"you are not as damned as you think you are"

I still think every person or pet ive ever lost. something nearly separates everything every eventually. sickness and death. falling outs and growing pains. but love keeps us connected, even if the love carries its weight in grief. we still have it. there's still something shared between us. we still have something that's ours.

if you ask me if i want an apple and you hand me a mf red delicious apple... Im going to take you out back and shoot you

I know i couldn't be daredevil or batman because some man threatened me in traffic today and I was only mad I didn't have my gun

"i used to" is such a harsh phrase. it can be good or bad. it doesn't imply permanence or lack thereof. I simply "used to" do something that I no longer do. "I used to live down the hall from my brother." "I used to know them." "I used to play the saxophone." "i used to have a cat." "i used to know that language" I did that once. that was a part of my life once. its not anymore, but if you look back a few chapters its right there. its not here, not now, but its there. its still there

dhmu I just saw straightified fanart of one of my favorite gay ships. those boys are lesbian what the hell are you doing

ive been trying to work off of my antidepressants because i want to be able to stand on my own two feet and I thought I could do it. I really thought I could handle myself. but my worst trigger set off my ocd and I feel like im drowning again. I went from 20 to 15 mg. that's nothing. I dont want to imagine how I would've reacted if I was unmedicated. how do I go on like this?