic illness will not be erased (as an endo chronically ill girlie myself) but we are aiming for the good end here. also this does feature a little Lighter (go read his for context if it is confusing)
General Headcanons
Harumasa is not the type to sit on the sidelines and pineâhe takes action. Unlike Lighter, who behind the bravado is riddled with self-doubt and would likely self-sabotage out of fear of not being good enough, or being stuck in his own head, Harumasa knows what he wants and makes sure he gets it. He doesnât have the luxury of fucking around. While his pursuit of his desired partner would be relentless, it would still be charming enough to not come off as desperate or creepy.
Whereas Lighter might see someone flirting with the object of his affection in its early stages and back off, (very Wyll in BG3 at the party coded) thinking heâs too much, too messy, and that they would be better off with someone less damaged, Harumasa is not that type of guy. If he sees something (or someone) he wants, he will make it happen. He fears rejection, but not enough to stop him from chasing what he wants.
Heâs cunning but playfulâhis approach is not overtly aggressive, but he manipulates situations to make himself the best option without it seeming deliberate. Harumasa would definitely âaccidentallyâ ruin his competitorâs moment by interrupting a heartfelt conversation theyâre having with his desired partner.
"Oh wow, sorry for barging inâdidnât realize you were getting confessed to. Wait, never mind, I totally did. Don't mind me, though."
Harumasa grins and plops down next to them, pretending itâs a joke, when he knows damn well what was happening.
Unlike an outright toxic or possessive character, Harumasa wouldnât openly block other suitorsâhe undermines them in ways that seem coincidental. He would love to âaccidentallyâ give bad advice to someone else whoâs interested in his desired partner.
"Oh, they love really dramatic gestures! Go for something big and public. You should invite them out to that five-star restaurant and serenade them on the stage! Yeah, they have a stageâlet me send you the reviews."
(Knowing full well that his wanted partner would be mortified and reject the person immediately.) He would also find any reason to insert himself into situations where his partner and another suitor might get too close.
"Oh wow, you two were gonna get coffee? CrazyâI was just heading that way. Letâs all go together, I need it after working so much overtime!"
Harumasa plays dirty, but subtly. He wonât start a fight with another suitor or his preferred partnerâheâll just make the other guy seem worse by comparison. If another suitor brings a gift? Harumasa one-ups it instantly.
Other suitor: "I got you flowers."
Harumasa: "Cute. I got them a custom-made choker that matches my own. No big deal."
He leans over, fingers tracing their collar, brushing the hair away, enough to be charged but not enough to warrant a callout.
"Looks good on them, doesnât it?" (very regina george of him, getting the other suitor to agree)
If another suitor says something awkward or embarrassing, Harumasa makes sure his partner notices.
"Did he really just say that? Oh, babe, I think you broke him. Maybe you should go easy on him."
If he and his partner had a fight, the resentment we see in his interactions with Lighter or Seth would rear its ugly head. Harumasa wouldnât argue when his partner says they need space after a fight, but that night, he makes a quiet note of every interaction theyâve had that week. Were they laughing less? Kissing him shorter? Did they forget to say âI love youâ first this time? Itâs stupid, he knows. But if he doesnât count, he wonât be able to tell when itâs really over.
He tends to catastrophize small fights and might overcompensate when he feels distance creeping in. If he senses his partner pulling away, he floods them with affection, gifts, and attentionâbut also gets quietly resentful because deep down, he fears heâll never be enough to make them stay. Nothing communication couldn't solve between him and his partner, but his partner would probably have to make the first move to reassure him. Otherwise, his attempts will be thinly veiled worries disguised as jokes.
Sexual and Romantic Headcanons
Sexting - Sex Tapes, Nudes, and Unsolicited Pictures
Harumasa is a known photographer and a good one at that. He knows all the tricks of good composition, lighting, and angles. Not only would this man hound his partner for nudesâboth video and picture (though if his partner was uncomfortable, he would drop it)â the things he would send would be filthy.
His partner could be at work, and Harumasa would send a text:
"I have something to show you, baby."
Followed immediately by the most out-of-pocket shower pic known to man. He also sends videos of himself finishing, moaning, and masturbating to the pictures his partner sent him. His partner has to be careful anytime they receive a message from him. Silent mode is a must. He would send the foulest, most down bad texts to his partner, so they would need a good poker face in public.
