Dean Winchester

THE CONCEPT that i had.. here it is

Heaven Falls

Author: corrupt_touch

Artist: Alyssa

Rating: Explicit

Pairings: Castiel/Dean WinchesterBenny Lafitte/Dean Winchester (past)Lisa Braeden/Dean Winchester (past)Cassie Robinson/Dean Winchester (past)Anna Milton/Dean Winchester (past)Castiel/Meg Masters (past)Castiel/Mick Davies

Length: 43535

Warnings: N/A

Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting; Castiel - love confession; Castiel/Dean Winchester - first kiss; Lawyer Castiel; Firefighter Dean; Explicit Sexual Content; Castiel and Dean as best friends as teenagers; Dean Winchester Loves Castiel; Castiel Loves Dean Winchester

Summary: Dean Winchester and Castiel Novak were inseparable friends growing up in the too-small town of Heaven Falls, New York. But that all comes apart when, on the verge of leaving for college, Castiel tells Dean that he's in love with him. Dean doesn't say those three words back, so Castiel leaves, and builds a life as an attorney in Manhattan, where he convinces himself he has all the success and happiness he ever wanted. Decades later, Castiel's brother dies in a tragic accident, and Castiel finds himself returning to Heaven Falls, and to everything he thought he'd left behind. A chance meeting in a bar leads to Dean making a confession to Castiel - he had always felt the same way, but was just too scared to say it. And an unexpected night with Dean makes Castiel to question whether he should return to to the world he once thought was his dream, or stay in the place that feels like his home

🌄 Summer Dreams:

A Map Between Us 🌄

And then, without meaning to, he leaned in—just enough to feel Castiel’s breath ghost against his own. His eyes searched his face, flicking between his mouth and eyes like he was trying to memorize something he’d already lost once.

Castiel didn’t move. Didn’t pull away.

He just tilted his chin slightly, his lips parting—not in invitation, but in something far more dangerous: surrender.

I love it

10/10

Nightly This Dean & This Cas

After the mayor is murdered, DA Cas Novak turns to Det. Dean Winchester, who is known for not following orders, for help when no one seems to care. But as they get closer to each other, the corrupt city government isn’t the only thing going down

Tell me more about how DA Cas would judge Dean's car (and therefore Dean and his methods) for being unregulated, impractical, and indiscrete. Dean calls Castiel a Goody-two-shoes with a moral stick shoved so far up his ass, he's coughing splinters

Tell me about how Dean shows Cas the true underbelly of the city and the corruption that's become so normalized it's become its own culture. And Cas shows Dean how much of a chokehold the government has over the police system, rendering them stupidly useless and actively incompetent to keep citizens reliant and submissive

Tell me about the arguments

How they're both hypocrites for making calls based on their own judgements. How Cas still has some form of faith in the system he thinks he can fix, while Dean thinks there's nothing they can do when something is already broken

Tell us about how the murder of the mayor set off a domino effect that's going to sink the city into a new age of chaos. And how if nothing is done, the entire STATE would be cut off from the rest of America for reasons they have to uncover

About how DA Cas Novak knows that the legal system in this city has always been about liberty and justice for some. He ran on a platform of fighting the corruption, of setting things right, only to see things fall apart in front of him. The mayor? Yeah, he's dead but Cas can't help but think he deserved it. Taking bribes and earning favors is what this city's government has always been about. Cas doesn't belong here, but he needs to be here. At least, that's what he tells himself in the middle of the night when he's haunted by the victims of the systematic failures of the law.

And the cops? They're in on it all. Except Dean Winchester. He's one of them, but not really. He's been reckless and broken since his partner, Det. Lee Webb was murdered last year. Rumor is that Lee was about to talk about the things he'd seen in the department and turn everyone in. And then suddenly he was in a police-flag draped coffin. Drug bust gone wrong. Right.

Cas doesn't trust Dean at first, but Dean is the only one willing to help. Dean has anger issues, he's a loaded gun waiting to misfire. But Cas finds himself drawn to Dean, doing his best to fight the system, while sharing late-night drinks and stumbling into Dean's apartment.

Cas tells himself it's because he doesn't want to be alone, not after what happened to the Mayor. But he can't resist Dean, can't help but shut off all the lights and shut out the world that's crumbling around them, and let Dean lead him into bed.

And Cas never thought anything could feel this good. But losing control, losing himself, with Dean, is like nothing he could have ever imagined.

Ya know

How Dean's past contradicts everything cops stood for, how he's always known the system was corrupt because he used to be on the receiving end of it. How he fought through hell to get to where he is now, solely to make sure his brother never has to go through what he has. Knowing he alone can't fix the system, but he can make sure it doesn't affect his brother

The loss of his partner, the sudden news of his father's death, his brother's persistence in becoming a lawyer in a lawless city, and the mounting corruption that plagues every street corner all make Dean jaded and hopeless that any idea of justice will be served to those in power

And Castiel? He's naive in Dean's eyes. Too faithful, too insistent. Cas has these ideas of change and hope that frustrate Dean to no end. Cas believes in humanity, believes people can be good, that the mayor's death could be the catalyst for change

And it frustrates Dean that a part of him believes Castiel

It's infuriating to look at those blue eyes and see someone who has faith in him, has faith in Dean fucking Winchester

It boils his blood in the best of ways, staring down at those eyes late at night under the sheets. The voices in Dean's head get shoved to the background in favor of Castiel's. And for that night, Dean feels hopeful too

How long will that hope last in the city? How long before reality consumes them again?

