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It really sucks that as a human your body is always trying to sabotage you. It's selfish and it wants you to be fat and ugly and full, constantly. Like I love that my body is taking care of me, but respectfully, just let me die.

I skipped an ENTIRE SEMESTER when I was deep in my ED, and I don't even remember what I did during that time. 4 months were erased from my memory, just like that ? Memory loss from undereating is WILD 🤯

watching to the bone while fasting >>>

been seeing what i like a little bit more in the mirror but also hating it at the same time???

like where i used to see a bump right above my 🐱 is slimming, but also the rest of my body feels huge if that makes any sense…

my brain saw the slippery slope of unhealthy coping mechanisms and grabbed a fucking sled

My depression has gotten to the point where I don't even want anything anymore. I don't care if it gets better. I don't want to fall in love anymore. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to travel or shop or have fun. I just want it all to stop. It's too much I feel like I can't breathe. I'm so lonely, my friends don't care. I just want to stop existing. I think I'm going crazy. when did I become invisible? when did it all get so grey?

no one talks about the anger issues that comes with having an eating disorder

i think i had that anyways.. but yes can confirm this to be true