He would also send nude requests in the middle of meetings. If his partner doesn't answer back quickly enough, he spams them with memes. Eventually, he calls, and when his partner picks up, he just acts nonchalant but keeps them on the phone for an hour talking shit.
Additionally, amateur porn and couples' videos would be something heâs enthusiastic about trying. Nothing too crazy or uncomfortable (although if his partner is adventurous, he would be thrilled), but he would love a personal library of videos of them together. Harumasa likes to say they keep him from feeling lonely when heâs away, whether on a mission or just at work.
Breeding KinkÂ
Sub categories: Overminding, Pseudo Mommy Kink
This man hates condoms. Harumasa hates the feeling of latex, partly because it reminds him of his time in hospitals. The smell and sensation bring him back to the long, painful periods spent in captivity. He also despises any sort of barrier between him and his partner.
Under normal circumstances, he's already like a velcro dog, attached at the hip with separation anxiety, but during sex? He doesnât want anything coming between them. That means lights on, or daytime sex where he can see everything.
A subconscious part of him loves the idea of getting his partner pregnant, whether thatâs possible or not. Remember how he made little Bangboos of each Section 6 member? Yeah. Part of him wants something that permanently ties him and his partner together.
A child is a forever bond, one that canât be undone. Before receiving the cure that prolonged his life, Harumasa had already been obsessed with preserving moments. Now, the idea of a legacy through his partnerâsomeone who will exist beyond him and prove that he loved themâis something he fixates on, even if he wonât admit it.
"Just let me come inside. I'll get you Plan B after, promise."
(His partner has to remind him, otherwise he will absolutely forget.)
If they did get pregnant? He wouldnât be mad. In fact, he would probably commission a custom Bangboo of him and his partner as a âpractice babyâ to test the waters and see how they react.
I also think in terms of a pseudo mommy kink, he would enjoy being overminded, or overmothered. I don't necessarily think he would call his partner mommy but I think his need for nurturing would come out in certain ways such as nagging for attention when they are busy, loving his partner's chest or wanting to suck on their nipples.
Domination PlayÂ
Sub categories: Femdom and Overstimulation
Half-truths, control, and vulnerability are big themes in Harumasaâs character. Being sick for most of his life, heâs used to feeling weak, being used, or being treated like a fragile object. Sex is one of the only places where he gets to reclaim control, but itâs also where he gets to be completely vulnerable.
For him, overstimulation isnât just about pleasure, itâs about being pushed past his limits and about feeling alive. But itâs a delicate balance; while he craves intensity, he also hates feeling physically weak. In his professional life, he would rather lean into his genius slacker persona than admit his actual limitations. Thereâs a fine line between pleasure and frustration for him.
For example: his partner keeps pushing him, overstimulating him, until he physically canât move anymore. He hates it and loves it at the same timeâhis body isnât used to exhaustion feeling good.
â⌠Youâre making me weak. Donât stop.â
Heâs clinging to them, shaking, but refuses to be the one to tap out.
Harumasaâs abandonment issues are so prevalent that they could fill an entire book. He was a child discarded by his parents because of his ether sickness, and his picture book episode makes it clearâhe believes that if anyone saw the full mess of who he is, they would run.
A partner with dominance or possessive aspects would actually relax him rather than intimidate him. Heâs already possessive himself, but if his partner doesnât reciprocate that energy, he can feel unbalanced and even ashamed of how much he needs them. Harumasa has cared deeply for people in the past, only to realize that they didnât love him as much as he did them. Now, as an adult, he wants a partner who is upfront and a little obsessed with him too.
He thrives on a type of possessiveness that toes the lineânoticeable in public but not over-the-top PDA. Itâs not that he doesnât want his partner all over him; he just doesnât want to draw undue attention and be bothered while heâs with them.
Public possessiveness he loves: Sitting in his lap? Yes. A hand on the back of his neck? Even better. Leaning in to kiss him in front of people? Be careful he might make it an uncomfortably long kiss for the public. I feel like if his partner gave the impression that they were embarrassed by him, especially in public, it would be an ugly dealbreaker. He wants to be wanted.
Going back to the intersection of domination, overstimulation, and his need for consuming careâhe doesnât just like to be dominated. He likes being taken care of in a way that doesnât make him feel small.
For example: his partner pins him down, taking control, and for a moment, his brain flashes back to the times he was trapped in hospital beds, unable to move. His breath catches. His partner noticesâpauses and reassures him. And just like that, the panic shifts into trust.
