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I don’t want Jax to abstract. That’s the boring option.
With that little end bit with Cain I’m thinking…what if Cain abstracts? That’s way more unexpected and I think more interesting. And the end bit feels like a warning of it happening.
Quite honestly him turning out to just be a bad guy would be boring and doesn’t work with any of his character we have seen so far. But him abstracting doesn’t even feel like a possible option so I think it’s the more interesting one.
Jax abstracting is expected and boring.
And over the past few episodes we have seen Cain get progressively more frustrated with how everyone just doesn’t like his adventures. So I can see the emotions getting to him. Then idk what that bit about the photo of the computer means. Perhaps he is remembering real world and he isn’t a part of the game but another human trapped inside thinking that’s his role and that he’s not real. Like how Jax was talking about archetypes. Or maybe the ai has its own version of abstraction. Idk
I ABSOLOUTLEY agree. Personally, I think abstraction would be the EASY way out of the mess that he's created for himself. Abstraction, of course, looks terrifying, but thinking about it, doesn't it sort of fit Jax's minset to distance himself and to become less human??
I feel like him going through the consequences of his actions would be so much more rewarding for a character like Jax. Consequences like actually AKNOWLEDGING properly the hurt hes inflicted on others, and importantly, the hurt hes inflicting on himself. It's clear that he's terrified of people seeing him for who he is, and TERRIFIED of vulnerability.
It really depends on how they'd HANDLE abstracted Jax. It could be a moment where everyone finally sees the stress he was under and that it was all just a mask that was played up. It depends narratively, if it'd fit with the shows theme of connection and humanity, does the circus members have it in them to see past what Jax has done to them? And recognise that at the end of it, he was also human, trapped in the confines of the circus. But ultimately for Jax, it also proves his mindset right in a way. If he becomes abstracted, he's finally distanced from being actually 'human'. That he ultimately, got what he wanted, but ultimately leads further into the lonliness and isolation with Abstraction, thrown down to the bottom of a cellar, ultimately leaving him forever alone and isolated. Whether he deserves that fate or not is up to gooseworxs and the message, I guess. Whether his mindset ultimately leads him to his demise like his other abstracted friends.
With the notes about Caine, that direction also is very plausible, with the fact that there's about 3 (I think?) Episodes left, and with the seeds planted from episode to episode with Caine and him glitching out and losing his sort of control, it's totally possible for Caine to abstract, and the consequences of it for him and the circus members. I do think something big is gonna come out of these moments though 100%.
I don't think Jax abstracting is 100% boring, but I do think it's 100% expected, like you said. But I think in a writers perspective, Gooseworxs could have other plans for him. Even though they said he ultimately deserves to be in the circus (in a reply to a question on Twitter I think???) I don't think it's necessarily the fate they've got planned for him, since I don't think this is on par with the theming of the show, unless it's to VS it, but I don't think so. Could be wrong, but I'd rather them subvert the expectation of Jax abstracting.
Either way, there's a lot of unique directions this can go.
This is going to be a lengthy post rambling about Jax as a character with first impressions after what we saw in episode 6, so strap in. These are just my personal observations of him as a character, what I think is going on in his head, and some VAGUE thoughts about where he might end up in the end.
Jax, is, in fact, a terrible person. He treats people like shit, his coping mechanisms are dangerous, and he will resort to whatever nasty, heartbreaking, manipulative tactic he can to twist you up and get you off his back - especially if you get too close to seeing anything more than what he has carefully curated himself - the character, the archetype, inhuman and larger than life - to be.
We are introduced to Jax as someone who is completely nihilistic from the get go, someone who looks at the fake world around him and the circumstances they’re stuck in, and essentially, succumbs to that mentality while still, somehow, not “giving up”.. He folds and fits himself into a role, an identity “designed” for him by those circumstances - it’s easier to become something (more or less) predictable, predetermined, and even cruel, than to face the emotional and legitimate reality of the situation for him. At least, he thinks it is.
And if he admits it isn’t… then he has to stomach it. And he has to stomach the ways in which he’s contributed to the suffering of the others. And he has to stomach everything he’s lost. The people he’s lost. The time he’s lost. The ways in which he’s made himself suffer through his own line of thinking.
If he admits it to himself, then everything has consequences. It’s real. He’s real. And so is everything, and everyone, else. Every experience. Every loss. Every bit of emotional connection he’s shoved away.
He's an animal in a zoo. A role in a play. A bug pinned to a board.
Meant to be observed, to entertain an unsympathetic god, and he doesn’t exist when the gates close, when the lights go down. And is that not exactly the reason why he doesn’t share anything with anyone? He doesn’t share anything personal that would contradict the archetype, the facade, the character? Anything too grounded in reality?
No room - that’s where he disappears. Where he’s no longer on display. No longer performing.
No backstory - because he isn’t human, not anymore, so why should it matter?
No quirks, no fears, nothing that doesn’t fit the brief, what keeps it all neatly compartmentalized. The thing that protects him.
Only it… doesn’t.
You and I know that.
And so does he. Why else would he fight so desperately to keep it in tact? He’s self aware, far more than anyone gives him credit for. When Pomni confronts him, he uses every tactic he can think of to throw her off his scent - from the curated character response, to the gaslighting, to saying every hurtful thing he knows she doesn’t want to hear.
But that’s the thing.
Pomni is someone who is uniquely positioned to pry her fingers in the cracks, to pull them apart and peek inside. She’s someone who is not only new to the Circus, less beaten down by the long term effects of being not just trapped but isolated with the same people who all play their parts in their own ways with varying levels of consistency, but is so painfully genuine, persistent, and real - for better or worse - that she can’t help but see it, highlight it, prompt it in other people.
