Depressed Monkey

being the second choice

being ignored

never being taken seriously

being the friend who has to walk behind everyone

getting my heart broken

being too fat

being "lazy"

being myself

not being supported by my own parents

never being the favorite child

overworking and still not getting recognition

being ugly

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- Not sharing new hobbies or impulse buys with close friends or family or partners, keeping "unecessary" things secret, people might accuse you of being too secretive

- Impulse to delete social media updates after publishing them

- Impulse to delete comments on social media platforms when they "preform" badly

- "Paralyzis" in social settings - you have an idea of what to say, but it feels physically impossible, and when it's too late and people have moved on from the topic you give up

- Immediate, self destructive, and violent regret after saying something, anything

- Ghosting people when the immediate high of someone giving you attention falter, not because you don't like them anymore, but because you forget you can interact with people when it's not "extraordinary"

- Being overly generous to make sure people like you, paying for things, giving gifts etc

- Forced proximity and/or enemies to lovers seems the only way that someone can fall in love with you

- Secondhand embarrasment from TV or other media is unbearably painful, even if it's a "bad" character doing something wrong

- You spend hours on thinking how people percieve you, and it's both thrilling and terrifying

- Saving/screenshotting funny things you think of sharing with a friend, but you change your mind and only keep them to yourself

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