He doesnât want to feel used or like a tool, like how people have viewed him in the past. And even worseâhe doesnât want to feel like a problem to be discarded.
Harumasa needs to sleep in the same bed as his partner. He has nightmares from his time in the lab, and sleeping next to his partner helps keep the bad nights away. Once he gets used to their presence, he cannot go back to sleeping alone. If they ever suggest separate sleeping arrangements, he hates it.
When heâs on missions, he barely gets any sleep until he gets back.
He would also love it if his partner forced him to take his meds. Heâs taking them religiously but he might pretend heâs not just to see them worry and nag him. Heâd grumble about it, but secretly, he loves the attention.
For example: his partner constantly reminds him to do things he already knows he should be doingâcall the doctor, get some rest, eat the food they cooked, take his meds.
"They taste so bitter and gross, though," he mutters, swallowing the pill. He worries it will change the taste of his saliva, make it sharp and unpleasant, and maybe his partner wonât want to kiss him as much.
But he always gets a kiss after taking his medication.
Later that night, he holds their hand in bed and rubs slow circles over their palm, a silent thank-you.
When he feels like heâs close to losing something, he holds onto it even harder. If he senses his partner is upset with him, he feels the distance ten times more intensely than whatâs actually happening in reality. His instinct isnât to talkâitâs to pull them closer, physically.
People often see dominance as something aggressive or forceful, but real dominance is a service roleâit requires carrying the needs of both partners. Thatâs what attracts Harumasa to a dominant partner, I think. He has carried his own needs alone for too long without any real support.
Aesthetic Domination (Luxury as Control, Beauty as a Tool)
Subcategories: Dressing You, Restriction Through Elegance, Ritual in Presentation
For Harumasa, control isnât always about action, sometimes, itâs about aesthetics. Itâs about curation. Itâs about how you match him.
Power doesnât have to be loud. It can be subtle, whispered through carefully chosen details. Unlike Lighter, who is a little more straightforward with an established relationship, with commands and agreements, Harumasa treads between lines. He tells half-truths, like how he âpretendedâ to be sick to slack off when, in reality, he really was sick. He moves in ways that make things seem effortless when theyâre actually highly deliberate.
Everything is curated. Clothing. Jewelry. Scent.
He would love coordinating outfits. Heâs the type of man who picks out a set of jewelry that matches his partnerâs eyes. He buys them his favorite lingerie setânot for him, but because theyâll look stunning in it.
And scent?
 If his partner doesnât have a signature scent, heâs helping them find one. And if they do, heâll wear traces of it himself. He wants his presence on them at all times. Unlike how Lighter uses his partnerâs scent to ground himself, Harumasa uses it as a form of possession. Harumasa would also throw out any perfume that was a gift from anyone else, even if he has to go out and buy you a similar one.
Example:
Harumasa lays out an outfit, every detail carefully chosen so they match. He enjoys knowing heâs connected to how the world perceives his partner today.
"Wear this," Harumasa says, fastening the last button, styling their hair. Maybe they are going out to collect an award. "Think of me on stage, yeah?."
Later, theyâre out, and someone compliments their bracelet.
Before his partner even has the chance to respond, Harumasa is already there.
Arm slung over their shoulder, wearing the smuggest shit-eating grin possible.
"Yeah, I got them that. Itâs a matching set, see?" He lifts his left wrist, showing off his own.
Jangling it in their face.
Itâs a not-so-subtle "Theyâre taken" move.
Harumasa is very petty like that.
Love Languages â Gift Giving (Both Receiving and Giving), Quality Time
Harumasa never had stability growing up. He treasures material things because they last.
His love language is "I saw this and thought of you. "or âI made this for youâ.
Harumasa casually drops expensive gifts on the table without making a big deal out of it. If his partner gives him something, he wears it constantlyâeven if it doesnât match his usual style. Heâs willing to try new things for his partner. But more than expensive gifts, Harumasa loves gifts that take time and effort. He would love to make something homemade or receive it.
For example: If his partner started packing him lunch for work, he would keep the little notes they left himâfilled with their handwriting and tiny Bangboo doodles. Eventually, he would begin collecting them, turning them into a scrapbook. It's a reminder that someone loves him enough to fill a book full of post-it notes.
