Hello! We are a desirdae CDD system, we experience intense atypical dysphoria of several kinds, and this is our blog to talk about it! No coining posts here, there's more than enough of those in the tag, it'd be nice to have at least somewhere that's actual dissomei/desiredae experiences. Just trying to get better and not be so debilitated by it, as it's beginning to affect our functioning.
For the sake of anonymity, we will not share any alter names or our system/collective name, nor will we use sign-offs.
We are;
DesirIntersex (Questioning intersex, but very unsure if we are, and even if we are intersex, we feel like whatever variant we may have isn't "intersex enough", and we feel very dysphoric about it)
DesirIndigenous (Bodily white, and extremely dysphoric over both race and culture. We have little to no cultural identity and long to have some connection to a culture we can be proud of without guilt. We've always admired Native/Indigenous people and cultures greatly, and that unfortunately caused dysphoria.)
DesirProgrammed (Struggle a ton with feeling like the trauma we've been through was enough, and we ended up very envious of anyone who went through worse trauma than us, in particular programming/OEA.)
DesirTortured (Same as above)
+ Possibly more we haven't found out about yet
Please understand that we know we can't transition with any of this, we have no intentions of even trying. Do NOT send us transition tips, you will be blocked on sight. On that note, we are not radqueer and do not support them in any way. Radqueers DNI with us, you will also be blocked on sight. While I do empathize with your dysphoria, I can't trust that you won't try and drag us into being radqueer and getting us to "transition" when we don't want that.
Our dysphoria is fully involuntary, and is essentially a trauma response. Believe me, if we could snap our fingers and make it all go away, we would. We're trying very hard to lessen this dysphoria and cope better with it <3 Tips on how to do so that don't involve transitioning are more than welcome! Please talk about your dysphoria here too if you have it, especially anything similar to ours, we desperately wanna feel less alone.
