Nikos in Drm here. Have a question--is being a musician working out? do you think you'll be able to do it for the long haul? Just wondering! As always, I'm curious and, of course, jealous of your talent and creativity and will to keep going. As I get close to 50, I wonder what's going on and I'm trying to play some music again--in another vein, but it's incredibly hard, and I'm just not that gifted. signed-Eeyore
this message is from one of the best musicians i ever knew in NC. just goes to show, it really is so hard for everyone, we're all fucked up, questioning ourselves, thinking we don't got something we most definitely probably got. love you nikos, i hope you're doing something that brings you joy and confidence, my thoughts now are....if you're worse without it then you keep going, if it's making you fold in on yourself then you quit it. it's just a math problem, i guess. sometimes when im having a hard time, i think about quantum mechanics and how it seems to suggest that somewhere, many wheres, so many other dimensions, there is a nikos (more likely there are many, many nikos') shredding harder than ever and loving every second of it. i like to think about all the dimensions where aimée is not struggling, and then I try to imagine standing in a crowd of aimées, soaking in their energy, just the ease with which they are moving through their lives, all the joy they feel in their dimensions that i often struggle to feel here in mine. i believe in them, that they're out there, and that they're me. i dont know if they believe in me, or see me, it doesn't matter, they don't have to. they are happy where they are, so i just try to connect with them when i can.