He would also love making picture albums of the two of themâsimilar to the ones moms make for their kids, but instead, itâs filled with snapshots of their relationship. This is completely my own headcanon, but I also believe Harumasa would write his partner love poemsâso many that they could eventually be compiled into a book.
And when he dies (late in life, for my own sanity), I like to think his partner and Section 6 would help get his picture books and, eventually, his poetry published after his partner passes as well.
Messy Sex and Communal Intimacy â An Extension of His Need for Care, Communal Sharing
Messy sex, to me, just makes sense for Harumasa. Sweat, Spit-slicked kisses, the bed sheets being ruined ect. He loves when things drip onto his partnerâs skin, when things get wet and slippery and overwhelming. He loves grabbing his partner by the jaw, pulling them into the mess, sucking their tongue into his mouth. He doesnât just want to fuckâhe wants to drown in them.
Also this man doesn't care about period sex or whether or not his partner has shaved. It gives the energy of-
âI used to eat lollipops off the hospital carpet, lie down alreadyâ (11)
I debated on putting a spit kink in this section, because I have read so many good fanfictions that tease that, so if you decide that makes sense, I will never argue with you.
Harumasa wouldnât care either way if his partner were a stay-at-home or career-focused typeâboth have their perks. However, I do think a boss bitch partner would do something for him. Not only would it allow him to take time off to recuperate when needed, but he would love the feeling of being minded. On the flip side, if his partner stayed home, he would adore coming home to a cooked meal and a sense of familyâsomething heâs never had and something that would sooth his fear of being left behind again.
For example: After a rough day, Harumasa pulls his partner onto his lap, burying his face in their neck.
"Stay like this." His voice isnât teasing or light for onceâitâs low, almost desperate. If his partner tries to move, even slightly, his grip tightens.
"Please, I said stay." His tone is firmâbut thereâs a crack in it. Like if they leave, even for a second, they might not come back. His partner cups his jaw, pressing a slow, grounding kiss to his lips.
"Iâm not going anywhere."
Harumasa exhales. But only just.
There is also no "mine" or "yours" in the household. His partnerâs clothes? His. His clothes? Theirs. His partner would walk into the kitchen to find Harumasa wearing their hoodieâwhich does not fit him at all.
Harumasa calls it the communal hoodie.
Auralism â Attraction to the Sound of a Voice, Attraction to Sounds or Audio
Harumasa is LOUD. Heâs a whiner, a moaner, a whimperer. He and his partner would have to soundproof their apartment because one time, he was so loud the neighbors complained.
He craves a space where he can be completely himself. Sex is one of those few spaces. If he has to perform or censor himself, then he doesnât want to do it at all. Likewise, he wouldnât like it if his partner held back their moans or soundsâheâs the type of man who needs to hear them to get off. If itâs too quiet, he gets frustrated.
"Why so quiet? I want to hear everything."
He loves not necessarily just dirty talk but pure reactions. He thrives on noiseâbreathy gasps, high moans, even shaky, incoherent sentences drive him crazy. A well-placed word or a high-pitched moan from his partner could shock him in a good way and have him finishing earlier than intended. His mind would just blue screen. 404 error. Not found.
Heâs also the type to enjoy Skype sleep calls or call his partner while away on a mission just to listen to their voice while falling asleep. When his partner finally drifts off, he stays on the line, enjoying the sound of their breathingâat least until his phone battery dies.
Given his fear of being alone, he would find immense comfort in hearing his partnerâs voice, even when theyâre not around. He would record their voiceâwhether itâs a casual conversation or something more intimateâjust so he can play it back when heâs alone.
When heâs on a mission, he can only fall asleep listening to them hum or talk on the phone.
"I want you to record a message for me. Just say anything. I donât care whatâit just has to be your voice."
Harumasa would also have a playlist for everything.A playlist for his partner. A playlist for sex. A playlist for when heâs missing them.
If his partner sends him a song that reminds them of him?
He plays it on repeat.
Cockwarming â A Subtle Possessiveness, a Need for Closeness
Listen, if this man could live in his partnerâs skin, he would. He whines and pouts about wanting closeness, whether itâs bothering them while they cook, playing with their hair, or just resting against them. It allows him to feel completely connected to his partner without the pressure of performance.
A lot of peopleâespecially menâmisunderstand the need for intimacy with the urge for sex. Itâs common to confuse the two. This is why so many men, for example, sleep around but never feel satisfiedâbecause the need they wish to sate is emotional and intellectual, not just a physical cog to be greased (9,10).