And with Jax, the cracks are there long before Pomni ever shows up. We see them deepen in real time - at Kaufmo’s funeral, at Spudsy’s, during the stargazing adventure, when Ragatha talks about her past, when he realizes Caine may have more power over their mental state than he lets on, when he gets put in the maid costume, when Ragatha tries to call him out about “corrupting” Pomni, when Pomni plays with him and asks about his fears, when Pomni hugs him.
He’s sad, he’s run down, he thinks about the others and their capability for happiness, their fears, their pain points, how much autonomy he and the others truly don’t have over their minds and bodies, the implication that he is IN FACT the villain, the joy of connecting with someone real.
How terrible it feels to “have to” break their heart and push them away.
To be alone again.
To be the bad guy.
Time and time again, he can’t seem to help himself but seek her out and to begrudgingly let her in. And it gets too real. It makes him too real to be near her, stirs things long dead - things he keeps in a vice grip. He may not even know that he craves that realness, but he does. It’s human, and he is painfully so.
She challenges it - his mask, his tactics, his venom - relentlessly when the shoe drops, he feels affection, and he panics. When he tries to backtrack on it all, she breaks it and sees, even if just barely, into the bunny burrow in him and risks it all. Risks making it, and him, and everything real.
And when he regrets it, it almost brings up something in him he’s clearly been trying to keep down for a long time, to conceal and control.
Abstraction, at least theoretically.
He went looking for a playmate, and found a reality check. This is just another way he's lost his autonomy. If he can’t find a way to either control the perception of him and stave it off a little longer, or god forbid, actually let someone in and let it out, it’s only a matter of time before it takes him.
Before it makes him look stupid.
This all brings me back to Pomni’s nightmare… and its resolution at the end of episode 2 with everyone - but Jax - catching her.
I think Jax’s story, and the show, will go down one of two routes (ROUGHLY SPEAKING, not including the OTHER plot lines, and the greater mystery of the Circus):
Jax straight up gets treated like a true villain, he falls apart or is punished in some way, and everyone thinks it serves him right.
I don’t think - for a show about the connections between people and finding meaning in a stagnant life - this is the direction it will go. I think it would be antithetical to everything we’ve seen so far.
Maybe he isn’t forgiven. His bad deeds aren’t washed away. He doesn’t change - or doesn’t change enough to warrant a true redemption.
Either way, I think it’s more likely that:
2. Pomni catches him.
As things get more and more unstable, they all have to cling to each other and each other’s knowledge to make it through - whatever that means for them in the end. I almost foresee a situation where they almost lose Jax. But somehow, some way, Pomni (and maybe the others, too) are able to pull him back from the edge.
But, I guess, as Goose is so fond of reminding us, we'll have to wait and see :)
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HAS EVERYBODY LOST THEIR MINDS
HAS NOBODY EYES TO SEE
SHAYY WAS RIGHT
Y'ALL CANT FUCKING READDDDDDDD
IF I HEAR ONE MORE PERSON SAY SOMETHING TO THE EFFECT OF "Oh! EVEN Berdly was featured in the newsletter!"
"Even KERDLY got some crumbs from the new chapters!" or
"Berdly's probably gonna have some comedic moments in chapter 5 and that's it."
IM GONNA CRASH TF OUT
IM GONNA PUT MY COMPUTER IN THE TRASHCAN AND STOMP TF OUT OF IT
DO I HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU PEOPLE?????????????
Berdly
Is
FUCKING
Relevant
And is at LEAST as important to the plot as Noelle.
I could talk abt how the combination of his absence from the prophecy and being one of the few lightners to know abt the dark world gives him an INCREDIBLE character-arc propelling dilemna of whether to help his friends or to just stay on the sidelines like fate intended,
OR I could mention how his total freedom from the prophecy and his desire to be involved in adventure is a FASCINATING contrast to Kris's entanglement in the narrative and simple wish for security.
I could yap all day abt how he's the ONLY thing that changes the plot so far.
I could EVEN talk about the symbolism of him being a bird, free from the restraints of the prophecy, and Kris literally being "The cage", a prisoner to it.
(Plus the fact that out of EVERYTHING they could have in their room to keep the SOUL in, they have a birdcage. A FUCKING BIRDCAGE.)
But I'm not going to talk about any of that.
OR the million and a half other reasons that Berdly is FUCKING relevant that I have and that Kerdly is the Kris ship that makes the most sense with the canon.
BECAUSE I SHOULDNT BE THE ONLY ONE FUCKING SAYING ALL THIS SHITTTTTTT
So my life is crashing down around me, and I really hate to do it, but I'm asking for help.
My job laid me off in December, and I've FINALLY found one that's doable. Only issue is that it's in office for the first month, and I don't have a car. AND I'll be part time while in training, so anything I make will be going towards rides and food. My friend was kind enough to lend me her car last week, but that won't be an option next one.
I'll need a new laptop since its WFH. My work won't provide me with one, and my own Literally just overheated and destroyed the battery this week. (see above)
And on top of it all, my cat Miles has stomatitis. I drained my retirement funds to afford getting 8 teeth pulled a few months ago, and now his teeth are hurting him again. He's been eating very little and I want to get him in ASAP so we can get some fluid and pain meds while I save up for more.
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**It'll cost well over 1k, likely 2k+ to get him fully fixed again. I might open another post for him later, but I just want him to get some relief...
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