Dean starts to see through Cas’ act, because Dean never had any hope to begin with. He recognizes the signs, the way Cas starts to show up at Dean’s place, night after night. Cas always has an excuse. Coming over to talk about new evidence, about something he overheard in some damn judge’s chambers. But it always ends the same way. In Dean’s bed, Cas’ wrinkled suit tangled on the floor, just feet from Dean’s badge and gun. It’s almost symbolic, a reminder of how this city’s law is in tatters.

And Cas starts to see through Dean’s act too. He knows that the fearlessness is all fake. Dean is terrified. Terrified of what’s going to happen next, terrified that he’s going to end up like his partner, because the other cops – they might be onto him – they might know he’s working to take them down. Terrified that everything he struggled to win, for himself, for his brother, is about to be lost with a bullet to his head.

But in the middle of the night, when rain is pounding against his window and the thunder is so relentless Dean is convinced that some god that probably doesn’t exist wants to destroy this city for its sins, Dean turns to Cas. He’s still lying in Dean’s bed, in a haze from all the ways they’ve just had each other, still running his fingers along Dean’s skin and in Dean’s hair.

“We’re going to win, right, Cas? We’re doing the right thing?” Dean mumbles against Castiel’s lips.

Castiel kisses Dean slowly, letting his lips linger, still tasting the whiskey in Dean’s mouth. “Of course we are.”

And the further they go down this road together, the blurrier the lines of justice and corruption become. Both of them make drastic and reckless choices that only lead them deeper and deeper into trenches beyond what they thought

It's soul-crushing.

So much so that even these passionate nights together end in frustrated tears and anger. Castiel cries out as he remembers the terrible sights of decay and the faults of humanity. Dean gets too rough as he tries to burn off the residual frustration of his own failures

The two are clinging to each other because what else? What else is there to hold on to that's good in this city?

Castiel has lost connection to everyone he's ever known. Every ally he's made through the decades has betrayed him. Every friend has become a foe

Dean lives in a constant state of paranoia. He even feels a sense of distrust towards his own brother when it comes to light that Sam is defending *criminals* in court to make money. The same criminals Dean tried to put away

The only good thing, the only safe thing, the two have is their nights together. And even those have become fewer and farther between

especially when Castiel discovers something groundbreaking....

The mayor is alive

Dark eyes meet under the sky The stars are out, we're alive in the night

Day 9: Starlight

inspired by this post by @rainbowscas ✨

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DEAN: If he needs his space, we’re gonna give it to him.

This poignant moment of silent grief keeps yanking at my heartstrings, presumably because to me, if Sam, Dean and Cas’ interpersonal relationships with each other are one and the same in nature: a brotherhood-in-arms and nothing more, nothing less (where canon has established, time and time again, that the brothers consider him family), Cas wouldn’t have listened to Dean or valued his advice. He would’ve went after Sam, anyway.

*To again incorporate some brief personals into this: I’d still go after my youngest sister against the wishes of my middle sister. I care for her deeply, and alleviating her pain is at the top of my list.

Here, Cas heeds to Dean, the blood brother of Sam, suggesting that his emotional, relational priorities differ; for Cas may be like a brother to Dean, but…he isn’t actually one.

He’s like a brother and more.

Yes, 11x19’s Jesse/Cesar, the expositional canon queer husbands whom Destiel’s dynamic in 14x08 mirrored/reminded me of.

Additionally, minutes later in 14x08, Dean, driven around by Cas in the Prius (Dean letting other people drive him *HIGH FIVE for him relinquishing John Winchester-bred toxic control*), reprimands Cas for letting Sam leave the bunker altogether, but Cas retorts that Dean told him to give Sam space. Dean claims he meant space inside the bunker, not outside, and yadda yadda, which calls back to 12x10’s similar squabbles, carrying over hunter husband overtones etc:

The consistently plausible implications of Brother vs Husband dazzle onscreen, in that Dean and Cas’ narrative/physical proximity to each other is ever closely linked; Cas listening to Dean by staying behind, tender touches evoking emotional stability and solidarity between them in the face of death etcetera, were all visually/narratively framed as spousal x…romantically coded in every respect —> Cas values and trusts Dean’s opinions like a brother, a best friend, and more. Undeniably more.