This aspect of connection for Harumasa sates both a sexual urge, a need for intimacy, and soothes his fear of isolation while maintaining his subtle possession of his partner.
Harumasa, sleepy, half-mumbling, "Just⌠stay like this a little longer."
Will not move unless physically removed. He would spend hours like thatâreading, sleeping, just existing while still connected.
Chronically ill people tend to struggle with temperature regulation, fatigue, and sensory overstimulation. Cockwarming allows Harumasa to use his partner as a source of warmth, comfort, and grounding. His body is often cold, weak, or achingâbeing wrapped up in heat and softness could help with muscle relaxation ect.
He struggles with sleeping alone and sleeps better when he knows his partner is physically connected to him. He has nightmares from his time in the labs, and if he wakes up in a panic, cockwarming becomes an immediate grounding tool.
Risky Sex â Spontaneous Sex, Teasing Dynamics
Why does Harumasa like risky sex? Itâs not just the thrill of it.
Itâs because it makes things feel urgentâlike he has to have his partner now, or heâll lose them. Sometimes, itâs not even a conscious realization; itâs just that heâs feeling things he doesnât want to feel, and his partner is the only thing that can make him feel safe again.
He loves the kind of sex where youâre both at a work dinner, and his hand brushes against your leg under the table. He enjoys watching you flush and squirm at small touches, playing it off like nothing. It keeps happening until you excuse yourself to the bathroom to cool off, only to find heâs followed you when no one was watching, locking the door behind him before fucking you up against the creaking stall door.
Heâs a fan of these types of quickiesânot just for the thrill, but because they release tension and reaffirm that you want him always. That you wonât leave him.
If someone almost walks in on you both, his first instinct isnât to stopâitâs to cover your mouth, press his lips into your skin to muffle his own moans, hold you deeper against the wall, and keep going.
He whispers against your skin:
 "Shhh⌠You donât wanna get caught, do you?"
The real truth? He doesnât actually want to get caught. But he wants that moment of dangerâthe moment where nothing else matters except the two of you.
If his partner initiates something like this? He loses it.
Roleplay â Both Sexual and Non-Sexual
Harumasa would love to pretend silly things with his partner.
He would be the type to drag you to IKEA just to have a fake fight in the showroom kitchens. He would pick out furniture and household things like youâre married alreadyâeven if youâre not.
He would upgrade his flight tickets to first class, just to walk up to the flight attendant and say,
"Can my wife/husband come with me?"
He also lies to every restaurant you visit, telling them itâs your birthday so you can get free cakeâeven if itâs nowhere near your actual birthday. Then he makes sure to take embarrassing pictures of you blowing out candles at every single restaurant you go to.
If you hate having "Happy Birthday" sung to you in public? Too bad. Itâs for a good cause. Free cake.
Harumasa also romanticizes scenarios between the two of you. He holds onto small moments and becomes deeply invested in them.
If you ever jokingly pretend to be married in a conversation? Harumasa casually starts using the pet name you made up, like itâs real. If his partner tells him a story about how they first met and their perspective? He wants to hear it again.
One evening, sprawled across the couch, head resting in his partnerâs lap, he suddenly asks:
"Tell me how we met."
His partner glances down, confused. "You already know that story."
He shrugs, lazily tracing circles on their thigh. "Yeah. But I like the way you tell it."
Hearing them say it, over and over again, reminds him that they chose him.
That they still do and that they havenât changed their mind.
Arousal Misattribution â Emotional Overload and the Need for Reassurance
With Harumasaâs high-risk line of work, I think there would be a level of Arousal Misattribution (6).
Arousal misattribution happens when the body experiences heightened physiological arousal from one source (fear, stress, adrenaline, etc.) but the brain misinterprets it as sexual attraction or desire.
I think, for Harumasa, this is particularly relevant because his job is constantly putting him in life-or-death situations. His body is used to stress and adrenaline spikes, so his brain starts associating those feelings with the need for intimacy.
Sex is also beneficial for overall health, and disabled and chronically ill people who have more sex tend to experience a better quality of life and an alleviation of symptoms (7,8).
Harumasaâs underlying abandonment fears make him crave reassurance through physical closeness.
When he comes home from a dangerous mission, his body is still full of adrenaline, tension, and emotional intensity. Instead of processing these feelings through words or rest, he might translate them into an urgent need for intimacy.
