Lhexxiie

"I'm okay, i'll be okay, everything will be okay."

And sometimes it’s just so hard to fight the tightness in my chest when everything is dark. And it breaks my heart to realize that I am not (always) strong enough to fight for myself which shouldn’t really be a surprise. So I’m sitting on the edge of my bed, wrapped up in my sheets and the emptiness is overwhelming, just like the way my heart beats. And it is so goddamn hard not to forget that there is something that makes it worth the fight and that I cannot just go back to bed, because the only thing I really don’t want to lose is the awareness that I’m the one who gets to chose where my life will take me and what’s my destiny and that my passions are a way of therapy.

Falling in love with you was like starting a TV-series of which you know that there will only be one season. Watching episode after episode, pouring your heart into the characters, getting drawn into the story, despite knowing that it will come to an end all to soon, perhabs even with a major cliffhanger, without any chance of a happy ending.

In this universe we are given two gifts: the ability to love, and the ability to ask questions. Which are, at the same time, the fires that warm us and the fires that scorch us.

what you’re missing is inside of you. stop looking for yourself in others. you’re enough.

I can’t go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.

Sometimes I remind myself that I almost skipped the party, that I almost went to a different college, that the whim of a minute could have changed everything and everyone. Our lives, so settled, so specific, are built on happenstance.