If Cas’ narrative position within TFW is only defined by brotherhood, why do Sam and Dean behave differently with respect to Cas vice versa in the first place? And it’s truly fitting to remind you all of the AH-MY-FEELINGS varying magnitude of S13 grief between Sam and Dean:

SPN sustain the storytelling notion *points at S11, S12–present day* that one of these is not like the other, and boy I can’t stop applauding Glynn & Co for reconsolidating all that - for pouring Love and…Love (familial vs romantic) into this deliciously complex and increasingly unsubtle romantic chicken soup for our souls.

Full circle.

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**One should also recall that Mr. and Mr. Cuevas (their last hunt playing out as a striking symbolic end to Jesse’s journey in avenging his brother, directly evoking the Brodependency/familial ties) decided to retire from hunting and returned to their New Mexico home together.

Once again, the tune of romantic togetherness and retirement is foreshadowed/thematically associated to Dean and Cas The Unit in S14 via Dean/Cas mirrors AU Bobby/Mary in 14x05, where “Hunting Is All I Know” angel-hating, revenge-seeking Bobby the Dean mirror, in conjunction with Mary the Cas mirror (recalling all Mary = Cas meta), retire to a cabin in the woods (and aim for trauma disclosure/emotional transparency in order to heal).

After finding something with someone who understands you, who understands the life and actively becomes part of it, who does it, all of it, for you and your family - what will you do?

"Yeah, it- Shit, I haven't seen anything this bad in a long time." Victor said right before he retched and then the sound of him emptying his stomach echoed in the quiet forest. Together with Castiel, Dean ducked under a yellow tape that was tied loosely around trees and stopped right in front of Victor who was now wiping his mouth with a sleeve of his jacket. "What a sick fuck could do something like this?"

"Do we know who the victim is?" Castiel asked, putting a tip of a cigarette between his lips.

"No- Not yet." Victor paled even more, trying not to retch. "That bad?" Dean chimed in, a sympathetic expression on his face. At least he hoped so.

"To the point that I'm not sure we will be able to find out who she was. Well, maybe... Maybe we will have some luck with her fingerprints. If they're good enough. She- Fuck! She almost looks like she got pushed through a meat grinder." Before Dean could say anything, Victor was behind a tree, vomiting again.

"Go get some water, Vic. We will go have a look now." Castiel exhaled a puff of smoke and nudged Dean to follow him. It only took them a minute or so to get to the crime scene. Victor wasn't exaggerating when he described the victims state; she was basically ripped to shreds, one leg nestled in moss five meters away. Dean crouched next to the body, his hands in the pockets of his jacket, and titled his head, "Man, this is bad."

I know this scene in ep 17 has been talked about before but what I found interesting is that Naomi is talking like she’s getting Cas ready for when he finds the angel tablet and he’ll be forced to kill whoever is with him. She doesn’t specify Dean or Sam yet of course Cas is forced to kill hundreds of Dean clones. This tells me that she assumes Cas will be with Dean whether it’s because he’ll need help and she knows he’s the one Cas will go to because he trusts Dean or Dean wouldn’t let Cas do it by himself and will go with Cas.

Sam is surprised that Dean prayed to Cas even though he’s calling him an ass. Obviously Sam doesn’t know that Dean has prayed to Cas hundreds of times since he prayed to him every night in purgatory and a bunch of times before and after. It’s only now that Sam realizes that there’s something wrong with Cas yet Dean knew as soon as Cas came back. So Dean knows something is wrong and that’s what’s makeing Cas act weird yet he still trusts Cas to watch over Sam. It’s amazing because Dean isn’t a religious person and he has no faith in god or the other angels. All his hope and faith is in Cas. If Cas dies his hope and faith is gone and he can barely function.

This scene is amazing. One of the best scenes I’ve seen so far in terms of acting and storyline. Dean tells Cas to get the angel tablet Cas will have to kill him first. That’s usually something someone says if they are planning to fight back yet Dean does nothing but let Cas hit him. It’s beautiful that they won’t fight each other even in a situation like this where Cas is being mind controlled. Then there’s Deans speech. I know you. It’s me. We’re family. We need you (swallow). I need you. The I know you and it’s me is saying the same thing I just said Dean knows Cas wouldn’t intentionally hurt him of all people. Then the we’re family. That’s a big thing for Dean. It means I trust you, I’d die for you and I know you feel the same way. First he said we need you as in him and Sam needs Cas as an angel but then he swallows and gets the courage to say I need you. This is also big. Dean has said this to Cas before but it was different. Before it was a I need you in my life whether you’re an angel or not. This time it was clearly Dean not haveing the courage to say I love you but the next best thing. This time it’s more about their profound bond as Cas said. I know originally Dean was supposed to say I love you but I personally don’t think he’s ready to say that yet. Then Cas goes to fix Dean but Dean doesn’t know if Cas is going to kill him or what he’s going to do yet all Dean does is grab Cas arm.

The beginning of ep 18. Sam asks Dean if there was anything he wanted to talk about and what had happened with Cas. Dean said like my feelings? Sam said sure if that’s what you want to talk about. Sounds like Sam knows about Deans feelings for Cas and is letting him know that he’s willing to listen. This look was Dean realizing Sam knows but there’s no way he’s talking about it yet.