His fear of death and the thought of not making it back to his partner often manifest as him coming home, stripping, and throwing himself at them desperatelyâlike theyâre his lifeline.
Unlike Lighter, who seems to disassociate after a fight, the pain being a deterrent, and would not want to engage in sex right away, Harumasa needs to. Otherwise, he becomes anxious and unmoored.
Example 1: Coming Home from a Mission
Harumasa walks through the door after a brutal mission. His hands are shaking slightly from residual stress. But he acts like nothingâs wrong, heâs good at that, and tosses his coat and bow onto a chair, smirking like usual.
But thereâs a flicker of something behind his eyes.
"Miss me?" he asks, his grin seems easy to most but to his partner it's stretched just a little too tight. Not as easy as it usually is with them.
He doesnât wait for an answer before grabbing them, kissing them like heâs starving. They don't even get time to finish what they were doing.
Heâs not just horny. Heâs overwhelmed. His body is still pulsing, buzzing with leftover adrenaline, Subconsciously, he needs to feel something real to remind himself he survived. Itâs not conscious, he doesnât even realize what heâs doing. He just knows that if he doesnât touch them right now, he might spiral.
Example 2: Coming Home Late at Night
Harumasa comes home after a mission. Itâs late, and his skin is itching. He calls out.
 "Iâm home."
Silence. No response. The lack of an answer is unusual. His breath is shallow. His tie is too tight as he stomps upstairs to check the bedroom. His partner is asleep. Harumasa stares at them for a second. He canât help but pout. He begins to undress. He climbs into bed, wraps himself around them, presses kisses against their shoulder.
"Hey. Wake up."
His partner groans, rubbing their eyes. "Youâre insufferable." They register he's completely naked.
"Mm. Thought youâd be awake." His lazy grin is half-visible in the dark room. "Guess I was wrong. But now that youâre awake..."
They mumble as he presses hot, desperate kisses into their skin. "What do you want?"
Harumasa presses closer, arms locked around their waist.
"I can think of a few things."
Final Thoughts
Harumasaâs character is both playful and possessive, deeply affectionate but riddled with anxiety and a fear of loss. Everything he does is a balancing act between his desire for connection and his fear of losing it, between his ability to manipulate situations in his favor and his underlying need to be truly chosen, without tricks or interference.Â
The fact he was left by his parents, abandoned for his sickness before he could talk cuts deep. Since then, a lot of his relationships have a transactional element to them, where he has to give a huge amount of himself, whether physically e.g spine taps and tests with his master or professionally by putting his health on the line in the field of duty. Harumasaâs desire for intimacy is tied to his need to be wanted, his abandonment issues, and proving his lifelong struggle with illness does not exclude him from being worthy of love.
Every physical connection he makes with his partner isnât just about pleasureâitâs about reassurance, grounding, and the overwhelming need to feel wanted. Harumasa is actually a very kind and giving person but very few people get to see how big that side of him really is.
References and Bibliography for Further Reading:
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âLi, S. (2024). The Psychology of Kink: A CrossâSectional Survey Investigating the Association Between Adult Attachment Style and BDSM-Related Identity Choice in China. Archives of Sexual Behavior, [online] 53(6), pp.2269â2276. doi:https://doi.org/10.1007/s10508-024-02829-1.
When Kinks Come to Life: An Exploration of Paraphilic Behaviors and Underlying Predictors. (2024). The Journal of Sex Research. [online] doi:https://doi.org/10.1080//00224499.2024.2319242.
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Note: I havenât include all the characters and other fractions because either 1. I didnât play their agent story yet or 2. I don't have them where I can do their trust events to know them more. Or 3. Iâm lazy to think more. I will make a part 2 in the future after researching a little bit more. Some may be inaccurate or ooc.
Phaeton
The two siblings decided that around almost every weekend they set up a game of Dungeons and Dragons in their little âhumbleâ video store, Random Play. They thought it would be fun to unwind and get to know each fractions that they invited but who knew that these players' unique personalities would become interesting when transferring into in-game? Of course, it was chaotic when controlling and keeping in check the different parties on each weekend. It will be impossible to get everyone to play the same time however, so they only result to do one or two fractions at a time with an interesting homebrew one shot.
Belle/Wise: As the Dm and Co-DM. Depending on who you pick, they are the main dungeon master controlling the strings of the puney parties meanwhile the Co-Dm helps with writing. Sometimes whenever they tired, someone else takes over the game instead. However the siblings have two obvious different play styles. Belle being the merciless DM who puts mostly combat in her games meanwhile Wise the calming DM who mainly focus on the roleplaying aspects.
H.S.O.S.6
Itâs honestly astonishing that the siblings even manage to get the very well-known Section 6 to play despite their busy schedule⌠but at the same time, while knowing them, itâs not that surprising. A perfect opportunity for their game of hooky (except for Yanagi, as she decided that it would be a good break for everyone from the constant workload.)
Asaba Harumasa: As the charming ranger. Taking the role of a Tabaxi who he based around his adorable cat at home. Of course, him knowing archery, he would obviously pick ranger (even if Seth tells him thatâs the worst class he could do). He had played a bit of D&D before, during academy days before he became an executive officer. He was invited along with Seth one day but only played for a short time however.
Hoshimi Miyabi: As the heroic warlock. Taking the role of a shifter as it was most familiar to her being a fox tierian. It took a while to teach her how to play dnd and the whole premise of it. Many NPCs were afraid of her due to her origin that she chosen but she was able to prove to every one of her good deeds⌠well after staying in one place too long as she took on everyoneâs requests to help fix their town after being raided by dozens of goblins.
Tsukishiro Yanagi: As the intellectual wizard. The only human in her party. With powers like these, she could get everything done. But of course, she always has to remind her party about the main mission ahead as the others were stuck doing side quests after side quests by their own volition. She has to push them to do what is important, just like with real life when work needed to be done.
Soukaku: As an ever-so-hungry barbarian. A childish tiefling based on her oni origins. Just like Soukaku, her character is just as adorable as her. The party lets her get away with everything⌠even some accidental deaths here and there. Outside however, she is the type of player who always asks for a snack break every 10 minutes after playing, so a house rule was made: Sokaku is allowed to eat anytime and whenever the players come to each session, they should bring their own snacks and have extras just for Sokaku.
Public Security
Even the police need a break at times after catching criminals every day. But to think they spend that break by playing D&D with the proxies? They even managed to get Jane to come along to play as itâs not often they hang out together due to having to keep up the act of a criminal.
Seth Lowell: As a caring paladin. Taking the role of a goody-two-shoed Dragonborn with a strong sense of justice. The stereotypical lawful good. He and Asaba had once played together during their academy days though it wasnât for long until the group they played with got busy. Unlike Asaba though, he actually still plays D&D during his free time.
Zhu Yuan: As a reliable fighter, taking the role of a Halfling with a sense of justice too. Possibly the only player who doesnât have even a remotely bad thing happen in her PCâs backstory. She gets easily flustered whenever she attempts to roleplay. You would think that she at least be decent due to being shown on TV sometimes but no. Her roleplaying is so bad that itâs hard to contain both the phaetonâs laughter.
Jane Doe: As a mysterious rogue. Playing the role of a shifty changeling. D&D was perfect for Jane when it came to making a character to play. Itâs not like she doesn't already take up as many personalities. Even if her character may not have the same high deception as she has, the siblings decided to just give her an advantage due to how convincing she is towards NPCs.
Qingyi: As a poetic bard. Taking the role of a wise elf who lived for a very long time. She could speak in poems without everyone having to look so confused every time she did in real life. Surprisingly, she had played dnd before. With the old folks when it used to be popular in their youth. Despite the current edition being different from the past, she still was able to pick up the rules.
Stars of Lyra
In disguise, they visited Phaeton but stumbled on them working on a game. The two siblings explained that they were setting up a D&D game. Astra, wanting to get away from the industry for a moment volunteers to play. It took some convincing for Evelyn to join until she gave in because Astra seemed happy to try out.
Astra Yao: As a melodic bard, taking the role of a beautiful elf entertainer who just wants to make everyone happy. Almost everyone at the table was amazed by her roleplaying skills⌠but who will have to guess since she is also an actress whoâs good at her job. Her chaoticness sometimes causes her to get in trouble when it comes to enemies. This was the most fun she had since a while.
Evelyn Chevalier: As a protective sorcerer, taking the role of a human bodyguard whoâs always at Astraâs side at all times. Her roleplaying act can get too real at times the way she would scold Astra about her wrong choices during in game. Especially whenever she accidentally gets herself in danger. She thinks D&D is silly but deep down she was having fun.